Monday, February 28, 2005
todae is the o lvl result tiky....well........i did so badly.....haizz...a B3!....omg lorzz.....i wanted a A1.... haizz....well.....seriously i duno y b4 gettin the result i was so slack.....haha?....duno la.....but i so slack until can make jokes ard.....haizzz....well....aft tt i straight away got out of sch.....oso duno y....well....in da bus stop my eyes juz got wet....haizz....close to cryin lorzz...
well....in the bus i did cried....well.....juz a few drops ran dw my cheeks....well.....seriously....i cried not mainly bcoz of the result i got....juz tt i suddenly tot of y i had got such results....n i felt tt perhaps tt time i was mainly focusin on Yq rather den my E.maths....haizz....well.....tt tim got so many probzz....haizz....so i sort of felt veri pain in my heart....
waaa....den todae ah....in class....i was listening to 'Qi Li Xiang'....well.....seriously wen i listen to tt song....it reminds mi of where i work....Motorola tt is....well.....reminded mi of wad happ durin my workin days.....
well.....came back n den slp lorzz....haiz...so tired....den aft tt my dad called mi to ask abt my results....aft tt hadi called mi n wanted to come ova my hse....but didn.....nvm anyway....so i cant slp orady....den i come facin the com....n found out tt Yq was online....zzz....well....suddenly i felt so pain n heartwrenchin in my heart lorzz....haizz....b4 she offline she even say abt sth tt was obviously directed to mi.....zzz....it made mi so pain in my heart tt in the end i msged her.... well....reli felt much beta now lorzz....haizz.....tis is life....full of ups n dws....
to all my frens: One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love..... Sophocles (seriously....i do need it now!....)
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4:51:00 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
hmm.....todae ah....nv go Sunday soccer lorz...well....todae go "sao mu"....tts y nv go......well...... i ytd quite late slp sia......den i so tired.....haha.....but i njoyed listenin to music.......coz more options to choose frm wif a bigger memory.....haha.....
hmm....den aft tt Fiz msged mi sae duwan go meet Cass le.....so i nv go n oso got time to slp le..... hmmm....i did slpt but not enuff lorz.....haha....anyway.....abt 6 i wen dinner le....we reached there veri early lorzz....well...so bored until i took out my hp n msged sm pp...
well...aft tt i complained tt my stomached couldn take it anymr....so my dad gav mi 10 bucks to buy pao for evbd....haha.....well...he told mi to go smwhere where it was a red-light district!... omg!....well....at 1st i didn noe....until i saw sm guys n gals standin lorz....well....i found it strange lorz...so my veri 1st conclusion was tt it was a red-light district....zzz....i was lik....y did my dad tell mi to come to tis place!....
well...i msged to Fiz abt where am i only....n he saes tt there alot of chio bu....zzz....i was lik....err....no chio bu.....but alot of aunties wearin veri sexy?....LOLZ!......but i c dem reli at least 30 lorzz....aiyo....luckily i wasnt tempted!...LOLZ!....coz i reli not interested in lookin at aunties?...
well...aft tt i got to noe more abt tis dinner im havin annually lorzz....well....i felt its quite meaningful lorzz....haha....well....frm tt dinner....i reli look forward in my later life....haha?...
to my frens: Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow to die..... Amelia Burr (waa... meaningful sia...)
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11:13:00 PM
Saturday, February 26, 2005
haha.....todae ah.....sch so short....den so many cher nv come....lolz.....well.....rite aft sch i go hm lorzz....lolz....well...y ah?....wan go hp lorz!....b4 tt i had to set up the printer lorz....haizz....ser up liaoz....den aft tt i go buy hp!....so hapi sia....initially feelin was okok lorzz....hmmm....n i cant use my M1 no.....nb....abit angry sia....coz the SIM card cant support it!.....nb......so wad i do is juz use the Singtel lorzz....muz lidad....well....seriously i now no mood to study....i wan "shang shang xin" lorz...seriously....evdae c Yq....how to 4gt her sia.....haizz....
well....1st to note for todae....i duno how to use the printer!...2nd tik....i got the hand of usin the hp!....haha....well well....i tik tts all lorzz....veri hapi now coz i veri satisfied wif the hp lorz.... btw....the size of the foto so big sia wen tak pic....zzz....3rd tik!....omoz 4gt....no MMC card!....nb.... muz go buy....zzz....1 card cost abt 50bucks!.....burn my pocket nia......zzz.....well.....i tik ard next wk i wan go shoppin lorz....any1 readin.....care to folo mi?...lolz!....muz giv mi reply leH!.....haha....
to all my frens: Like a prune, you are not getting any better looking, but you are getting sweeter..... N. D. Stice (haha....hope u all lik tis part of my blog evtim i find quotes...^.^ )
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12:42:00 AM
Thursday, February 24, 2005
waaaaaaa....todae ovaslpt lorz...so nv go sch....i too tired la......cant slp lorzz....wad else.....hmm.... wake up den start playin Op Flashpoint lik fook.....play until 6+ lidad.....den go west mall c hp!.... tmr goin buy Motorola E1000 le.....yay!....hmmm.....i reli lik it lorzz.....i felt tt i got affinity wif Motorola....lolz....previously workin there....haha.....
hmm.....i tot ova le.....i tik i wan to reli b wif myself le.....i duwan do anyth....i tik its not worth it.... i oso feel tt she is not worth to b in my life le.....actually i wen to a Q n A webbie where got alot of experts to ask frm lorzz.....den ans my qn lorz....i tik the expert told mi was veri true....hmmm... well......hope wad im doin is rite......anyways....i will still wait 4 her ba.....no matter wad......n if she reli wan to come back.....i will wan her de.....crazy ba mi......
hmm....wad else ah?...nth le ba....haha...
to all my frens: Beware of all the paradoxical in love. it is simplicity which saves, it is simplicity which brings happiness.... Love should be love..... Charles Beaudelaire (so true horz?...)
