Thursday, April 28, 2005
waaaa...todae ah?....nv reli slp tt much in class!...woots!...hapi?...yea!...haha!.....hmmm...well....mi n Sebas?....duno lei....he duwan tok to mi....den i dun care?....
well....aft sch wen Lot1....hmmm... mi n Kl....well...actually sort of last min..b tt time...Ak go le....tts y Ak nv come wib us...hahas... so ah...on da way mi n Kl tok lorz....while boardin the bus... he told mi tt Sebas lik kan bu shuang me lidad.....den i suddenly tot of alot of tiks....waaa.... tt tim help him celerbrate his bdae tt time is my idea to go find him de lorz...n ke di call his parents to tell dem abt my plan....its lik....where can u find tis kind of fren sia!...n i oso tik....i dun tik its my fault....if there is....is juz veri minor....so y shd i go find him again!....emphasis is again!....
wadeva the case....todae go lot1 go buy stationary tiks...i still feel i still missed out sth...haha...den met Hadi n Kali in Lot1...haha...den we walk 2gther...btw...Hadi nowadays so quiet in class....haiss...pity him...anyway...wanted to buy boxer-brief for Sundae soccer....but...sudden tots....i nd $$$ for Adidas bag n oso Sat!...haha!...Sat i goin Sentosa again!...wooo!...gona b fun!....
buts....i feel abit wad sia...juz now my bro feel lik i sort of gained weight le?...waaa!...jiao la!... n den....my mum suddenly sae tt my face sudden outbreak of pimples?....WAAA!!...shoots!.... waaa....sort of sian 1/2!....craps....i tik i reli did put enuff effort on bao yang my face...esp not enuff slp...but...how can i slp wen so stress?....dotz...n oso exercise!..lolz!....muz evdae exercise le!....toot...if i still dun do anth....im not perfect!....lolz!
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11:49:00 PM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
hmmm....todae ah....todae ah....well....in class ah...haiss...am i the loss or wad?....duno la....well.... fell out wif Sebas....hmmm....kao bei....i so blur blur....den he suddenly slap my stomach....beri bu suan...den sae him...."dun beat mi again...im serious..."....den he gav mi the "devil" look?.... duno....wadeva the case is...durin recess i go ask him eat....he signalled to mi to shoo....wad can i do?....he rong?...yet ask mi shoo?....crap...duno n dun care...i approach him liaos still lidad....
morale of the story?....pp hav their moody times....n i tik pp shd b more sensitive to 1 another.... so if im juz so frustrated....plz n juz dun come ka jiao mi....i will flare up!... but seriously...i dun tik he will wan to patch tiks up wif mi....being his att n mindset now...even if i wan to?....haha... fate decides.......
aft so many remedials...actually wanted to go back slack wan...den aft tt Ak called mi.... sae go serve detention...waaa!...den rem we got detention!...lolz!....hmmm...waaa...mi n Ak at there tok tok lorz....at 1st do hwk....den he sae abt business....haha....den i was caught into the topic....den tok n tok abt business all tt....haha....
aft tt ah...go hm lorz....waaa...soooo tired!....jit tao slp sia!...lolz!....hmmm...wake up play game.... lolz!.....
*serious*hmmm...last tik....juz now in class n in detention...i tot abt Yq again...waaa....my heart damn tootin pain....haiss....im wonderin wad will happ btw us aft schoolin in tis pathetic sch.... wad can i sae...i feel tt....its her mindset tts still too immature....n im too mature....so much tt i reli wanted to settle dw wib her....haiss...as for smtiks...i guess there will b misunderstandin abt mi frm now on...its up to fate....perhaps she will NV, in her life noe the truth....well....perhaps there r smtiks i had reached my goals orady....im hapi....but the hapiness made mi so pain.... ironic ba?....haiss...
btw...juz now told Ak sm lil tiks abt her....haiss....
