Thursday, July 28, 2005
Zzzz...hmmm....long time nv blog le....hmmm...well...seriously i feel tt i haf to buck up le!.... tts 1 tik for sure.... the next tik...which is 1 of my purpose y i wan blog....hmm....i juz dun utd y a normal guy like me cant find a gf....yet sm1 who is not tt normal can find!...dotZ!...n ofcoz sm other little tiks here n there which makes mi so fed up!...hmmm....i juz dun utd y!... dotx!... no matter wad... the world is changin!...n i dun get the hang of it!!... zzZz....
as for todae...well....dun utd y im so stressed up....hmmm...perhaps coz of my studies.... well... duno la.....n todae i wan go hm cant!...zzz...tt OM prevent mi frm goin out coz i muz go serve detention....tmd....luckily Kl , Ak they all stay back...if not i jia lat... hais...
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1:15:00 AM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
zzz....well...so tired until 4gt to blog....hmmm....well....my last Sunday Soccer...i felt tt i play veri well....scored a goal....n bla bla...seriously...i now reli no mood to tok man....felt tt my frens reli left me out!.....sians....so im so lonely....sians.....
well....totally no mood....ok...tata...im totally moodly...
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
zzzz....hmmm....todae is 14th July....wen i 1st woke up....i tot it was a normal day until Prem gav mi sm hints abt msgin sm1....well.....n i suddenly came to noe tt todae is a special day....perhaps in a sense tt it was special....well....gettin away frm tt subject 1st....well....todae Ms Chow reprimanded me....well....mayb she did, mayb she didnt....but i will take it as it is.....well..... she actually pointed out alot of tiks abt me....perhaps wad she had said to mi r all true.....the Marvin she knew last time is totally diff den the Marvin she knew now.....n it totally tells me 1 tik....im still not myself yet n i haf not found myself yet....not only tt.....i haf totally gone off course....i had found myself btw the clouds where im buildin castles in the air....but i shd not do tt!....i shd b buildin my castle wif my bare hands n all the sweat n my hardwork in it!....perhaps it does makes sense tt todae is a special day....
goin back to the topic....well...im sure tt im not cold blooded....but todae....i did smtik so bloodly cold tt i duno how to describe to myself!...well....Prem n Fiz told mi to msg her hapi bdae....but i still didn.....ironic.....i wld actually n eager to b the 1st person to wish her previously....but now?.... not even a msg....nth at all.... i noe its not myself...coz i noe im not cold blooded.... but perhaps is wad my feelings felt tis way....perhaps wad had passed, had passed....i duno.... i felt so pain now.....the pain still lingers....n the eagerness to juz send a msg is oso there....but perhaps the pain tt she brought to mi killed evtik off....the pain tt she left for mi is juz too pain for mi to accept her still....perhaps Prem is rite... "one can forgive, but will never forget..."
how true how true....perhaps i still duwan to face her.....but i will still carry on my life in wadeva case....i'll juz take it as lesson in my life tt i had gone thru.....
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11:42:00 PM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
hmmm...well....veri veri long time nv blog le....hmmm...no time la....mi owaz so bz....but not on sch wk....zzz....hmmm...well....currently still veri sick.....coughin awaz while typin....zzz....veri pathetic.....hmmm....well....todae i forced myself to go sch leh....zzz....even tho im still sick n anytim can drop lidad....zzz....hmm....todae i notice smtik veri unusual and its not i will usually do even....hmm....felt tt Yq is feelin veri dw.....zzz.....made mi even sick....zzz....waaa...den todae got remedial....zzz..den infront mi is Fika n Fiz....zzz....made mi rem of the past wif Yq....omg!....wtf.... tis kind of tik will actually happ to me!....gosh....perhaps i shd sae ofcoz.....im not tt kind of cold hearted person u noe.....well....at least i keep my feelings fine but alittle pain ofcoz....aft tt....i wen hm.....n slp throughout....now im gona slp again....perhaps i dun intend to go sch....im so sick!!...
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11:14:00 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
hmm....ytd i wen to coffee bean wif Ak n Kl....go there study....hmmm...but turn out like go there slack n c gals...lolz....hmmm....anyways...aft tt wen to Ak's hse....hmmmm...reach hm at abt 11:30pm orady....hmm...den my dad told mi i got sth....n saw a bag....well...got to noe tt it was frm Sebas....hmmm....dotz...well....now ar...mi n him i tik shd b okok le ba....but how abt Prem? sians...mi duno....veri fan.....aft sch todae...mi n Ak n Kl go lot1....hmm....zzz....den the bunch of gals in my class oso got go....zzz...knn....totally spoil mi dae.....wan go there slack oso cant....zzz....
haha...den tt Kl owaz make mi...den suddenly saw HuiTing den he totally seh...haha!...he look so funi...lolz....
hmmm....for a00....veri wad wif it..oso duno how to describe my feelings....well...i duwan express out much.... theres owaz room to pp tell sia0...u noe...haha....so i juz keep quiet....
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12:11:00 AM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
hmmm...todae my bdae!!!....hmmm...mornin woke up den go play soccer......quite reluctant to seriously....anyways...i go lorz....hmm...go Queensway there....zzz....so far....anyways....waited for SO long.....zzz....so toot...n play oso afew mins nia....zzz....play oso lag players...not full 11 pp.... more worse den us....zzz....
anyways....aft soccer...we go back hm lorz...mi n Alex n Ak go bukit Timah there n eat.....aft tt....hmmm....den i reach hm den i slack infront of the com le....oso nth to do......lolz.....hmmm... well....aft tt...my mum n bro come back.....zzz....come back make so much noise....knn....den my bro provoke me again...knn....den my mum side him again....knn.....tmd.....den i veri moody for the rest of the day liaos....sians.....ofcoz veri sad la....zzz...hmm....wad a dae to haf in my bdae..... well....used to it le....ev yr lidad de....looks so normal....
hmm....well....todae onli 5 pp wish mi bdae....hmmm....1st is prem....12am msg mi le...lolz.... 2nd Hj....den Serene....den my 2 ex.....zzz...i rather duwan Yq to msg mi....zzz....i duwan huai nian!!...zzz....hmm....den aft tt my loyal pilots of A00 moz of dem noe le....den all wish mi!!!..... so HAPI!!!....esp Fiz....his wing de guidelines put so big big n wish mi hapi bdaE!!!!....well.... den aft tt came to noe Ken de bdae is 13th and Yong Siang is 14th!!...both July....zzzzz....waaa... make mi tik of 14th!!!...zzz....sians...anyways....both of dem my loyal pilots....haha!!...haIss....wAd a bdaE i HaF....haIss...
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