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11:18:00 PM
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
haizz.....juz now tok to Cass....she told mi tt while readin my blog...she felt tt my love for Yq is not tt strong le.....well.......i was stunned for awhile......well.......i duwan to say whether my love for Yq is not tt strong or not le....
seriously...i now feel lik crying....i duno y......there are alot of factors lorzz....not juz wad Yq told to Hadi.......haizz....mainly evtik surroundin mi now.....but i wont cry de.....coz i noe i will b strong.....i wont b a weakling.....nv....
big tiks r ahead of mi rite now....n i need to conquer dem....haizz...i will find all ways to get back all my confidence n brain cells back to mi de...
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11:43:00 PM
zzz....waaa...todae in sch ah?....okok lorz....well....juz now the a.math test ah...gone case...i nv study lorzz...n i dun utd....haizz...dun care ba....well....its not the case now....haizz....
well....actually wanted to tok to Yq de todae.....but got no chance....zzzz.....den 4gt la.....so i go to her blk there lorz....but she saw mi....at 1st i tot she wif Eileen de....but not lorzz....coz juz now 9++ Hadi called mi.....told mi evtik......so i found out it was "A".....zzz....
zzz....now veri fan la.....its lik.....whole tik upsid dw le.....found out many tiks le....waa...the more i tik the more heart wrenchin it is for mi lorzz...hmmm....wad can i sae now?!....onli can sae i reli reli cant do anyth lorzz....haizz...lucky nv sae out my feelin to her lorzz....if not i paisei or sth lorz.... haizz....luckily i nv sae lorzz...coz i felt it wasnt the rite time to sae it out......haizzz....im juz wonderin how deep she lik tt bloody ass.....nb....so fook up now....
i nd serious tikin n re*****ing le.....haizz....but how to?...im in tis bloody toot state...n oso tmr common bloody test lorz....nb.....wad i shd sae?....OMG!....waaa...i now feel my heart is wrenchin lorzz....omg....wad can i sae to her?....haizz....btw...juz now she told Hadi to tell mi tt i deserve a better gal.....as she felt tt i treated her too gd n she sort of went ova my head.....i was lik tellin myself......I DUN MIND!....juz want u back!.....haizzz....
anyway....got sm comments abt my poem....thx guys....
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10:30:00 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
My Life...
Love can open one heart,
yet can wreck one heart.
True love never dies,
but it will only happen to some people.
This people would even die for their loved one,
yet never being appreciated.
Everyone has its flaws,
but what that person want is just a particular thing.
Perhaps their true love,
or maybe just all the time in the world with their loved one.
Sensitivity is essential in all relationships,
good thing is you can know more about what your partner is thinking.
Yet over-sensitivity is not encouraging,
as it only shows no trust.
Surroundings can make a relationship better,
but can also break a loving relationship.
One's(Friends') words and doings can further improve a relationship,
yet can destroy completely.
Thinking back,
One may find it regretful with their doings or in anguish about their surroundings that caused it.
Never to let go a chance,
only if one has changed for the better.
Dedicated to people who doesn't understand true love and one who i had shared all my life with, Yq...
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10:52:00 PM
zzzz....im reli tired now....hmmm....todae ah...in sch i slp slp slp.....tired lorzz....ytd all my uncles n aunts go back at abt 10++ lorzz....hmmm....wad to say now?...dunO!....i cant tik now sia.....
anyway....todae i keep tikin abt the past lorz!.....zzz...i reli wana explode la....zzz.....todae wad im doin i juz get ANYTH rite!....includin my hair!....i duno y i go mess up my hair lorzz....den all the paint come out.....onto my face....n wads more...i go use my shirt n clean!....zzz....haizz.....
hmmm...juz now go west mall.....zzz.....go folo Fiz n his family buy hp....ah?.....aiya....wait until 9 i zhao liaoz....tired lorzz.....
hmmm....juz now ah....my mum told mi abt 3 gals of our sch....swearin away in the bus in the mornin lorzz.....even described to mi tt they looked veri decent lorz....haha....den i joked to her..... "u la....wan mi to b in tis 2pid sch..."....den.....sudden tots came into my mind...if i had nv came to tis sch....i would nv hav met Yq...n i nv will b tis Muff ev1 noes.....
life is so unpredictable ah?...i changed my life wif my own cause....but....i noe tt i hav changed....i suddenly felt tt way.....inner tikin ba.....tts wad it had changed.....haizz....currently i got no mood to say n tik le....coz i now veri tired n confused....haizz...
to all my boy frens: Sex Tip for Men (Straight/ Gay/ In-Between). If you are looking for that great body first, you may never find your life-mate. If you love first, you will probably find the body you are with to be highly arousing. (haha...extracted frm sm places!...well....i tik preferably for much older pp den 17-year-olds...lolz...but i tik its true if u blend it in the case of finding a gal....)
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9:36:00 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
zzz....im veri tired now......waaa....actually juz now got my uncle n aunts come lorzz.....so i nv slp throughout the dae....smmr juz now got Sunday soccer ma....zzz....sian la.....lidad veri tired sia..... hmmm....well.....my com ok liaozz....juz lidad....tired to tell whole story la.....anyway on tt dae....i suddenly enthusiastic abt buyin new hp lorz.....well.........i now grown to lik tt Motorola E1000 lorz....the more i c the more lik stylish to mi lorzz....
well.....duno my mum lorz....muz hav sm terms n conditions wif her 1st de sia.....haizzz.....aiya....my fone so faulty le....i reli wan to change sia.....
btw.....too tired until i nv study or wad lorzz......haizzz....
hmmm.....den juz now i go west mall wif Kl n Fiz.....go c the hp lorzz....haha.......serious sia......so chio in my eyes....haha.....i wan go slp le........haha....byes...