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11:55:00 PM
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
haiss...todae ah?...hmm...duno wad happ in sch oso....im not myself....im was wonderin....duno where oso.....my focus suddenly wen off track?....hais....
well....aft sch ah....quickly go back....hmm....Jolene oso same bus?...hahas....well....duno y nv tok to her liaos...haha....hmmm....well...i oso duno y tis few days duwan b tt sociable....haiss....wads gettin into mi!....
next ah....aft tt i go play soccer/badminton/bball at Sebas hse there sia....hmmm....badminton i duno how to play lei...so i 1 corner play soccer la...haha....hmm....trainin back on how to shoot?.... hahas...i tik i sort of get back?....but still got so many errors...haiss....wen can i get back my deadly instincts lik b4?...hais....n....bball ah...nv play lei....coz too many pp at court...dotz.... so only play soccer?...hahas....
hmm....wad can i sae now?....abt my current life in ovaall?....hais...wad can i sae abt my pathetic life now?....its in a tootin mess lik my blogskin....too messy?...hahas...its juz too messy...well ah....i guessim still slackin but tryin to get back on the tootin track....n...im feelin so way bhind others....im struggling...gaspin for air?....n need water for refreshments!...i reli need refreshments rite now...w/o tt....i guess i cant reli go on....im findin for the rite refreshment perhaps?...hais....evtik is fated perhaps....
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11:07:00 PM
Monday, April 25, 2005
waaa...todae so tired....hmm...todae ah...nth much lorz in sch...hmm....aft sch got oral....waa... Narain took my bach for oral......hmmm...i totally flunk....haiz...duno y too.......haha....
wad else....todae come back nth lorz...now feelin slpy...i guess i now wana slp liaos...haha?...
no wonder blog until so short?...haha
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10:13:00 PM
haha!...todae Sundae soccer Ak come sia...but Fiz nv come....zzz....aiya...dey wan celerbrate the 6th anni ma....nvm...haha...i dun mind....anyway....wad can sae abt mi for todae?....1st half i had been in a great game wif many assist....out of 7 goals...at least 4?...haha....
but 2nd half reli haunts mi....i played juz too badly...haiss....perhaps i lost my predator n scorin instincts...haiss...open goals yet i cldn score....n wen got great opportunities....wanted to shoot low....but lik kickin balloon.....crap....ahhh...i tik i reli muz do sth!...i had been scorin spectacular goals!...gosh....at least....the startin part of 2nd half...i made many blocks?...hmmm...got 1 hit my neh neh....kao!....my nipple semi hardened...lolz!...waa...den tt Kl keep luffin at mi....dotz.... well ah...hais....i reli wan to get back my scorin instincts!....
hmm...i reli reli missed alot of chances....haiss...feel lik slappin myself....well...wen will my scorin instincts come back?....haiss....
as for Ak ah!....hmmm...many compliments frm pp wors!...hapi for him la....
hmm....todae ah....so slack...n tired...didn study n do much hwk....haiss...
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12:36:00 AM
Saturday, April 23, 2005
hmmm....wad can i sae....todae early mornin i go find Sebas...along wif St n Prem....hmm... sort of gib him surprise?....haiz...but he told mi he wasnt enjoyin aft all the tiks todae....
basically...todae we wen K box...y ah....coz not enuff pp to go ice-skate...hais....nvm....but... the main tik is....Sebas didn reli enjoyed....feel bad...well...coz not much pp n oso not much pp singin... only mi n Sebas singin?....n Gay Cai singin in his own world....hahas....so...there wasnt much fun perhaps....well...aft tt....we wached the Pacifer...hahas....tt was reli funi!....
next....All go le...sort of pang seh?....haiss....left mi n Sebas....well.....Sebas didn felt tt hapi at all....hais....seriously speakin....i was reli annoyed abt tis whole tik initially...coz its lik....evtik wasnt all planned properly...n tt Kl didn even come....waaa...reli bth....tt 1 reli worse....hais....wad can i sae....no1 is perfect....theres owaz a flaw in sm1....nvm....
so...mi n Sebas wen Lot 1 de Arcade....hmm....lidad lorz....so tirin.....hmmm...we wached beatle fite!...so funi!...hahas!....
well....duno wad to sae le..anyway....i guess.....many tiks r still botherin mi.....hais...
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11:37:00 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005
By the time you realised the whole truth,
you would had thrown away the bits n pieces of me.
To a place where it could never be found again.
It would be too late by then,
knowing that i had never broke any of my promises.
but what could you do by then?
Nothing will solve the problem.
Nothing could be salvage even.
Only to pick up the pieces of my brokened heart.
Even if i want things done now,
you wouldn't want it.
But what if u want things settled years later?
Will i even think about it?
Life is ironic.
Coz we were ironic too while together...
