Me , Myself n I

28-01-06

2006-01-28T03:03:00.000+08:00

hmmm... reli long time nv blog le... n reli reli long time nv enjoy le!!... juz finished my job!... n its CNY soon!!... hahas.... evdae come back den slp la all tt... no time to do much of my other tiks n my outsid life oso!...

hmmm... currently i got no energy to sae much tho i reli got alot to sae!!.. hais... theres owaz other times to sae wad i wana sae... mean time... time for me to enjoy my CNY!!... oh crap... i nd to buy clothes!!.. zzz...

signin off!

11-1-06

2006-01-11T06:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... well... todae im workin!... hmm... duno wad time come back lei... hahas.... well... ytd i had a hectic day!.. didn slpt enuff n i wen for soccer... den i came hm n played my game n aft tt i slpt for 3hrs n woke up n go play pool!... wad a dae for me ytd lols!.... todae workin im not tt excited tho... lols... hmmm... wen i c myself in the mirror juz den... i tik i played too much online games orady!... perhaps its time to stop... lols...

05-01-06

2006-01-05T01:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. so long nv blog le... well... not sae nth to blog ba... juz tt lazy n bz to blog... hahas.. anyways... tis is a special dae for me... hais... 1 yr pass le.. hahas... time flies... so much tiks has happ... so much tiks has changed.... its like a blink of an eye n 1yr has passed... n it seems evtik had juz happ juz ytd.... but i guess... all these while it had mi constantly improvin myself in many ways... hmmm... get to know many ppl too lols.. n perhaps finally noe wad im here for in this world?.. lols!!...

hmmmm... sch has started for many ppl... n im slackin ard rite now lols... n sure is findin job n workin is hard... wad hav i done orady in terms of wad type of jobs?... Motorola!.. lols.. again?!... man i did tt last yr n im still doin it again lols... cant blame... money too attractive haha... n wad im gona do in the comin days is Motorola again!... lols... theres 1 more... workin in F&N... hahas... but both r juz short lived jobs... hmmm.. in the comin mths i hope i can find better jobs.. lols... if not i can reli cry!... hmmm.. well let mi visualise tis... im gona earn 1k again for tis mth on both jobs.. lols!... wonder how to spend it.. lols... btw... previously i spent too much on many tiks lols... im omoz broke now! hahas...

signin off..

12-12-05

2005-12-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

hmmm...wa todae so tired.. well i go work den was reli tired... hmmm... den i wasnt reli hapi at work.. zzz... well... coz of tt Kl n Ak's doings... n wasnt not hapi at work tho... zzz.. and oso i nv go Sundae Soccer... too tired le... wen go back on sun i drop dead le... lols... hmmm... well... oso nth much to sae... haiss..

signin off..

7-12-05

2005-12-07T03:23:00.000+08:00

ahhh.. duno wen was the last time i posted... lols... too bz in my life lorz.. lols... nd to work... nd to slp... n to play game... lols... where got time for other tiks lols...hmmm... well well... hmmm.. so sad tt i didn go prom nite.. zzz... sians... i wan go oso cant... nd to work... hais... but for mi i tik money is more impt.. hahas... well... i still haven got the time to ask my frens abt the prom nite tiky lols!....hope it was fun... but i feel it wldn reli b tt fun.... coz at poolside... lols...go there swim meh?... lols...

