Sunday, May 29, 2005
dotz....todae slpt at abt 5....woke up at abt 10am!!...siao siao!...totally not enuff rest lorz....haiss... coz todae i go bank did smtiks....make card, do donation and oso withdraw money...sad sia...now insid so little money!...haisss...coz i go buy hp for my mum!....eh!..aku guai kia!!....haha.....i tik tt hp veri suitable for my mum la....light, small, user friendly....lolx...my mum quite hapi i tik!....
hmmm...aft tt come hm at abt 3+ ba....den slp le!!...waaa....so shuang...hmmm....aft tt i stare ard the hse la....duno do wad oso...haisss...shd b studyin yets lidad....dotz dotz....
aft tt....my mum came hm at abt 8+ ba...come tell me abt who she saw...AGAIN.... dotz la....i duwan her tell me yet lidad....dotz dotz.....but..smhow my heart not tt sour le....i tik its a good sign ba....i hope tt bitch dun suddenly provoke me for nth la....if not i dun tik i can tahan another blow frm her sia....anyways...my mum complain tell me sae....y tt gal wan pt like so tou ji mo kou lidad....sian sian....den wan me do wad sia....go infront of her scold her meh?...tt kind of bitch....my eye will pain n make myself more thirsty....
haisss...MT O lvl juz tmr nia....siao siao....jia lat....i wan make it a D7 at least.. like so hard lidad.... haiss...juz try my bez la....
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1:24:00 AM
Friday, May 27, 2005
sian....todae nv do enuff for my mock exam again....grrr...i bwg abt myself...keep on slpin....sian sian......seriously todae veri sian...hmmm..anyways...todae go sch rainin again....dotz....saw Sebas....kan dotz....haiss....even tho nv tok le..doesn mean he nth to me.....smmr abt another tik... related to him even.....nb....tt tik ar...i reli beg la....haisss haiss....
so...todae ar....totally no mood la..my mind drifted away....lol?...anyways...aft tt....at bus-stop aft sch....nb....my 1st look...i saw tt Jenna...chao lame....totally sian diao....who wan c her sia....nvm nvm....den i tot....hmmm.....saw her means saw the other 2 who nv come sch....nb...i nv even wan go c sia....den i in the bus-stop liaos...tt Sj go shout....kan lame....more lame.....tryin attact attention nia.....hmmm...Ak's attention la....but i c Ak....i wan luff nia....but i totally no mood to luff....hmmm...den Kl come....told mi how tt Yq wear.....waaaaaaa...kan bo mood la...totally like bitch la....nb...now i reli cant stand it but juz to state the facts la....juz a total bitch.....pp sae she grow prettier?...siao...grow more bitchy nia.....n who cause tt?...not mi....i will nv let my gf go ashtray de.....her frens lor....who else sia.....
nb....in the bus-stop keep on tikin of so many tiks liao....den now got her presense...siao la....wan mi break dw nia.....sian sian....y suddenly my life become sian again!...knn....
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12:47:00 AM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
haiss...todae arr....ups n dw sia....nb....at 1st i tot i cld start a new life....hopes r high....but disappointments is bigger....dotz dotz....life is totally unpredictable...gosh....O lvl is comin even.... i wan to get at least a pass la...knn...if lidad goes on....i reli bwg...hmmm...wad to sae...wad to sae...im juz too moody to do anyth now....haiss haiss.....
juz to look at the brighter side....i tik i juz hab to put in more effort ba....no mood no mood...
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10:07:00 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
todae ah....sian sian....so Sunday soccer..hmm...scored a spectacular goal?i tik quite chio ba... half court or sth lidad ba...oso duno how to describe la...haha...but i veri angry n i kept flaring off... sian sian....tho tt goal nice...but i guess it wasnt my dae....haha..hmm....nvm le....oso duwan tok much abt it la...
hmm...todae ah....i tik no more le....haha....the rest of the dae of wad i did i duwan say la.... haha?...