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2:06:00 AM
hais....im feelin so dw now...well...many tiks occured to me recently...wad can i sae?...wad can i do?...i cld onl ans...."i can do nth"...the fact is there....its being shown there....ev1 noes...ev1 realised it...but...they had nv realised how im actually feelin rite now....nv....i noe certain tiks r facts...n its juz so obvious....but my heart doesnt go tt way....my tiking n m feelings...its lik a turbulance insid mi...round n round.... forever opposing each others...
i noe rite now how the situation is...n how badly it is...n i guess....unless tiks r all cleared....tiks will nv b the same again...i noe i had establish a new life now....but...my new life is still veri empty....its like a new planet being formed...n hardly any vegetation n activities on the planet.... but this new planet is still growin....tryin to survive....n its still fragile...will peace prevail from the universe?....
haiss...but i noe....tis route i plotted...will onl lead to saddness...perhaps i noe i had forgiven her... but is forget the only challenge now?...perhaps so.....pp lik me will wan to wait even wen they noe its smtik totally impossible....but mi?...only my heart saes it all....is findin the right person in my life tis hard?...haiz
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1:34:00 AM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
todae ah!...sm hapi n sad mmts...1st of all...todae in sch i nv slp!...except for remediation lessons....hais...big improvement orady....hahas....
well...todae aft all the remediation lessons....i opened my bag n saw a familiar lookin box...n i noe wads tt....wtf...giv mi back?....i nv asked for it!....dun eva giv mi back man!...i didn demand it!.... im not lik her!....demands it....n i dun care anymr!....wadeva the case is....my conscience is clear...i swear....coz i noe tis route i plotted....is the bez way for mi....sm sudden decisions ofcoz... but overall...i noe my tis route im taking...well b in pain n many misunderstandings...perhaps nv i will clear myself....but....evtik will b fated...whether tiks can b cleared anot....only god noes.... haiss.....how i wish i cld clear it...coz i noe if i dun clear it....my life n my heart will truly suffer.... n while walkin to find St n Prem along wif Sebas....who noe wad happ...i actually noe 2 tiks so true...1st...i will NEVER in tis pathetic life of mine...able to forget her....2nd....perhaps Mel told mi was true....u will never marry the person u love most!...not loved...its love....n i guess he is rite...many strong words i had used....but i noe...ev word plays a part....
next...Cassandra....u beta stop buggin mi...or harrass me!....i will do LEGAL actions!...n i mean it!...i nv scolded u or wad....u scolded me 1st...the rights are on mi now!....i will take it nth has happ for now...so DUN go ova my limit!....btw...i did act big or anyth!...n i done u nth!...ur ev words had been recorded!...so dun harrass me ANYMORE!
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11:56:00 PM
todae ah....finally culprit kana caught le....hmm....its Kairan....many pp sort of guessed its him le...hmmm...juz tt he duwan admit ba...haizz....he had many bad records le...smmr sch gib him a chance to come back...yet....haizz..perhaps its the temptation ba...hmm...duwan to sae abt it le ba....
den todae ah...my chem test lik shit liaoz....still can slp in the test...knn....i reli nd to slp early!... hmm....i wan to salvage my studies la!!!!....todae mrs choo toked to mi...felt veri sarcastic....but i noe she did sae evtik the truth...n i beta do sth...im still slackin...n reli badly...haiz...
n todae...go out wif Sebas n Kl lorz....at abt 9 lidad...buy...errrs...Aud present....nahz...im juz there!...juz there...lolz...suddenly...1 gal kpkb wif mi....nb....warn her tt i will b angry le lorz...still come n tok crap....knn....i more n more cant stand it le la....den tt person was the 1 who bring Candy into the pic de lorz...not my toot business de...
hmmm....i tik my path of road is correct...perhaps i regretted many tiks in life aft todae...
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12:35:00 AM
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
new blog skin nice?...hahas..changed to tis coz it describes my life!
woots...todae ah.....waaa...i improved alot!...lolz....todae ah...nv reli slp in class sia...hahas.... not bad eh?....hmm....well...nth much..but alot of tiks happ in sch aft sch sia...St de hp lost...well...i sort of guessed who issit...hais...no evidence for wad sae it out....hmm....waaa...c Sebas....hais.... guess i noe how he feels liaos..good la....come back le....tokin to Melvin...waa...get to noe abt his current tiky....waaa...now more stress....so many pp found liaos....mi lei....stuck?....
hais....tiks change fast..n im not movin?....coz im still waitin....but y am i waitin if i dun move? haizz...wadeva the case is...im juz too carefree tt im startin to feel lonely....had a tok wif Ms Chow....duno la....i guess im juz too heck care le....perhaps tts the case in evtik...i tik i shd find myself again....be myself is beta.....at least it will help on my studies....