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10:18:00 PM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
zzz.....aiya....juz came back frm Hadi's hse.....ytd mi n Kali go there ovanite....zzz....my parents dun lik it lorzz....but......juz 4 the sake of frens....i did tt....am i rebellious?....hope not ah....lolz.... hmmm....i noe Hadi la....he juz too sad.....even tho he seems QUITE normal lorz.....hmm.... hope he can b lik mi now.....i feel tt im alrite now......perhaps wen i tok to the psychiatrist.....tts y...... aiya....
hey peeps.....dun b sad....not gona c u all in msn or bloggin bcoz i nd to repair tis bloody com!.... plz stay truthfully to mi n read.....lolz...juz tahan for 1 week...lolz....
hmm.....ytd ah....i got nitemare sia!!...zzz....i dreamt tt got alot of pp huntin mi lorzz....den i muz keep runnin away frm dem!....zz.....den aft tt i dreamt of Yq.....wa?....in my dream.....we became intimate n i sort of keep lookin at her....wa?.....pp owaz sae tt dreams r alwaz sth tt in reality....u wan sth veri muh.....perhaps its true.......
well......nth much i can sae le....coz i nd to go le......byez...
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2:38:00 PM
Friday, February 18, 2005
waa....todae ah....cheebx....so tired.....hmm....duno y la....juz tt i had to lay my head dw....haha?.... btw ah.....i wen to look 4 Yq 2time lorz....1st tim durin recess where i asked her wen her re-test... coz she didn come to sch ytd...zzz....wad sia...cant wake up den dun come sch......aiyo..... anyway..... aft sch i go look 4 her again....waaa....she go scratch my my hand....zzz....well.....i felt hapi?....perhaps bcoz we seems to b closer liaozz....
den aft tt i go find Sally's bf alond wif Sally, Wq n Pt....hmmm....they got probz.....bcoz Sally's parents found out they 2gther.....hmmm...i told dem 2 solutions lorzz....1st to tell evtik the truth... 2nd to lie....but they chose the 3rd choice!....tt is combinin both solutions!...ingenius?....haha....
aft tt meet Fiz.....in the bus i saw 3 of dem.....u noe.......Yq, "A" n "E".....zzz........i felt veri wad sia.... coz i felt tt Eileen muz b goin to find tt Vick....or perhaps Yq go find tt guy?....zzz....haizz.....veri wad la....
seriously ah....i now feel lik tokin to Mrs Choo sia....i found tt she is sm1 tt i can actually tok to too!....haizz....seriously......i wana let her noe tt my lov 4 Yq is comparable to Hadi.....haha?.... not funi to mi.....coz itz true......
aiya....tmr i go service my com...nb....lik wad sia.....cant use com for 1week!....omg...zzz....lame lame.....
btw...juz noe i trimmed my hair on my own......felt not bushy anymr....lolz....oh ya....lata goin Hadi's hse n ovanite.....wana help him in anyway i can...well...Fiz n Kali will oso b there....
To all pp: It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all..... Samuel Butler (i tik the author is correct...at least u got tt feelin of 'lost' b4...)
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3:51:00 PM
zzz....aiya.....ytd half way bloggin my whole com hang....den cant on sia.....now can le.....anyway i called the pp....they tell mi moz prob is RAM spoil lorz....so i hav to leave my com there for at least a week.....by tis week i will go put there.....i will try to rem evtik n list it dw in here aft 1wk lidad... hmm....well....todae ah....i meet Hadi n Kali again....tis time got Fiz n Fika....but Fika go hm 1st.... left wif 4 of us......well.....sort of abt 11++ den reach hm lorz....haizz....Hadi ah....haizz....his love too deep for Eileen....i juz dun utd y she can do tt.....i even heard tt Eileen let tt guy hug her!....nb....i heard tt oso hot man......juz lik wad mrs Choo say.....evtik is not impt....but 1 tik is impt.....tt is tt person is true to u!.....
todae i go c the psychiatrist lorz.....waa.....aft tok to him i reli so hapi!......i told him abt mi n Yq.... frens....many tiks....n even my plans....i reli veri relieved now....sort of no worries now....tt kind of feelin......duno y.......
hmm.....i will owaz heed wad my psychiatrist says.........i will....
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12:20:00 AM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
zzz.....hmm......wa....todae in sch...i slpt all the way man....im juz so tired.......hmm....well..... todae ah...lame sia.....canteen nv open bcoz of the total def tiky......i veri hungry lorz.....btw.....frm ytd tik now.....i only ate 1pkt of rice!...omg!.....seriously.....im still veri slpy even now as im bloggin....
btw......juz now i go find Yq.....well.....she wen to her Gdma hse juz now......n abt 10:30 lidad reach hm?...tik so......well....i FINALLY gave her the V. day gift.....omg?.....haizz....anyway....many tiks happ while we where together......seriously......frm wad i noe.....she IS veri anxious of the BIG box tt dae wen i bot to sch......haha?....well.....juz now i hesitated to giv her the sarcasm letter to her....well....i noe insid....its TOOOO sarcastic....well...since she die die wan read......well...i juz let her read.....i tik she muz hav felt sad?...angry?....i duno....coz im too lazy to tik NOW...my eyes r half closed anyway.....seriously...she finally tells mi she has a bf....so i sort of wanted to giv her the letter....
anyway....to all my frens.....i noe wad im doin......
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11:52:00 PM
zzz?.....well.....wad can i write abt?....1st of all.......i CANT SLP!....2nd tiky.....i juz write finish a letter.....i tik Yq muz b hapi to c tt letter!....full of praises from MI!.....haizz.....such praises from MI is hard to come by these days!....hmmm....i am siao wen i wrote tt letter.......haha?....too stress man!....seriously....aft i wrote tt pathetic letter.......it reli relieved mi alot of stress!.......haha....
btw......i duno wana go sch or not!......zzz........even tho i hav smwad de-stress myself.......my mind is still workin non-stop!.....great........1st time my mind duwan slp.......juz great.....
zzzz......wad can i do now eh?....write another letter?....lolz!.....im juz waitin for 6am....n juz get out of my hse......
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4:54:00 AM
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juz come back......look at the bloody time......its 3:50AM now.....great rite.....i juz cant believe it...... too much tiks happ to mi in a dae.....juz great.....