well... 1 more tik which is impt is my work... hahas... now im workin back to Motorola.. lols... again man... sians.... but ofcoz tis time the cash is reli reli gd!... much more den last time lorz... n ofcoz its sort of worthwhile... but 1 tik diff now is nd to work for 12hrs!.. reli lorz... leg can break!... lols... hmmm... lucky onli on weekends... lols... if not reli can die!... hahas... i mean leg can break.. lols... hmmm... well well... i wen there still haven made any frens worx... sians... but tt Ak n Kl so many frens le... dots... veri wad sia... i bwg.. lols... hmmm... even tho nv made any frens yet but i noe many tiks abt many pp le.. lols... Ak n Kl keep tellin mi abt so many pp de tiky... lols... 1 more tik.... now Motorola there the environment much better le... n i much more njoy workin there... smmr now got 2 pp instead of Kl onli last time.. hahas... hence not tt sian le... but as in 'environment' in another meanin... hmm.. not tt gd lorz... mayb weekend not many pp wan work... smmr nite shift!... lols... smmr nd to reli do more tiky coz lesser pp... den wen Mon mornin i saw so many pp!.. dots... compare to my shift its like so less pp!... lols...
n 1 more tik.... nb... out of 2 daes... i kana condemned for the full 2 daes!... smmr same person!... knn... i c tt supervisor veri bu shuang!.. n c oso c till dulan!... nb the 1st time i didn do rong lorz... nb nv ask den shoot mi liaos.. her ABC sux!... knn duno how to count or sth... den tt Kl smwhere near mi keep luffin until duno like wad... Zzzz.... too bad Ak smwhere far... if not i tik he oso buey tahan until luff de...
hmmm... 2nd dae in Motorola horz... knn my dae still okok den end of the dae come shoot me... nb bang the table infront of me... tmd cb... i c oso sibei dulan.... knn... since last time owaz kaobei kaobu in Motorola de den now still the same... tmd she keep scoldin pp her voice wont hoarse or sth ar... knn...

hmmm... i tik 1 last tiky den i go c soccer le... hmmm..n ya.. tokin abt socer... its abt Sundae Soccer... waa dots!... nb... immediately aft Sat nite shift... i go for Sundae Soccer....nb so tired!... mi n Kl still can slp until sibei song on the field lols!... hmmm... ofcoz i play until like shit lorz... leg orady anytime can break le still can kick meh... lols... but got sm crosses still okok la... ofcoz i dun tik is gd but at least met the target... sort of.. the feeling wasnt there....

i tik no more le ba..
signin off..

1-12-05

2005-12-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

wow... so fast dec le.. hais... still dun hav a stable job... so shi bai... arhh.. if lidad i rather go bang my head on the wall... i wan money!.. lols.. well ar... i did miss alot alot of tiks to tok abt... n i 4gt alot of dem le.. lols... coz tis few daes veri tirin.. lols

anyways.. 1 tik i wont 4gt is so suey tt mi, Ak, Kl n Fiz found a job tt is veri dots... as in i dun like wan... 1st.. i dun lik sales.. 2nd is tt place got full of memories... dots... well tt was on mon ba... den aft tt on tue we all go find job at motorola... tmd suey again... i duwan sae so much...

well aft the interview on motorola.. we had a soccer match... well.. a toot trashin game... dots.. dun feel like to play tt match frm the start de lorz... but since its ova i oso duwan sae so much... aft the match mi n Ak go find our work place... n it was like so creepy place to go lorz.. lols.... well.. seriously we did took awhile to find tt place.. dots..

well.. on wed... we wen to the same place... n we sort of wen there quite early.... well ofcoz its gd to b punctual... den we was like standin outside the lift n tokin while waitin.. n dots... tt Ak seems so toot excited den me.. lols... hmmm... aftall i feel tt work is reli veri tirin n the environment veri stale n borin... erm.. lols...den smtim feel like slpin... hahas... den aft wen i go hm.. i called the motorola agent... n yea!.. we decided to giv mi , Ak n Kl a trail or sth.. lols?... den i feel abit wad for Fiz.... coz he cantwork there... haiss..... den wen i reach hm i was like slp duno lik wad le... so tired leh haha... hmmm.. lata in the dae goin for the motorola orientation.. lols.. nice

signin off...