Juz lik my new blog skin said...evtik is in a mess....basically...my life...hahas...
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12:42:00 AM
Monday, April 18, 2005
woots...todae in sch ah....waa...phy test i duno wad to say...slp in the test...hahas...waa..not reli funi wen so much pressure is on mi....hmm...but i duno how n wad to do lei....slp early?...tts wad i can only tik of...hahas...
hmmm....guess wad....my life is juz to complicated to juz simply describe it out....well....sm bzbd juz wan to noe more abt my life...wad to do?....i noe wad to do....to b more serious...juz duwan tt person to interfere wif my life...well...perhaps Sally told mi was quite true...im runnin away frm reality...at 1st i duno...coz i dun feel it...wen she describe how...lik im makin myself hapi juz to not rem the unhapi tiks...i feel its quite true...hmm...am i?...or im actually lookin for my new life?...i duno y i now feel im still stuck btw the old life n the new life n my future life...hais... complicated eh?...perhaps its too complicated to say it out....hahas....
well...todae come back ah....play game awhile...den go slp...hahas...hmmm...wake up le play game again?...hahas....den aft tt do hwk...waa....do hwk so stress...Dad nag nag nag~~~~~~~ crap...wan to listen song oso cant....
hmm...tts all perhaps....now wan to look for a new blog skin...many complain abt my blog...time to change... :)
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11:22:00 PM
waaa...todae Sunday soccer...hmm...Kl n Fiz got go...hahas... Kl 5 wks nv go...hahas!....hmm...todae wear his bro boots sia...hmm...mercurial vapor....dotz...i can wear lors....i so shocked...i tot his bro's feet big....but....its 1 size bigger....waaa...at 1st tot his bro duno how to buy boots...BUT....waaa...i reli bwg...i rather Kl's bro folo mi go buy boots...the money is so wasted...along wif the boots...haiz....
anyway....todae i didn perform to my standard sia....my sun-burn is bugging mi...smmr didn bring water....crap la...hmm...todae tt Thomas n gang brought thier ball....the Nike wan....so crappy sia...wan use tt ball...n its so light...ev1 is complainin lorz....hahas...esp mi...i purposely did tt....coz i dun lik Thomas n gang....wads more...todae play in my bloody team...so...i sort of suan him lik fook...den ah...he todae nv tok much sia...hahas....i tik he sort of suan-ed le?...lolz...
hmmm...in the 1st half i did play to my standard la...but i kept missin....so crappy....i noe im quite tired le ba...wad to do...previous days i did slpt well...cant help it la...hahas...
2nd half ah....waa...didn play fully...coz i reli cant help it...its like...i cant even shoot n cross gd ones....i rather not spoil my day n so rest...
hmm...todae reach hm ah....well....abt 3 go slp...den wake up at 7++...hahas...damn tired... hmm....now still abit tired sia...hahas....hmm....den play SG lorz...hahas....for hwk case ah... lik dun hav lidad....hahas...
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1:14:00 AM
Saturday, April 16, 2005
wootS!...todae go sentosa wif Melvin , Eddie , Joey n his frens tt i duno de...well ah....actually i oso JUZ got to noe the 3 of dem....hahas...hmmm....waaa..Eddie n Melvin so frenly....hahas.... well...juz tt they...waa...duwan so sia....hahas....but i scare i learn bad tiks frm dem sia....hahas... hmm...i tik i wont smk le la....i dun even lik the smell...hahas....
hmm....as for the trip ah....waaa...chio man...so nice....so many gals to c.....waa...my eyes wan pop out....woots!...aiya....den ah....1st tik we did is....SUN TAN!...lolz!....sth which i lik it veri much juz recently...hahas!...waa...so chio man!....BUT....onli the back nia....LAME!.....in front more white den my back lorz...so toot!....aiya....i tik can ba....waa....aft sun tan i suddenly saw eddie lookin so familiar!....he looks lik Mr Yuen!...lolz!.....
hmm....aft tt....Joey fren wan jio gals....waaa....even tho duno him i play along....waaa...in the end nv take no.....dotz.....waaa....the gal reli quite pretty leh...hahas....but she not interested in any1 of us...dotz...smmr sae she 18....she dun look lik lorz!....next....