"Yq's deepest secret was let out.....perhaps it wasn a secret....well.....all her frens noe orady......juz great.....i nv noe frens lidad......esp the person i trusted moz.....of all the Chi gals....i trusted moz is Rene.....i nv noe she did tt to mi......juz great.....perhaps "frens" shdn b in my dictionary orady..... in the 1st place....it wasnt in my dictionary even.....
speakin the truth....the way Yq dressed...n the time she reached hm..........i reli nth gotta say.... its juz tt ev1 wans to giv mi never-ending probs n frustrations to mi.......
1st.....pp not tellin mi wad actually had happ to Yq's life....n i EVEN heard sm pp bad-mouthin mi...juz great....i nv seen such "frens" in my entire life...if tts the case....i guess i WILL juz close up the term "frens"!....4gt abt tt frens tiky!....
2nd tik....how Yq's life had changed.......its too much for mi to catch up......too much......if tts the case....well......i reli duno how to react to her.........."
if u had read Fiz's blog....u all will noe tt the big box tt i brought to sch wasnt for Yq....n in sch.... Yq actually asked frm mi........well....i duno......i juz sae it wasnt for her.....seriously speakin.... frm the looks of the time.......i reli duwan to go to sch.......n wif my bloody current mood.......i reli reli veri fook up.....
1st tiky.....am i angry bcoz of Yq or FRENS?!....i duno.......but i wont b angry........tis i prom myself......perhaps i shd sae frustrated....
2nd tiky.....LOOK AT THE BLOODY TIME!....reli fook up ova tis......shd i go sch?!
btw......i JUZ realised tt i didnt eat ANYTH frm morning....wtf.......i hav nv tahan until lidad b4!
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3:50:00 AM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
PART 2hmmm....well.....juz noe so many tik happ sia....well....esp to Hadi....well.....Hadi n Eileen broke.... omg?....i duno will they b together back or wad.....but....i noe Hadi is veri sad...i duno y Eileen do tis.....i duno....now...i feel tt gals r so much unpredictable....in 1 period....they can b so nice to u n so lovin...but in another period....they juz duwan u in their life.......i dun utd.....i juz dun utd.....juz look at dem....Hadi nv pick a fight wif Eileen....yet such tiks happ to him.....i juz feel veri bad for him.... well....i juz hope Eileen still loves Hadi....i noe Hadi is hopin tis too....i bet he cant slp now....haizz... he is juz goin thru my period.....i noe he will b alrite....i noe.....
hmm...den at abt 7++ i wen BP to buy hair spray....well...i am supposed to cut hair sia....well...i duwan care la....my hair now so nice....nb.....aft tt i wen my uncle hse lorzz.....ard BP onli....walk den reach le.....on the way i saw Hadi!....well....he was meetin up wif Kali....well....at least he is doin sth tt wont make him sad lorzz.....well....i tik Hadi hav told Kali abt his case orady wen they met juz now....haizz....if i no nd go my uncle hse i sure folo dem.....deep dw i noe how Hadi feels.... haizz....
btw....juz now in the bus wen goin to BP...i saw a pair of couple in the bus....well...normally wen i c couples in place i sort of feel veri vexed.....i duno y....but wen i c dem....i felt hapi for dem... perhaps bcoz i told myself tis..."at least they r together..."
seriously speakin.....both our case is different....in terms on y we broke....but the storyline is sort of the same.....well....i told my mum abt Hadi....well.....she told mi tt usually wen both r of diff races...its reli hard to b together....esp wen any party of the parents dun giv blessings....haizz... n i got to noe tt 1 of my relatives rite....one of dem r lovers in sec sch sia!....my mum sae tt they NEVER quarrelled....n was VERI lovin....wow?....haizz....tikin of tt.....haizz...i feel abit guilty sia... abt mi n Yq ofcoz...
to my gal frens: plz dun owaz giv bois hard time lei....esp of wad u all tikin!
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11:56:00 PM
PART 1
waa......todae go Sunday soocer....nb.....too good to b true sia...hmmm....actually all my muscles all veri pain lorzz.....den i tot todae i will b totally off-form lorzz....lolz....but to my surprise.....NO!... lolz....waa....todae play until i still wan to play smmr sia!.....
b4 even the match started....Leon stouted to b beware of mi sia....sae i on-form for at least 5 weeks orady!...lolz....btw....5 weeks....haizz.....mi n Yq broke up ard tt long le lorzz.....haizz....seriously.... the past weeks i was in a daze while im playin.....i duno y i still can play tt well....so ironic....
well....1st half horzz.....reli sucky for mi lorzz....i did some mistakes.....but still can lorzz....not too bad lorzz....hmm....i did sm good passes n tts all.....reli nth to tok abt in the 1st half lorzz....
hmmm....now tok abt 2nd half!....waaaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha.....tis is where im too good to b true!.... well....i had at least 3 shots!....well....moz of the shots were off targets.....but 1 tik they complimented was tt those shots were low n hard...too bad not accurate....haha?
waa....den got 2 chances to score sia!...the 1st one hor....zzz....i reli nth to sae abt it sia....
well.....a high pass frm my teammate....den i chested it dw....wana whack it sia.....but tt i saw Kl n Eugene(i tik) comin towards mi sia....zzz...den i pulled back myself....sort of wana shield dem away sia....zzz...i shdn do it lorzz....i shd shoot it sia....zz.....aiya...den the ball fly so high....nb.... if not a goal sia...den another 1 ah.....lolz....i dribble pass a guy....tt guy stay BP wan....den todae suddenly come sia....lolz....so many mths nv saw him liaozz....aia dun care....den i run up...lolz... no1 diisturb.....den i pass to my dad n den to my teammate....den cross to mi so nicely sia.....nb.... nv get thru the defender.....zzz....a scrap goal if i score.....
haha...nvm....i assisted many goals....n was too on-form le.....well....i reli wan to bring tis form to my other matches....haha....if can lorzz....den sae....