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2:00:00 AM
Friday, May 20, 2005
hmm....todae...Yj threw the paper...hmm...tik he great?...nahz....anyway....ytd's game....he brought my parents into the pic....tik he sm sort of pro issit?....hmm...in the 1st place...he shdn even sae our parents....he tik we no parents n he got parents veri great?...u call tt a good guy?... knn PUI...next....throw my paper?...knn fuck off la!....lim pei show him respect yet he c me like a fucker ah?...knn....i 1 bash c wad he do....but i WONT do tt....basically im a person with better education....better english speakin qualities....speakin abt tt..i tik todae's Eng i cfm fail....i sort of slpt thru the paper....zz....i hope tmr's Sci i do beta...n im targettin an A1 lo....
hmmm...Hj ah...waa...his nick veri attractive sia...tt time sae dun like mi....now tokin craps..."Don Ever Let A Game Ruin Ur Frenship,Its Nt Worth It,U Will Onli End Up Lonely =)" hmm...wad he said is indeed correct...i admit it...but...who in the 1st place disown mi as a fren btw mi n him?...its him...tok to him in msn duwan reply....issit act dao?...or wad?...basically wad Sebas said was totally correct...
next person....Fiz...my fuckin BEZ fren...n since wen?....Sec1...n wad now?....another person wan to disown mi ah?....ok lo....i cant do anyth....juz lan lan la....nb....btw....shared my secrets wif u...n i bloodly hope u wont let other pp noe....
hmm...i guess wad my other frens sae was rites lor...a simple game or any game can show sm1's true colors....if pp cant c THEIR's...i dun mind tellin u if u ask mi....n ofcoz i noe mine.....i noe myself more den all of u guys....even sm1 whom i shared so much wif...oso do not noe mi well...n who the hell will other pp noe mi well if tt person didn even noe mi tt well?...
next...i bet tt bloodly bastard has wen ard saein abt mi le...u tik u veri great to sae pp behind other pp's back?....u r more of a backstabber den mi...get a life...
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12:25:00 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
hmm...wad can i sae...haiss...todae go sch ah....hmm...i guess i feel alot of tension btw mi, Hj, Yj n Fiz....haiss...den in Math lesson...tt Sebas irritated mi....hmm....Radi was there....n i guess she was the only 1 knew how i felt....2 occasions of irritation....n i tried to tell him to stop....if tts the case...i lan lan liaos....
seriously...i had a running nose....i was sick....n i hated being irritated wen i hav a runnin nose.... haiss....wad can i sae....evtik is fated?....i guess so....n if tts the case...tts the case.....lan lan lor....
n...todae....i duno how im feeling...while goin to the ava, i actually wen to the toilet...as usual?... slacking...haha....hmm....but wad reli bothers mi is...i came out of the toilet only to find out Yq is infront of mi....dotz?....i duno....the feeling exasperation n mortification is there.....well...i hastened my speed n walked infront...wad else....stay there to let sm pp do those funi stuff?... anyways..i didn even noe who did the coughin tiky...but it bothers mi....even tho tt happens... my heart on longer feels pain....but i seemed more light-hearted...n i dun feel....tt angry...i wonder if i had forgiven her....haiss....
hmm...rite now...im seriously feeling real lonely....seems tt i got no1 to eat wif during recess orady....n if tts the case...i go fast liaos....btw...tmr is exam....haiss...im juz worried for my Sci... haiss..perhaps i may wan to stop the game....its givin mi alot of pressure...far more den wad Yq is givin....haiss...can sm1 juz care for mi now?...
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9:39:00 PM
zzz....tmd....rite now im feelin veri wad...hmm....wadeva the case...my life has been veri stagnant nowadays...its veri borin....my life is veri borin.....but im getting used to it.....hmm.....as for frenship....now there r 3 pp....our frenship turned sour.....esp Fiz....hmmm....sth i nv even dreamt of......but if tts the case....i wont bother.....at least he showed his true self.....n i only NEED true frens....not fakers.....n oso hypocrites lik Yj.....hmmm....for Hj?....i tik Sebas they all sae is correct.....n if tts the case.....i juz lan lan la.....
hmmm....im livin in a lifeless world now....yet im struggling to hold on to the reality....n it seems tt area00 fits mi nicely into it....yet i will study hard....being so toot now...i duno how to....but i will....motivation is there.....i wonder who will bring mi out of tt world to live in a fulfilling life....n im awaiting....haiss....