27-11-05

2005-11-27T03:45:00.000+08:00

hmm... so late le... but i still haven slp... dots... duno lei.. so suddenly tt i cant slp le...

anyways... sat i go find job again... waa i pia job until siao... but den the pp dua me... dots!!... no van or anyth lorz... sians... i so dulan until i oso duno wad i doin ba... dots... coz near JP so go there walk walk... haiss... as the sayin goes... no money... evtik oso meaningless de... dots...

anyway wen i come back i play game den play until abt midnite le... lols... den nth to do go surf webbie... den i saw sth... den dots... cant slp le... well i guess shdn haf wen there... hou hui oso cant lorz... haiss sians... duno y my feelin lidad oso.. mi fang bu xia?... cant b lorz... duno la... feelin still so mixed up... like rojak liddad... mayb more worse ba... duno la.. but 1 tik i noe is i will nv ever wan c tt person again... tts 1 tik to keep all those rojak feelings out of me... i will b strong de!! ... ... like real... dots...

ehh... ehh... come to tik of it... lata in the nite goin to ms parimala wedding le... den will c lorz... lames... waaa dots.. i bwg le... ehhh... tis kind of tiks how long le ar?... still tik of it... dots... cant help it ba... i oso human leh... smmr i not tt type of heartless person... dots... i now tikin of how to slp le... lames... how to slp oso muz tik of how... lols... smmr lata got soccer... den how to play... mei you jin shen.. dots... haiss.. wad to do... no money will owaz tik of 2pid stuffs... if got money den wont le!!.. got money.. i wont even blog lame tiks le... hahas... or even sae 2pid stuff... n mayb i can even slp well... hahas... sians... any1 got lobang ma!... ZzzZ....

signin off...

25-11-05

2005-11-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

w0o...todae so sians... no job means veri veri sian!!... anyways... todae still okok ba... well todae Ak called me... abt 12 lidad wen im still slpin lols... so wen i wake up le i go call for jobs le... well.. so dots de... veri hard to find lorz.. zZzz...

Aft tt mi n Ak go Bugis, City Hall, Orchard n slack n walk walk... lols... waaa... duno y Bugis so many pp go de... met alot alot of pp there sia... esp many sec4 pp de... muz b go there shop shop for clothes... waaa... now den buy lols... who cares... i buy finish le.. :P den aft tt saw sm sec2 pp de... lols... Ak oso like dots.. haha.... w0o... i wan sm fun... lols.. veri soon le ba... hahas!...

well... 1 tik tt reli veri dots is mi n Ak todae veri veri eye catchin lols... tt Ak go n put eye liner until siao... den mi leh... my hair duno lik wad lols... :P gd gd.. haha... more attention is gd lols.... well for tmr's activity is to find job!.. waa die die muz go find!.. but so hard lidad... zZz...

signin off...

24-11-05

2005-11-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

erm... well... hols started le... O lvls finally finish le... well... how long le ar?.. lols.. hmm... abt 2 daes le... anyways even b4 the last paper... mi Ak n Fiz n smtim oso Kl... we wen n find jobs... find high n low oso veri hard to find.... dots... at tis rate... i dun tik we can actually wk lorz... den i bwg le... die die muz pia find job le... n tt makes mi so toot stress... dots... i tot studies onli make mi stress... now i noe no cash oso makes mi so stress lols... waaa.. no cash.. cant go out... cant go out means sian... wen sian means nth to do n so stress on how to make money lols... so inter-link ar lols...

well ar... lets tok abt Sun 1st ba... all i can rem is i wen for Sunday soccer...den aft tt Kl jio mi go c XiaoYuan Superstar... well... i tot is veri veri sian de... den in the end it wasnt... hahas... anyways saw Jowene n frens there... well... not even they all... even sm pp which i gt nth to sae oso there... dots.... well... tts Kl's gay fren ma... lols.. wad to do... wan gay wif him lols...

aft tt i tik i shd tok abt various tiks abt where i find jobs ba... well... we find mozly in the north n west side de... but the agency can b so far away!!... Zzz.... 1 agency was in Shaw House n was like in orchard road... dots... well... wen we reli reli cant find le... den we all go back to the Motorola again... wa dots.. tho i hate it but cant... coz cant find any lols!... n wad i found out was sm pp oso goin there which i duwan c de n dots... i bwg.. well... not onli mi ba... cant sae mi onli lorz... oso got Ak ba lols...