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2:07:00 PM
hmm.....waaa....todae wake UP so EARLY!....i can die sia....AGAIN....i ytd nite CANT slp.....zzzz.... abt 2-3am den slp lorzz....wtf......if tis goes on....i reli duno wad to sae....hmm....todae i wen soccer lorzz...i go c Fiz's frens' skills lorzz....hmmm....zzz?...i reli nth to sae abt dem.....well......i lik go there sun-tan sia at 1st....lolz....hmm....dun wori...my soccer troubles are ova.....now....tim for mi to tok abt other tiks....
btw....i wana concentrate on for main tiks:
1st....My studies...
2nd...My Lov life....
3rd....My Soccer....haha...My passion!....My recreational....aiya....wadeva...lolz...
4th....My physical fitness!....lolz...
waaa....seems veri lik a perfectionist ah?....lolz....seriously i do feel lik i wan to b a perfectionist....lolz....hmm.....nb.....suddenly got sore-throat lorzz.....zzz.....i tik juz now tok too much lorz.....haizzzz.....seriously now reli cant slp lorzz.....coz i found out smtiks.....haha?....shd i b hapi n contented or wad sia.....but i will owaz tell myself tis: i wont b complacent.....strive till the end...
hmmm....tmr got Sunday Soccer lorzz....well.....i will wan to play well lorzz.....haha....i reli wana train up on my agilty lorzz.....well....todae juz got to noe tt my agilty too sucky.....n it is much worse den last tim....haizz.....seriously im much agile n fitter last time......haiz.....
to my frens: Love is my Sword, Goodness my Armor, And Humor my Shield..... Unknown, epitah for a loved one (wa....tis guy's quote is so nice!)
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12:02:00 AM
Friday, February 11, 2005
todae ah........waa....duno wad to sae sia.....well.....ytd slpt VERI late again...coz i veri fan.....so cant slp lorzz....lucky todae sch end early lorzzz....if not i cant take it lorz....haizz....well....i dun wish to tok abt Yq's matter......makin mi fan onli lorzz.....haizz.....well.....but 1 tik i muz mention lorzz.... well.....aft sch horzz...i at 1st floor.....den i held onto Yq's shoulder lorzz.....den i was lik wana tok to her.....well...takin back my money lorzz....btw.....aft tt.....Hadi told mi tt wen he saw tt "A" face.... lik not hapi lidad.....i was lik.......KNN....ur BUSINESS AGAIN?....
zzz....i reli nth to sae abt her lorzz....well....todae fed up bcoz of tt "A".....knn.....but i will keep my cool......zzz.....i tik more abt tt i more fed up.....den tmr i cant play well.....so i wan 4gt it for awhile....
well....tmr ah.....goin soccer lorzz.....meet sm frens.....wana c their skills lorzz.....lolz.....hmm....i heard frm Fiz tt they quite pro.....lolz....i duno how pro is pro....lolz.....i tik it will b below my standard de....hmmm....btw ah....its Fiz's frens....lolz!....haha....i taggin along nia.....lolz.....
hmmm.....well...todae ah?....heard Wc's team formed le....hapi 4 him?....lolz....i duno how pro r their team....n i heard they wana challenge Yat's team.....well.....i wish dem good luck.....at least a goal for dem will do.....GD LUCK!
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10:39:00 PM
waa....juz wach finish a TV series lorzz....well...FINAL le .....sort of a love story again?...lolz.....well.....todae says abt both of dem finally meet again....well...they broke bcoz of family disagreement lorzz.... hmm....well....wen they 1st finally meet.....they sort of act normal normal lorzz....well....tt gal married liaozz.....n the guy still single....but wif a gal who keeps pesterin him lorzz.....so the gal sort of didn show him tt she still actually lov him veri much.....n tt guy oso duwan to show as he wans to hide his feelings.....haizz.....well.....den juz b4 she leaves for England....they coincidently met at the church door....well.....was rainin lorzz.....at there shelter frm the rain.....sort of fated huh?.....well......frm there.....the guy realised tt he shdn hide his feelings anymore......well.....finally together.....well.....reli touched.....lolzz....well....they wen thru hardships n finally together.....haizz.....reli remind mi of smtiks....tts y i blogged in.....
well....my fav quote: ThE CoUrSe oF TruE LovE NeVeR DiD RuN SmOotH.....by William Shakespeare
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1:07:00 AM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
zzz.....todae so early wake up.....zzz....haizz....9++ lorzz...i reli slpy sia....btw....todae go alot of places.....alot of my uncle hse all tt lorzz....zzz....todae i gamble no win no lose!....zzzz.....exactly no win no lose....zzz....haizz....aiya.....so borin sia.....lucky nv stay in 1 place for veri long....if not i reli duwan wad to do.....haha.....
hmm....wen goin back horzz.....waaa....i suddenly wan do business sia!....i chose not to do in my uncle's hse bcoz i prefer to do it at hm...lolz....waa....i constipated lorz......waaa...reli cant stand it sia.....lucky nv suddenly come out sia....if not i reli nth to sae.....haha.....aiya.....not my 1st time either....lolz....bad veri bad for health.....ofcoz i try not to do la....lolz......
well....wen come back....i go do business....aft tt i on com lorzz...i pack my file....haha.....aft tt i rem sth.....i hav sm cashflow probz....so i msged Yq n ask for 50 bucks....well....she owe my de....not tt i demand or extort lorzz....haha....well.....den she msg back......n said tt now meet n den giv her back sth.....zzz.....i was lik....haven even go find dem.....zzz.....den i came to noe tt she bluffed mi.....zzz..... i found it quite lame.....but smtims lameness is a gooooood sign....coz i now will go on my way to do sth reli lame.....hmmm....nth much liaozz.....well.....i go sm feelin reli strong.....well.....my heart noes n tts it.....btw....juz now reli scared if wana meet her.....coz there r sm reasons tt i cant.....lolz....nvm.....my heart noes n tts it....
juz now killed so many brain cells....now suddenly giddy......zzz.........well....tmr got sch....muz slp early le.....but i will continue to tik of smtiks b4 i slp.....lolz?....