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6:59:00 AM
Sunday, May 15, 2005
haiss...todae ah....7 den slp....den 9 wake up....kaos....using com den my mum come back frm market....den nag at mi....framed mi...zzz....sae i act go slp den wake up use com again....zzzz.... okok....den my whole mornin frm frm to Bishan park so toot....okok...wadeva the case....abt Soccer now....
well....Soccer ah....Fiz nv go, Ak nv go...tmd kan sian.....hmmm....den ar....we played wif other pp in the 1st half coz those pp so slow....pp as in the regular players......they owaz late de....kaoss.... so ah....okok la....saw sm reli good players n both sides played gd football.....well...the pace was veri fast in fact....haha....
hmmm....as for mi....i didn play tt well in the 1st half, where playin wif the other pp.... well...2nd half....we were playin wif ourselves le....haha....i scored the ONLY goal for my team... consolation go...my team all strikers n midfielders...dun hav defenders...tts lame.....no matter how gd our attacks r....those solo-ers juz dun pass the ball to mi....n expects ME to pass to dem....i reli wanted to scold dem....so wad being grads?...their attitude juz sucks....
okok....come back i slp le....so tired....haha....well....i actually dreamt of sm1....gosh....sm1 i reli duwan to even tik of de lorz....i couldn utd.....seriously...i hadnt been dreamin of tt sm1 for abt 6mths le....suddenly come back...tts veri lame!....haiss....called Sebas n chatted to him....haiss... issit recently she keeps bothering mi indirectly den i lidad?....kaos....lidad i veri stressed up!...
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11:52:00 PM
waaa...long time nv blog le....well...playin hardcore game la....kaoss....cost mi my slping hours... n oso my studying hours...i tik....aft my soccer n aft my good rest i wan start studying le....im under-performing lor....
haiss....my desire....is veri broad....oso duno how to carry all of dem....i tik study the moz impt.... but i doesnt seem to do anyth....haiss...to bz wif my game la....dotz....i tik i nd to reflection on my under-achivement le.....if not i sure kio kan by my parents...haha....
btw....recently....abt the game....hmm...actually i was jokin wif Fiz de....by bein the top wing...or wadsoeva if u guys who nv play tt dun utd...well....Yj heard it n commented tt he noe noe my plot n will tell pp....den i jokingly replied tt he shdn sae....
aft tt....my frens told mi tt Yj was pourin all the false tiks on mi....framing me...how great... such frens....well...my gamin frens told mi tt "in real life...u may not c their dark side....u may oni c in games"....n i tik its true....well....as for Hj...i duno....sm1 i trusted oso....turnin against me... crap...
wadeva the case....so many heartening tiks happ to mi....tt includes sm1 tt is not related to mi orady....yet keep bothering mi....i wonder wad the hell she wans....n even scolded me... crap... juz pushin her luck.... btw...i will go crazy bcoz of her....
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6:46:00 AM
Monday, May 09, 2005
well..last nite slp at 5 lidad...lolz...cant slp leh....so ard tt time den slp le....den woke up at abt 9++.... Fiz called mi...told mi its rainin...dotz....so nv go soccer....haiss....so....i go back slp again la... dun care le....told mi dad oso.....woke up....no1 at hm again...dotz....omoz evdae wake up lidad....haha?....
hmmm...woke up den do the usual tiky....den whole day face com le....haha...waa...lidad can die oso....so bored....haha....so its another borin day....so nth much to blog too....guess tts all....
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1:42:00 AM
Sunday, May 08, 2005
hmm....todae ah.....whole day wif a00...wa?....i oso juz realised tt...haha.....gettin more n more active wif it?...haha.....juz another borin day...n oso duno wad to say.....haha....i guess tts all...