Todae.... well...todae i tik veri slack ba... coz too tired le.. lols.... go mornin i go play soccer n bball... n dots... the bloodly weather so chio... so hot leh!... dots... i can faint man... lols... aft tt Ak n i go Westmall... coz he folo mi go buy hair dye... den aft tt go his hse eat lunch.. n eat until veri full... n aft tt we meet Fiz den both of dem come my hse... find job... well... the paper too less general workers de... well... i tik my mum reli rite... onli the Mon n Wed classified the moz... the rest moz of it veri less... waaa.. i duwan wait until Mon den find again lorz!.. lols... so nv reli find much lorz... haiss.. den aft tt i dye my hair.... waaaa... wait until so long lorz... anyways wen i go wash... or bathe... nb both of dem break into my toilet!.. nb dem... next time dey muz get it!!.. den the rest of the dae so sian... except tikin of 3 tiks... jobs, cash and how the hell am i goin to get out of my hse wif my chio hair!!... lols... dye until too ah beng le... ZzZzz... hope i dun get whack lols!...

signin off...

16-11-05

2005-11-16T14:55:00.000+08:00

haiss.... todae is Geo n Chi B LC... the Chi B... dun sae le... no nd study at all de... but Geo sian le... i tik onli C6... dots... i feel like bangin my head le... i nv even do finish the paper... wads more... SS oso duno whether can pass anot.... wif tis 2 add 2gther... den i chum le lorz... wa dots le... i tik i muz tik of other courses to take le.... lidad my hopes all gone le... dots... sians sians... anyway tmr is A maths... do or die le la... if nv do sth for A maths paper 2 den i jia lat le lorz!... sians sians... haiss... no mood le... haisss....

signin off...

14-11-2005

2005-11-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

Sun:
hmmm... well... w00... todae go for Sunday soccer.... wee... veri hapi... sort of... anyways...1st half veri suang la... my game play too nice le ba... lols... sort of my every touches n movement is gd ba... but hor... aft tt bloodly Justin come... nb my play like shit.... esp in the 2nd half... play until sibei dulan... dots... nb... i feel like whackin evtik in my way... but tho my mood n ofcoz my gameplay wasnt at all perfect... i scored a goal... anyways the goal was much debatable... so well... i wasnt much impress wif it... anyway i cldn even c whether its a goal or not... juz take it as a goal tho... mayb it was too high... mayb...

Mon:
waaaa... todae huh... well... i juz finished 2 papers... Chi b.. dots... i hack care anyway... i nv even touched anyth abt Chi except for songs... lols...n the 1st paper was paper 1... waaa... i even had probs copin on how to rite chi even... lols... anyways.... since its finished... gotta conc on A maths n Geo... where tis 2 subs its whether i get gd grades or goin to private sch next yr... n i certainly wont want it... but im feelin sloppy n sort of wonderin ard in the air lidad... can even hardly conc... dots...well i guess lata i gotta push myself... well... n i haven touched a tik on Geo... gosh... i'll b dead if i dun study todae or tmr!!...

countdown: 5 papers and 8 days LEFT!!
signin off...

11-11-05

2005-11-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

zzz...sians... todae so fedup... coz of E maths so many mistakes... feel like bangin my head on the wall lorz!... den wen i come back... i go play games till siao juz to release tt stress!!... sians... now left 8 papers n 12 more days to go... hmmm... the first few paper all so hard lorz!!... nb... ofcoz its do-able... but i dun tik i study too much... tts y lidad.... esp tis E maths paper!... nb... haiss... over le.. now the tik to do is pia Geo n A maths le... Chi B ar... errr... c i got time anot la... lols...

signin off..