hmmm...wad ah?....play soccer~!....wad else can i do at there man!...hahas!....waaa....sm chio goals....hahas.....enuff.....lolz....but kick ball wif sand+ water....cheebx...so pain!...whole leg red even kick the ball lighty....hahas....aft tt ah....go back mainland n eat....tts abt 8?...hahas.... waaa....den i sit 188...hais....remind mi of so many tiks...cheebx....luckily along the way i slp throughout...duwan tik of it...so crappy...
reach hm ah....waaa...aft bathin, do hwk half way....got 1 toot msg mi....saein lame tiks.... cheebx....i rather she keep to herself...knn...feel tt she wan mi to tell her wen i hav it....yet she nv even did tt...juz wen im so hapi abt todae u now makin mi tik so much tik n i now hav to settle alot of tiks!....wo shi bu shi shang bei zi qian ni de?!!....juz lik a leech suckin my blood, my hapiness, my pain....EVTIK!....crap!
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10:34:00 PM
woots....now wad time already ah?!...lol!...omoz sun risin....hahas!....haiz...guard my bloodly wing till lidad....hahas...well....ytd nv go sch....well..coz i go c doc....waaa....10:30 appointment i 1 reach...hahas...not only tt....i ovaslpt at the hospital!...coz ytd b4 i slp at 4 n woke up at 10...hahas....can die...hmmm....so pai seh....ev1 go le except for mi n sm new patients!....lolz!.... so...i rush go back for my cca!....soccer!...lolz....hmm....wad ah?...nth much la....got ALOT of misses....craps!....hais....dreamin mayb?....hahas....next tik....
aft tt i go psychiatrist....woots....go NUH again!...dotz....well....learn even more tiks....hahas.... well...aft tt i go play bball wif Sebas, ST, Prem....waa....can die sia...reach am at abt 1am....n now juz played finish game...n Melvin toked to mi...jio mi go sentosa aft tt....waaa...mornin meet....kao...can die...left abt 2hrs or less for slpin?...kao...can die.....
hais...must buck up sia!....n i die die aft i come back i slp like fook!....
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5:07:00 AM
Monday, April 11, 2005
woots....waa....todae another tiring dae....waa....wen can i not slp again in sch sia....big qn.... muz reli buck up or i'll b dead...hmm..todae nth special lorz....well...juz tt come hm play game liao.... hahas....ironic....wan to buck up yet still playin games....haiz....
hmm...wad can i sae.....well...tis wk is my last wk of cca....so...i hope i can play far beta den the last 2 trainings....n impress my coach...hahas....hmm...nth to sae le...hahas...
waaaa..how long nv give quotes le ah?...hahas....heres 1....
to my frens: It should be a very happy marriage --- they are both so much in love with him..... Irene Thomas
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11:20:00 PM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Abt Soccer...
on da field:
todae ah....hmm...well....made major mistakes in da 1st half....dotz...but i scored a goal!...hahas!...well....had a comeback in the 2nd half...hahas....well...ofcoz i played beta....wen for the ball...had many many MANY chances to score....smhow...i miz all....haiz....but wad statisfied mi is...i had a great volley!...waaa...ball in the air n struck it!....waa...juz a touch man....who could do tt!...bleah...juz kiddin...hahas....sadly to sae...i hit sm1....waa...but the impact was so great... hais...too bad Fiz n Kl not there...if tell dem they sure sae i boasting...dotz....lame sia...
well....i feel tt tis wk i had a "volley week"...hahas....fri trainin n todae both had a great volley tt omoz scored...
off da field:
hmm....4gt to sae abt fri...hahas....tt dae horz...tt Azman(i tik lidad spell)....suddenly treat mi so gd sia...i sit on a grass patch while havin a break as there got quite a no of pp there....den he suddenly bring a cup of water for mi sia....waa...duno lei...i feel hapi...as i noe he has sm respect for mi...i tik its bcoz of tt incident last wk ba....hahas...well...finally...coz last wk he was the one who made mi so irritated....hahas....
todae....ah...well...wa kao....while goin hm...im in da taxi den horz....den radio broadcast Sly's song!...wtf....i go change other chn den my 2pid dad go change back n sae dun change!.... dotz!...i had a hell for 5 min!...my ear wan to spoil liaoz!...so ER XIN!....den aft the song the DJ sae tt he wan a song writer who Jay like de....wan him to rite a song for him!...knn so shameless!.... another tik is...the song is for his gf!...knn!...wad a extreme shameless guy!...hate him like toot!...
dotz....waa...i now listenin to other songs to keep my ears frm spoilin sia!...