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12:41:00 AM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
well....1st of all....Hapi Belated Bi**thday to sm1....errs....tts wad my frens told mi to do wan la.... hahas....anyways....tt time i nv do anyth or even say anyth...sm pp scold mi lik im so rong lidad... since ttsthe case...i tik i celerbrate tt belated Bi**thday is appropriate....
ok...now to blog my tiks liaos....well....ytd nv blog lorzz....haha....coz i last nite wen out....juz say abt ytd 1st....ytd i slp at 5....well....i cldn slp....even tho i still drank....gosh....tts crazy....well....i tot of alot of tiks.....haiss....its been so long since i tik so much.....haiss....wadeva the case...i noe tis is inappropriate to tik of tis...well....the past....perhaps she had inserted the depth of wound too deep tt it feels forever there....well...Mrs Choo told mi smtiks....even expects mi alot....but i feel lik im not doin wad she expects mi...im so chaotic now.....goshh...
well....ytd nite...hmmm....wen to Yh's hse....errrs...well...tts my gamin fren....wadeva the case.... juz go there eat....den aft tt...nth orady....sian la....den aft tt go back....waaa...smmr i ride my lil bro's bike lorz....kaos.....ride until my both leg so pain...lolz...
btw.....ytd my mum came back hm den suddenly told mi tis "i saw sm1 u RELI hate..."
dotz....made mi tikin....it cldn b SLY...n the next person is....Yq....coz she only noe Yq veri well?.... haiss...i tell her.... "4gt it..."
haha?....well....deeply in my heart....i rather she NV even tell mi lorz....perhaps tts y i tik so much tis days....while im tryin so hard to fite....theres owaz sm1 who undo it....n actually.... nowadays....tts the biggest prob tt bothers mi ALOT....well....tt day, Fri she nv come sch....yet i bet my mum saw her in lot1....ironic?....perhaps sm of my frens whom saw her says tt she now bian le heng huai....my mind its lik....i feel lik slapping her....wadeva the case.....she is juz another bloodly immature gal.....n a b****....well not the top 1....it doesn relates to the top tiky...
hmm...todae...or rite now....i guess its another borin dae....hahas...
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3:01:00 PM
Friday, May 06, 2005
hmm....todae....Chi mid-yr exam!....gosh....wad can i say....nth to say la....exept tt my paper damn chio?...lol!....haizz....oso duno how to read....dotz la.....okok....todae mi n Sebas reli ok le....im hapi... yay!... haha....hmmm...hapi means hapi la!...lolz....nth more to describe la...lolz.... hmmm...well....aft sch i pia hm le....haha....i wen to downtown east....haha....at 1st i dun even noe tt place IS call downtown east...lolz....until i reach there den i noe....oh...tis place is call downtown east...lolz!....haha.....den aft tt i make my way into the place where my frens stay...lolz....hmmm... okok la....chit chatted...haha...i tik i learnt alot of tiks there la...haha....n met alot of "lao jiao".... hmm...not tt kind of funi tiky horz....it means old pilots...haha.....had BBQ......ate alot....den beer!...lol!....gosh....i duno how long nv drink le....kao...for mi...i muz often drink de...if not cfm maboh wan...lolz....hmm....todae ok la.....haha.....waaa....Mel mix Martel not bad leh....chio la....1st time drink such a nice liqour...haha....
well....another tiky to tok abt....smtik i wan to keep in my memory or else i 4gt sia....well....today ah...while takin the train....well....c many tiks....esp the places where mi n Yq go de....i feel tt alot of my 1st times are wen i did wif Yq....haiss....i feel veri pain in my heart la.....n oso....wen i in the train...wen ard the commonwealth places...kaos...make mi so pain....i feel lik....i had done alot for her lorz....i put alot of my heart, soul...juz evtik.....to cherish n love her....but i feel tt she doesnt wan tik but wan mi to gib her freedom?....so i feel its like...i put all my sweat, soul...wa...u name it la....is so futile....n wad i get back is a brokenheart....n oso...i tot of Mel's analogy....i feel tt.... he is rites....u will NV marry sm1 u reli reli n wholeheartedly love....haiss...wen i tik abt it....waaa.. m heart more pain....haiss...wad kind of fuckin world is tis....oops!...i use tt word....
haiss...say n say ova n ova the same topic....im now tikin....am i still waitin for her?...or issit tt i wan to feel the pain she left mi?.....haiss....duno lei....