7-11-05

2005-11-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm... well... sun nv go sunday soccer... coz nd to study.... hmmm... veri miss soccer leh... lols... anyway i watch sm parts of Man U vs. Chelsea... i muz appaluse to Man U for doin well lorz... hahas... tokin abt soccer.... hmmm... i reli feel tt soccer is smtik tt i reli reli love it... hmm... not juz the passion of it... mayb evtik!!... n wen i play soccer... im damn serious abt it... anyways... im tryin to get to the pt tt i dun like ppl who control my play unless tt person is my coach... or sm1 whom i respect ba... i feel tt in soccer... if u r not up to standard or do not haf the basis of it... beta not try to control formation or sth lidad... well... tts my style in soccer ba...
anyways... todae huh... waaa dots!!... Emaths damn bloodly ez!!... but not SS lorz!!... tt Mrs Tang sae wad 2nd priority tiky!!... den i nv study dem... nb!!... den i study all nv come out!!... wa dots!!... i duno wad to sae le... my comb humanities jia lat le lorz!!... nb... if lidad i feel so pressured le... Amaths i die die muz score at least a B3 lorz... wa dots le lorz... wif my 2pid bloodly mistakes still so present... its like a big bolder in front of mi to get a A1!!... sians!!... den Emaths i scare got the moderation tiky... den siao le... haiss... but i wont gib up de!!... but lidad make me so stress!!... dots...
hmmm... n ya hor... 1 more tiky... aft the papers.. Ak folo mi go buy sm bloodly expensive products for my face... nb... last time no pimples... face like eng shell... lols... den now become lidad... zzz... well.. thon too much lorz... so now muz take care le... lols..

signin off...

1-11-05

2005-11-01T18:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... todae so hapi..... hmmm.... well... todae i wen Swensen go eat wif my mum n bro... hmmm.... well... go there not exactly go there njoy the food or celerbrate lorz.... the main objective is sort of go spy?... lols.... coz my couz at there workin... den got a guy at there workin de.... well... started n she wan to stop the relationship due to many factors ba.... n i oso duno how to put into words ba... the guy is much more older lorz.... haiss.... anyways since im there... i njoy myself lorz... lols....
den aft tt my mum duno y so gd buy for me Jay's new album lorz!!... lols.... reli so hapi wif it.... haha.... well.... seriously if lidad goes on i duno how to conc on my studies... lols.... but i will de... less den a wk le!!... so stress... zzz....

signin off...

30-10-05

2005-10-30T17:48:00.000+08:00

hmm... quite long nv blog le... mayb i will juz summaries the tiks impt ba...

Thur:
Zzz... i tik tis dae i reli will not 4gt de... hmm.... got sm bloodly fuck sec2 pp call my FULL name... zzz... well... i noe smwad who they r de....but i will not do much tiky currently.... nb... wen O lvl finish well.... bash dem or sth le... knn....

Fri:
waaa... a rainy dae.... sort of reli nth to do on tis dae.... smhow juz those fuckers slip away... haf to wait till next yr wen come back sch....

Sat:
hmmmm... lols... tis dae wen out wif Ak.... well... go study Sci... n found out tt many tiks reli i 4gt le... dots... how can it be!... i reli cant believe it... anyways... the pt is... tis dae veri funi... aft study le... we go check prices on tiks we wan to buy.... ehh... mainly his tiks.... hmmm... or mayb i shd sae window shoppin...lols....anyways.... he wanted to check up Gucci sunglasses n he asked for the price.... smhow to salesperson wanted to ask him buy the cheaper specs... LOLS!... hahas!!... sort of kana dispised... lols!!... n i made a big joke out of it on tt dae!!... lols!!...n ofcoz he feelin veri fuck up... lols... n its so funi!!.. lols... at nite huh... hmmm...we had some 'big' dreams of owns cars n wad craps... well... personally i tik O lvl pass den sae... lols....

Sun:
wa dots.... y todae so hot!!... anyways!.... wen to Sundae Soccer as usual... wa dots... i sprain my ankle!!!...zzzz... wa lao... lucky not tt serious la.... anyways got 1 guy oso sprain his ankle... but much more worse... anyways.... i play like shit coz of my ankle!!...zzzzz... sians.... i tik nth much... n shdn comment much abt my poor performance....

signin off...