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2:02:00 PM
People hope for things to last.
Anything they desire,
just to have it for life.
But there will never be a day like this.
They can grab it with their lives,
only to know that it wasn't meant to be.
In Love,
You can put your life to that person,
care with all your heart,
only to find out that she broke it.
People could say loving a person too much,
is stupid, yet one can disagree.
When you found out by yourself,
the feeling is much worse.
Even through theres nothing between one another,
one could still care for the other,
yet the other heartlessly forgotten the past.
Is this love?
Does ever-lasting love even exist?
but that is the only thing i ever wanted...
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3:38:00 AM
woots...juz finish playin Sg...n oso readin sm of my fren's blog...sm only..coz tmr got soccer!...n im waitin for it!...hmm...well....todae abit fed up wif the game....keep losin....hahas...no pt saein.... well....aft read Kl's blog esp....i feel so tensed up...coz i haven been reli studying lorz...waaa....wen can i reli get into it?!....i duwan to go poly....im aimin for JC sia....wadeva the case is....i wan to make it....i guess i have to start studyin....tmr ba....make it a pt...
hmm...im wonderin tmr wear mania or pulse sia...hahas....aiya.....can play jiu hao le...haha!.... well....cant believe i played 12hrs++ of Sg sia....i guess i nd to cut dw la....or else im not goin in to JC....gosh....my dream.....nd to work to it now...hahas...hmmm....y am i repeatin ah?....hahas... dun care la.....waa...stress sia now.....gotta slp now.....
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2:55:00 AM
Saturday, April 09, 2005
woots...ytd no time n oso too tired to blog....now bloggin...hahas.....hmmm...ytd ah....waaa....i got soccer trainin lorz...hmmm....i played quite well sia!...hahaha!....im juz so elated abt it!.....
basically we had a 5v5 match....n we can only score by hittin a ball....waa....veri challengin sia.... hahas....anyway...i didn score....hahas!....but i did hav a superb strike tt leave many stunned.... hahahas!....i 1 touch stop....n the ball still in the air....n gav a volley...on target smmr lorz...juz tt too high...hahahas...im so hapi tt i cld do tt....
anyway...aft tt....i injured myself...lame!....my leg muscle cramp.....cramp until veri badly....i exerted too much force on da match lorz....hahas....bcoz Ah Seng there ma..hahas.....den on da match he nv scolded mi or sth sia!...1st time sia!....hahaha!....
oh ya....i wore my old boot n play lorz....wa kao!....so much diff!...i feel tt i can shoot wif more power!...my current boot is lik....so normal!....well...its lik 2 total diff boot im wearing!....haha!...now i feel Mania is beta den Pulse!....hahas!...
wadeva the case is...im so hapi sia!....n now ah...i wan go play Sg le....byes...
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1:21:00 PM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
hmm....todae ah....well......in sch i at least improved on sth...i was so awake in the 1st half of the dae....lolz.....well....2nd half im slpin lik mad....lolz...duno y tis few daes keep slpin!....hmmm....duno la....tired oso cant help it rites....
well....todae ah....i wach a tv series....well....2 couple well....the actor said "The prob is tt u dun tak the prob as a prob..." woots...i find it veri appropriate to sth....haiz....evtik is ova le..4gt it....
hmmm...i tik no more le ma.....hahas.....
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11:27:00 PM
Everything about me is in between me.
I know my thinkings and thoughts.
Its just a matter i want everything to be done or not.
But,
Feelings is what that keeps the analytical mind.
Guilt, fear, irritation keeps me from stepping ahead,
which in turn lets out the pessimistic looks on me.
Ruin is the term for my future if nothing is being done.
And the first step must be made,
For the bright mind to regain itself.
Willpower must be my first emphasis.
Only this i can find my future.