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1:05:00 AM
Thursday, May 05, 2005
hmm....blog again as ytd i was so slpy....n i didn even noe wad im blogin abt....haha....well....todae is the MT mid-yr le....i lata muz study!...
well...ytd ah....i tik i 9 lidad i go slp le...haha.....but left my com on....tired ma....haha...wow...i reli n actually slpt veri well...but now abit giddy as i slpt too long?...haha....
n oso....abt my hair....its so freaking crappy!.....i duno how to face my frens...lolz....lets c aft tt...haha....
aft the exam i tik i will hav a fun time!....im goin chalet....but for 1 dae...dotz....goin to meet sm outsid frens!...yay!....haha....
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6:51:00 AM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
hmmm....todae ah....okok la....except for my hair....today go sch lik normal...until wen i c my hair lik funi lidad...den found out tt my hair got hole!...dang....ytd nite duno how i cut...cut until lidad... so in the end go barber n cut la....waaa....more crappy....go short now....n so weird.... dotz...
hmmm....todae remediation lesson quite early....haha....hmmm....n tmr is MT exam le...dotz.... so tired......aiya...i dun tik i wana study le...haiss....slpy slpy....dun care for now....my slp is more impt now.....
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10:42:00 PM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Our Lives After Separation...
Hmmm....basically its abt mi n Yq....wad shd i say....during the 1st few months...its truly hell for mi....i reli cant cope....try to look as hapi as possible even tho deep dw im cryin n beggin to find myself back.....but soon....i coped wif tt kind of life n tt mmt....i learnt alot of my past mistakes....
esp during the trip to Taiwan n aft it....
well....even b4 she actually told mi herself tt she had a bf...i actually knew....frm Wq n Sebas.... tt mmt i knew...it was truly maddening...well....aft tt....i gathered many info....took great lengths to do it....n afew wks ago or perhaps more den a mth...i actually realised tt she had at least 2 guys shortly aft we broke....frm then on....i felt she was reli....duwan to say tt word....tis reli motivated mi to move on?...haha...aft tt...i met a gal, Rene....reli good to mi....she came into my life....n reli woke mi up....but im reli veri guilty....i noe i cant c our future....yet i still b wib her....kaos....im such a bustard....n broke hr heart...ironic....i hated pp breakin pp's heart yet i broke her heart.... frm den on....i learnt even more tiks....many....
recently....Yq suddenly contacted mi....hmm...suddenly it turn tiks ard...while im reli n started njoyin....she msged mi....im shocked?...haiss...wadeva the case....i quarrelled wif her....thru sms?... i felt tt was lame!...she commented tt i still had not changed....well...i tik n im absolutely positive tt i had changed....esp the way of handling tiks....aft even more tiking....i finally c the whole picture of our relationship den....BOTH parties where to b blamed...i dun wish to comment it out....but i myself know will do....for tis tiky...i guess no1 or perhaps afew pp noe y....
well...juz afew min ago...i suddenly got the urge to go to Rene's blog....well...i saw the last post... tho its quite long le....but....i tik she said was rite....the only time wen i truly 4gt her is wen pp tell mi abt Yq...i wont feel anyth....but wen will i hav tt kind of feeling?...time will tell....
rite now...i noe i hab mature alot...even Mrs Choo tiks so..n even reflected it on my progress report...i noe i had...n i wont b im used to b....n for tt gal......she juz got a LONG long way to b more mature....continue to play ard in class....n provoked Prem....even now Prem oso...aham... cant sae?...lol...well...she continues to b wif Aud...wad can i say?...gd lorz...hmmm...i actually rather pity Aud....juz now saw her waitin for tt gal ALONE....gosh....such immaturity....haiss... cant b helped perhaps....i let her continue wif her childish world....n i b more realistic...tts all.....