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10:47:00 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
zzz.....well....todae ah....CNY lorz....hmm....todae ah...woke up at ard 9 lorzz....i was in dreamland de lorz....well.....dreamt of Yq n Prem?!....zzz....oso duno y got Prem in my dream....well.....i 4gt wad happ....but i noe Prem was doin sm 2pid stuffs.....lolz...
den aft tt "pai nian" to my parents....den go my Gdpa hse le......well.....reli nth to do....well...i on my Uncle's pc lorz....if not reli nth to do...n called sm of my frens....well...asked abt soccer tiks..... well......i dun tik tiks r goin out fine....hmmm....well.....veri early go sia....lolz....well....came back at abt 3 or 4 lidad lorz.....
aft tt i play game all the way....haha....siao.....den in the evenin....my mum shouted frm my kitchen!.....she sae "SORI KOR!"....i was tikin wad was goin on!....well....she made spoil my shirt!!...zzz....veri angry lorz.....not 1 shirt but 2!!....zzz....aiya....c how la....my mum sae tmr win $$ den go buy again....zzz....
aiya.....todae so vexed sia.......todae my mind is all abt soccer n Yq.....zzzz....now ah....im wonderin now she slpin le ma.....haizz....i wan c her sia.....
to all my frens: It is most unwise for people in love to marry..... George Bernard Shaw (zzz....seriously i duno wad it means...)
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11:13:00 PM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
hmmm....well....todae im hapi, sad n angry!...haha?
well....todae in sch ah....half dae lorzz...hmm...nb....todae VERI tired....coz ytd slp so late.....haizz... if lidad goes on i duno wad to say la....btw....i slpin in geo class sia....so tired.....haizz.....aiya... nth much in class la....
"aft tt i go Yq's hse there n wait for her"
....well....tt "A" at there ma....duwan c her sia!....todae she damn thick skin lorzz....nb.....i wif Kl they all....still dare to walk there wen im there....knn.... reli buey song!...btw...
"den i saw her lorzz....so long sia.....nvm la....dun mind.....asked her sm Qns...den i go le..."
hmmm....den i go back slp....so tired lorzz....but slp lik only an hr....my bro la....tok so loud....cant slp peacefully....i woke up still so tired sia....lolz....
hmm....well...i go my 2nd uncle hse aft tt.....hmmm.....nth lorzz....i called many pp....juz to waste tim...haha....well.....aft tt i got to noe tt Wc wana form team....
well....if Fiz nv tell mi i 4eva duno sia....no wonder todae Wc ask mi a strange qn....ask mi if i play 'central mid' can anot...i was lik....huh??.....well.....seriously speakin.....i now can cover alot of positions now....well....i duwan boast....anyway....last week i reli got the hang of shootin....the feelin is juz too great....so it seems tt i now can play as a 'central mid', 'winger', 'forward', or even a 'defender'....but i duno how to play as a 'central defender' la....coz i will feel awkward.... well....i juz noe tt my natural place is always a 'left winger'....(pp readin my blog ah...not sayin u all... juz wad im tikin only)...
btw...juz now Wc tell mi abt his management....well....if im his team...i cfm gotta play 'central def' or 'central mid'....hmm...dun reli mind....n told mi i wont get no.7.....his intention is to giv the no. to Hj....hmm....dun mind too....tts his management...if he wants to b captain...i dun mind.... coz i noe if im in tt team...i wont b captain..i noe got afew pp is targettin tt position....so i dun mind tt.....seriously speakin....wads a captain for?....is it juz to tro weight ard?....nope....its to control n giv correct instructions....n muz reli noe wad tactic to use in the match.....seriously....i dun c any1 can do tt....except mi....i noe tactics well....ofcoz it may not b a gd tactic in sm situations but i noe my intentions are correct...
seriously....all tis while i dun reli agree wif Kl's tactics....n in matches....all is playin 'free for all'.... i dun mind tt....coz i noe the match r not real....seriously....if i wan to hav a team....i reli wan it to b systematic.....seriously...the last match wif Kl n frens....in 2nd half.....well...abit systematic... but....the defendin is not up to my standards....btw....the def includes Maxim, Kl, Ak n mi.... well....4gt it...
[to all readers:not targetin any1....juz my tikin n view....esp Kl...not sayin abt u or wad...juz my view...no grudges :)]
To all my frens: Try praising your wife, even if it does frighten her at first..... Billy Sunday
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11:30:00 PM
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahaha....nb....todae so hapi!...well....
"todae i met Yq!...i cant believe it!...such coincidence has made mi so hapi!....well....met Yq at bus175!...omg!....i nv believe in such tiks in my life...but tis is too much!....waaa....duwan tell so many liaoz lei....let u guys tik n ask mi....haha"
hmm....todae in sch ah....so damn freakin tired....i juz cant bear to slp wen i put my head dw.... well...coz ytd i slp too late....well.....rite now wad im doin is oso the same....well...i guess tmr will b a hard dae.....anyway....juz now tokin on fone wif Hadi....haha.....told mi abt his probz....he is oso aware abt Eileen....well....i duno wad to sae too....but felt tt rite now....they r undergoin the same situation wif mi n Yq last time!....
hmmm....well....reli nth to write now...juz noe tt im so exhausted n hapi....can i slp aft tt?....tts a BIG qn...lolz....
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12:25:00 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
waaa...todae is such a tirin dae....well..in the mornin i go my sundae soccer la....as usual....well...i played veri well there...actually....it was the 2nd half tt i played well....i played veri badly in the 1st half....btw....i todae shoot alot!...i was so hapi....n even scored a goal....well....evbd was quite stunned wif tt strike...they was dumbfounded....haha....btw....mi , Fiz n Kl scored a goal....well.... Kl's goal was the nicest of all of us....simply bcoz it was half court...well....i tik shd blame the defender....he tot it was out orady....so he let go....but to his surprise...it was a goal....lolz....mine ah....haha....a perfect goal man!....i stoped the ball n was clingin on mid-air....n i striked it!....so perfect tt it was on the side of it!.....haha....my moz beautiful goal i had scored....haha....there is more to come man....
hmmm....juz now go soccer trail...i found it so 2pid!....i didn play more den 15min!....wtf....i reli duno wad to sae.....found it so lame.....well....if got another trail....muz consider man.....duwan to waste energy....now so tired lorzz...n juz now do eng compo i anyhow do...i rather use my energy to do hwk....zzz....tmr got chi test....nb....