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2:36:00 AM
todae ah...hmmm...haiz....so moody i guess....perhaps due to the stress im still facing.... basically....many tiks still dwells insid my heart....keep tellin Sebas tt she doesn bothers mi anymr....perhaps wad he says is rite.....im juz bluffin myself....evtim we hav an eye contact....the only feelings her eyes gav mi r so much so tt it iritates mi....nahz...not only tt.....her eyes made mi tik of our past...n tis few daes....i had been suffering frm heartaches....juz bcoz of her....
im still wondering....can she actually NOW juz leave mi alone n juz get out of my life?...perhaps i will feel beta....perhaps i wont b tis miserable....perhaps i wont b tis crazy....all n all....i noe tt i had put my love into a deep pit which has no ending to it...i had dropped foreva.....
rite now...wen she is out of my sight.....im so hapi....lamin ard....luffin ard....but....juz get myself into it again wen i juz c her....y does tis kind of endin happ to mi?....i hate it!...n i hate the person whom did tis to mi...but i cant hold myself to smack her....tis feelin im facin rite now....is so much of hurt....n love perhaps....but...i will b strong......haiz....
wadeva the case is....im not the victim alone....i noe ard mi there is pp who oso suffers the same fate....im sori.....the deep shit im in.....cant refresh my life juz lidad....the time has not come perhaps...
anyway....todae....im so tired in the end....initially in sch im so energetic...lolz....my frens r shocked tt i didn slp...hahas....towards the endin....dotz....cant held myself to fall into the soft cushion of my hands... :P
well...there r hapi times todae ofcoz.... hahas....duwan to mention....
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12:01:00 AM
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
I'm gasping for air.
As i know I'm still drowning in the waters,
that is full of desperation and frustrations.
The quicksand is still under my feet.
As I know that I'm still hesitating for the better,
that will lead me to the right way.
My mind still lingers the sense of guiltiness,
which is keeping me from everything.
Even though I noe that if that is being eliminated,
I will eventually find my future.
But...
My future is still in the midst,
It's only problem that it doesn't show me...is my will.
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12:12:00 AM
dotz....todae so tired....whole dae slpin in class..wtf....i guess i now hav to slp le....well.... todae not much tiks happ except go Jp n sm little tiks happ tt i dun wish to mention...
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12:07:00 AM
Monday, April 04, 2005
woots....todae so sao mu....wtf....i ytd play game play until 4gt timing...only had 1hr of slp....dotz....den moz of the time i slpin wen insid taxi.....lolz....hmmm....den ah....by the time finish the whole tik its abt 4 lorz.....hmmm....den wen hm abt 5+....den aft tt go meet Sebas....well... he wanted to buy shorts....but cant find anyth he likes....lolz....too bad ba....haha....
aft tt we planned to go to IMM....well....aft tt Kl sae wan join us....so he joined us n we wen there walk walk....dotz....ate in food court too....den aft tt we saw St wif her family?.....tik so ba....haha.... well....aft tt we return to Cck....at there ah....we go to smwhere memorable to mi n Sebas......hmmm....a playground....hahas.....well.....duwan sae tt muz....hahas.....den mi, Kl n Sebas at there talked alot of tiks....waa....i abit cant stand it lorz....so tired.....so....aft tt quickly come back....gona slp soon....hahas....
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12:31:00 AM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
zzz....todae so tired...duno wads rong wif mi.....even wen im typin now....im kinda tired.... yawns....haha....waaa...todae i woke up at abt 3++.....lolz....hmm....aft tt i go Fiz's hse to wach movie.....waaa.....wach until episode 40 onli...dotz....no time to wach nowadays....haizz......
hmmm.....go back le...den wach tv....waaa...still haven do hwk....no tim to do tmr....tmr sao mu whole dae.....dotz.....still slackin ah mi...haiz....hmm....well....i tik tts all for todae...coz basically its juz abt slpin.....lolz....
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12:17:00 AM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
woots!....todae ah.....well....hapiest dae of my life since im single.....well....todae i got soccer trainin lorz....hmmm....well....i guess....tis is my second tim in my life in ccks i played so well in sch team standard!....woots....haha.....hmm....well....todae omoz scored a great goal....hit the post.... dotz....lame sia.....smmr it was a long shot....dotz dotz...how did i miz it....well....ah seng nv c how i played....dotz....passes i did we oso great tho not perfect.....haiz.....nvm...i still got 3 more trainin to go...i can prove myself!....lolz....
well....aft tt...at nite i go out wif Kl...wa coffee bean....dotz....tis is the 1st tim i drink coffee so fast!...lolz....aft tt Jessica n her fren come n find us....den go back?....dangz....lik not my business leh....lolz....anyway...juz folo....haha....den aft tt mi n Kl tok tiks out.....we tok abt our tikys....haha....well.....come back hm at abt 1++.....aft tt i muz go war le....its a game...lolz....
well....tts all!
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1:40:00 AM