i guess...life goes on w/o her...by the time she actually noes the truth....i may not b even tik of her orady....wad truth?....time tells.... :]
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11:31:00 PM
todae....hmm...veri veri tired the whole day...well....ytd nv slp well?....n oso slp quite late....haiss...i guess todae muz slp early ba....anyway....todae i cant concentrate in class as i oso got runnin nose...tmd....well...todae remediation lessons till 5....zzz...so tired still lidad....1 of these days can break dw sia....wads more....Chi Os is comin so soon lik its tmr lidad....haiss....muz buck up le....haha.....
todae PC ah....tok abt career....waaa...duno wad to do lei.....accountant....hmmm...im startin to consider it le....but work load is heavy n its veri boring....but cash is good....kao....duno lei.... todae Sebas ask for Chem engineerin....tmd....im so damn interested lorz....the tiks n the work all suit me lorz....1 tik....color blind....nb....veri vexed....seriously....veri upset....haiss...if can i surely to tiks tt requires Sci.....too bad im color blind....nb.......
den abt tt duno y sudden tots abt Bankin....ovaall the cash is not tt gd lorz....5 figure per yr nia.... dotz....n take yrs to hav tt...sian sia....haha....durin the process....those bunch of toots....keep on tok n tok....nb....make mi so irritated....tmd....i shout in tt rm sia.....den sudden outbreak of sm1's laughter...i tot was Candy's....but Fiz n Prem told mi it was Yq....make mi even hotter..... she got no rites...no rites to do tt.....but i feel veri bad....duno for wad reason....haiss...n i kept on tikin y she did tt....i got no clue....i wan to noe veri badly....but my other side of mi told mi not to noe... im confused....shes bothering mi veri badly....n i hate it.....
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9:34:00 PM
Monday, May 02, 2005
well.....a no of days nv blog le....been hardcore facin to da com.....waaa....zhun ma?...haha.....zhun leh....well.....oso duno wad to say sia....hmm....coz i 4gt alot of tiks le....
ytd ah....hmm....soccer....i didn slp well coz i hardcore gamin....lolz....so soccer i veri tired...eyes veri pain...n my play is gettin worse...so i stopped....initial stages i play great football...haha?... well...i didn scored goals but assisted at least 3 goals...1 of dem was to Fiz...haha....haiss....wen i can i stop my goal drought...im frustrated ova tis matter man.....
so....aft tt....i wen hm n slp....at abt 7++....mi n Kl n oso Fiz wen IMM.....nb....Adidas bad no more!...cheebx...so angry n disappointed...so i blanja Kl n Fiz....dotz...tt 2pid Kl say tt he nv c mi treating others...zzz....but its a fact tt i cant deny!...LOL....aft my feelings settled n calmed dw...i look ard n i saw an Adidas shirt....it sort of attracted my attention!...so i bot it....i oso didn reli no y coz it wasn in my shopping list...haha?....aiya...so juz buy la....for fun?...haha....
aft tt....wen hm n started playing....dotz...nv study man!....n slpt at 5?...LOL
so todae....woke up at abt 12 as my Grandma banging my hse door....dotz....aft tt....game la game la......haha?...nv study!...till now still haven....zzzz.....siao liao...n im so slpy now... haha....dun care le...i wan a gd slp...
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10:56:00 PM
Sunday, May 01, 2005
hmmm...ytd ah....well.....forget alot of tiks of wad happ le....basically...ytd i hardcore gamin!....haha....well...slpt at ard 5am in da mornin.....den todae i woke up at abt 12+.... den realised i got a msg....
hhmmm...aft tt...Calyn asked mi to call her....waaa....i tik todae is the 1stt tim i tok to a person for 6hrs....hmm.....well....tok alot of tiks....hmmm...4gt wad le.....coz now i slpy la...haha...
well....aft tt ah....i go Ak's hse...hmmm...go there play game lorz....hmm....waaaa...tt Ak got 1 game so zhun man!....nb....cartoon porn!...lolz!.....bth lei!......i c le i reli speechless.....bois is owaz bois.....i guess i startin to agree wif his tikin...haha.....
well...slpy slpy....n i tik tts all?....haha...
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1:13:00 AM