well....juz now go back tt tim horz....nb...my mind switched back to Yq's tik....zzz....wtf sia....tt time b4 soccer trail i was lik tikin abt soccer lorzz...but aft tt i keep tikin abt Yq....zzz....nb....m heart achin lorzz....i reli duwan tis feelin.....haizz....im still so far...its gona b veri long while b4 i will not hav tt feelin le.....zzz.....i nd her.....haizz....well....rem...there is a diff in "need" n "want"... Mrs Choo(my eng n form cher) saes tt "need" is "necessary" while "want" is "to desire"...lolz... lame sia....haha....im applyin my eng to here lorzz....i shd b hapi...haha.....
zz...damn tired le!!!....byeZ!...
to all my frens:
Be secret to thyself and trust none in matters of love as thou lovest life..... John Lyly
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11:17:00 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
zzz....todae...well....wen Pok's hse there again.....aiya....oso nv do much tik lorz.....duno wad im doin lorz....zzz...keep on mizin....hit the ring den drop out...zzz....aiya....den no mood le....aft tt i sit wif Fiz n Hadi.....haha.....well...listen to 1 anothers' stories....well....tok n tok until i so excited sia....lolz....well....aft tt evbd go le....all wan go Queensway there n buy clothes....zzz....there reminded mi of ALOT of tiks lorzz....zzz....now tik of it.....my heart startin to hurt!....zzz....
btw....todae Fiz veri veri weird.....hmmm....i tik he sad?....well....keep on askin abt mi n Yq last time....lik owaz go where n oso asked mi wad i do in the 1st 4mth in our relationship...zzz.....so funi sia.....well....didn ask him....i noe tt time will tell all truths.....juz wait n c....haha....
hmmm....todae i buy 1 long sleeve shirt...well....found it quite style....haha....so buy lorzz....$35 sia!....well....nb so funi aft tt!!.....i got to noe tt pok buy 1 shirt i actually wanted to buy de....sort of my fav...but i didn buy tt bcoz i duwan to wear tt in Chi New Yr....n he bot tt!....it was $45!...i duno sia!!....juz add 1 pathetic hood cost $10 diff!!...LOLz!....i bth oso...lucky i wasnt goin for tt...if not my mum kill mi!
zzz....den tt Ace pang seh us again....zz...lame sia....aiya....nvm la....haha....perhaps he go smwhere wif Wan Hui n do hanky panky...lolz!.....aiya....den in MRT we saw Salha!....lolz.....well....aft tt go hm.....haha.....so tired sia....come back play cs le....now jus stop....lolz....btw....i reli no mood to do hwk lei.....
btw....todae rite.....Hadi told mi sth encouragin n sth i felt reli angry abt....he told mi tt Yq's frens sae bad tiks abt mi lorzz....nb....reli angry lorzz.....zzz....well...cfm muz b tt "A" la....who else wana sow discord our relationship wan....nb....reli angry lorzz....aiya dun care....i wana try not to hate her....coz i duwan risk myself 1 day reli beat her or sth....juz a risk....ofcoz i wont do it la!... smtik tt makes mi hapi is tt Yq keep protectin mi.....or defendin mi?....well....i was lik....speechless n my mind was blank...coz i duno wad to react....well...Hadi pt out sth gd....tt is....she still cares abt mi....n perhaps i still got chance....frm there....my mind start workin again...lolz...
well....tts all....anyway....Hadi reli tell mi alot of tik....well....ofcoz esp abt Eileen.....n found out tt sm frens rather help other den help mi....i was lik....reli mad abt tis....i reli respect Hadi.... hmm....did he hypotise Eileen's frens?...LOLz...n....rem guys....time will tell the truth....dun act rushly!
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11:38:00 PM
zzz....now waitin for Fiz to rdy.....zz...slow sia....goin play bball....well....duno where yet....lolz.... well....juz now wake up abt 9++....well....wad woke mi up wasnt the conctruction dwstr or my bro's voice....but actually sudden tots abt Yq.....waaa....den my heart ached......veri veri uneasy.... even now.....well...i reli dun lik tis feelin....i dread it......but wads done is done.....i reli wana mend it......well....juz now go find sm quotes...well.....tis is to all pp.....i found it SOOOOOOOOOOOO meaningful!....
to all my frens:
ThE CoUrSe oF TruE LovE NeVeR DiD RuN SmOotH.....by William Shakespeare
hope u guys find ur true love....coz i had found it orady.....
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11:26:00 AM
Friday, February 04, 2005
zzz....well...a veri veri saddenin dae sia....well....todae rite...
"i again miz tt 2pid 985...zzz....well... cant slp well la....zzz.....so i take 187 lorzz....aiya....den i walk walk half way Yq msg mi....says "look behind"....well....ok....reli nth to dae...zzz...ok...den she ask mi y im here...i say i take 187 lorzz...well...i could guess tt she tot i was waitin for her....if can wait i orady wait le...."
well....aft tt rite....i gav Yq a little piece of note...well...it says "Beneath all memories, there are good or bad, Since both are still memories, y not juz remember the good ones?"....well...i sort of tot of it ytd nite...tts y i soooo tired todae....
aft tt was recess...well...i sit wif Fiz n frenz....well....Hadi joined us along wif Kali.....well...talked to both of dem....n Hadi said sth....which sort of encouraged mi alot....he says tt he will do exactly wad i am doin if he was in my situation....den i told Fika tis....well....she feels tt both of us are the type of will only love juz 1 person....well....its totally true anyway....
well...juz now go JP....hmmm....wen go back...i tot of alot of tiks!....zzz....sth abt the up-comin Valentine's day....well.....its a big tik to many of us....but....not all....sm pp feels tt it shdn exist....well....i myself duno....rite now im tikin of a way....haizz....
Aft tt reached hm i played Cs...zzz.....i totally no mood to play....its like....i keep dyin....haizz... well....now my heart still so sour sour lidad....zzz.....i wana wake up frm tis nitemare...
To all my frens in a relationship or heartbrokened.. :
Never give up if you still want to try, never wipe your tears if you still want to cry, never settle for the answer if you still want to know, never say you don't like him/her if you can't let him/her go..
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11:53:00 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
well......todae ah...NB.....wake up until NOW my heart veri veri pain....the pain is lik sour sour taste....lik eatin lemon....but juz tt the feelin is on my heart there......sort of hard to breathe lidad sia.....waaa....todae i made the initiative....i go giv Yq a small note...well....apparently she duno wad i tokin abt....lamez....aiya..i dun tik she noe wad i wan.....aiya....she lidad de....nvm....she duno i more happier....continue my plan...
wads my plan?...well.....no comments....anyway....i wan to b owaz by her side.....to b true to her....in any way.....i wan her to noe im true to her....in terms of anyth....i wan to let he realise sth abt her frens.....well.....lidad...i tik its safe to say sth.....well....i wan to slowly b more closer to her....n den ask for patch.....well.....i hope pp who c tis reli keep tis secret....for tis case....i duwan mention anymr in my blog le....
zzz....todae got soccer....nb....reli veri wad lorzz....i kick the ball so less time....bu shuang....aiya.... but i did enjoy it....i made few good runs....n one of the runs....pp commended mi....i tik its sth im hapi wif le.....tts all for soccer....
well....now still veri pain sia my heart....actually....can sae im veri miserable....i took the 1st step....but a looooong way to go....i duno whether can reach for the plan i had anot....haizz...... as im typin....my heart keeps sourin....veri hard to carry on.....seriously....nth actually can make mi hapi....seriously nth le....haizzz....
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11:06:00 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
zzz.....todae well....no cca....came back early..........i reli reli veri confused....zzz....todae wen in bus stop....zzz....."A", "E" n Yq walk past mi.......zzz....i reli bth.....n i reli felt im not gettin tiks rite....im not workin towards my goal.....haizzz....the more i tok wif Ace n Yw....the more i nd her....i juz duno will all my efforts will go to waste or wad....will i risk of not facin reality?....will i risk of wastin my time?....tho im sooooooooo determined....but i juz dun utd y so many pp tell mi to let go......r they not confident in my situation im in?!...will ev1 now my plight?....i wan pp to realise how much i had love Yq....not last time...is now even!....will they eva understand?!....
now i truly utd evtik....whether how much i need her to her frens....i totally utd.....but....wad i wan is onli her.........i wan to share my evtik wif her..........i need it......haizzz.....wad i tell ppl is...... SO NEAR YET SEEMS SOOOOOOOOOOO FAR!
how can i tell her i truly love her?!...i hav been avoidin her....she too hav been avoidin mi....... but i heart wan to let her know......i hav waited too long...been omoz a mth.....i can no longer wait....i wan to get her asap....i duwan other boys to touch her!im truly serious ova tis matter....but owaz.....i got no courage.....juz bcoz wen i c tt "A"...n wad my frens keep tellin mi.....i c tt "A" i reli bo mood....n makes my blood boil....n my frens keep tellin mi tt i shd forget!...
BUT TIS IS NOT WAD MY HEART TELLS ME!
wen will my nightmare be gone?!...i need Yq...i admit tis to all....i love her....i cant forget or pasts....its too hard to forget our hapi memories....but i noe she still tiks abt our unhappiness.... i reli hope she can forget abt tis....
btw............todae quite funi.......i mean abt "E"....well....todae aft eng....band 1 pp come back frm language room...i was lik...tt tim being crazy....keep on kick Fiz's chair....den i was lik blockin her way....zz...well....stopped kickin 4 awhile n let her pass thru....well....i duno....but continued kickin...lolz...den todae she go collect debts for tt Ms Chua....den she came ova to my desk to collect Rene's n mine....i was lik....huh?!....coz she is sort of side "A" de....den y the sudden friendliness....i was quite confused....so i juz okok....b friendly too....zzzz.....waaa...she damn "pro" seh....go tak my $2 juz lidad.....i shdn hav shown my $2....zzz....den aft sch....i go find her....coz i TOO hungry....i took back the $2....haha?...den aft eatin...i was w8in for bus....well....on top sae liaozzz....anyway "E" looked at mi....i noe she noes sth....given her intellect...i noe she muz noe tt i still love Yq....or still hatin "A"....haizz....i duno....seriously....i dun wish to hold grudges to tt "A" le....juz wan to b stanger wif her will do......but i still cant stand tt face....zzz.....duno.... it takes time....
...to Yq: i need u....i reli truly love u....
to my frens: ...i thx u all....but my heart is there...
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10:51:00 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Im reli reli fucked up n moodless now....i noe smtiks i dun wish to noe.....or perhaps rather not noe.....anyway.....i still gald to noe....or else i will nv be able to reach her.....i will catch up tt vessel(well...u guys noe who...) in any chance i hav now....i have made up my mind....i will go towards my desire....i will sail towards to a never-looking-back place...juz to reach to the vessel.... my desire is strong....i will....in tis situation....my chances are ZERO.....i swear wadeva the chance is....i will get to her.......tt chance is impt.....i swear i will make it......
btw guys.....wad u all noe todae......juz 4gt abt it.......n not tellin others.......thx.....
well......i reli no mood to do anyth.......not playin games or hwk.......im fucked up btw.....it seems to be a nightmare!......rather than a dream......its not a dream im expecting.....but a nightmare.....i hope i will get thru tis nightmare....towards a blissful dream.....i hope my frens will support my tikin....plz......the onli reason is.....I love her..........
well...pp sae tt if its true love....den juz let go....tts call true love.....well??.....i agree.....i will do it.... but in the other manner........i swear.....my desire will b fulfilled.....now....juz for the sake of my desire....a desire to b wif her n ofcoz willingly be together.....
btw....aft todae....i reli found my true self....but i will improve myself to b more perfect.....for the sake of her now.....its for her now....guys.....i may b silly....but i hope u guys help mi!....thx!...
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7:39:00 PM