24-10-05

2005-10-24T09:27:00.000+08:00

Sun:
hmmmm...well... sunday soccer as usual... hmmm... cant sae tt dae's performance was tt great.... but okok ba... anyways... tt dae tt bloodly Justin sibei fuck up la... nb... sae duno how to pick up ball... den look at his direction den sae c wad c... zzz...knn...kan dulan... anyways... tt dae overall the game is quite rough...

Mon:
hmmm...well.. juz woke up... n i tik i gotta study study study le...

signin off..

19-10-05

2005-10-19T14:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm...tmr is Sci practical paper!!... dots... i lata muz die die study like hell le... hmmm... i seriously seriously duno whether i can do anot lei.... hmmm...hope i can do ba... hmmm.... the O lvls gettin so near n near... veri scary at the same pt of time... im more excited... lols... duno lei... hahas...

signin off..

17-10-05

2005-10-17T15:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm...quite long nv blog...hmmm...anyways...still veri stressed abt the results i will get... n stress to strive to score gd grades... hais...

Sun:
hmmm..soccer sunday as usual... hmmm...wad i can comment abt myself huh?... as the weeks passes by... my game play gets more excitin!... hahas... well... on tis day itself... i got alot of gd comments... well... it certainly brightens up my whole dae!... well... not onli my corners r well taken... crosses... passes... wadeva r juz too gd to b true...n juz too many shots i had taken... but off target... dots... but nvm!... i scored at last in the last goal... hahas!...
well...tts my self-scrutiny of myself.... n i will do sm scrutiny of the whole game itself... well... Pang brought 2 of his frens tt day... hmmm... well... okok la... i wont sae tt bad... but juz the 1st game... how to noe... anyways... i have a gut feelin tts the last game for dem... coz of Justin lorz.... hmm... duno wad toot... knn... i c oso buey song... pp juz dribble here n there n tik pp make fun of him... den scold pp liaos.... knn... den complain duno wad toot make his legs or wadeva... nb... wen 1st half end le... they all zhao le... dots.. nb... kan lame...

Todae:
hmmm... todae its a COLD dae! zzz... so cold... smmr mock exams in the AVA... zzzz...tiks r as usual... those chao lamers r oso as usual... c oso buey song...n i suddenly feel tt sec3 pp more guai lan... nb wan to act infront of sec 4s n 5s... nb.... tis kind of pp i definately wont gib face!... den i c pp kana flirt... den cant do anyth... all i can do is juz shake my head ba... haiss... anyways... aft sch go kick soccer... ehhh... i play until like fuck!... i reli bwg... hmmm... y ar... i tik no consistency or mayb street n field diff... dots!... reli feel like bangin my head... =.=

singin off..

14-10-05

2005-10-14T18:04:00.000+08:00

hmm...well...todae not much time i can spend on my com...well...den i briefly sae wads on my mind ba.... hmmm...todae got grad day ceremony... hmmmm... den at first i so dulan....hmm... coz i nv get any awards... lols... hmmm...but its true tt i cannot reli get any awards ba... except tt i did AVA class committee for 3yrs lorz... hahas.... hmmm...anyways.... aft those awards being given.... hmm... we got the chers to tok to us n oso slides tt each class has presented... hmmm... n i feel tt it reli motivated me much.... n im reli startin to feel the days as it passes by...i shd sae tt tis ceremony... tho so damn long... its still quite gd as a whole n overall.... hahas...

signin off...

12-10-05

2005-10-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm...many days nv blog le... hmmm...but alot of tiks had happ tho... well... i oso reli duno wad to rite for todae...coz todae i veri stress.... hmmm... duno y lidad oso... hmmm... anyways i got B3 for my CCA... lols... i so slack in my CCAs yet can get a B3... den those NP pp fri n sat owaz stay back onli got C5... lols... den ytd i reli made a big joke out of it... hahas.... morale of story?... join NP!... lols!...

ytd:
ytd huh...as usual...go sch all tt....den aft tt i go lot1 wif Ak aft sch...hmmm...abt 4+ or 5+ lidad le ba... anyways...go there n he buy his comics den aft tt i wanted to go c games.... hmmm... den at lot1 dun haf go westmall... well... i shd sae at last i bot the game... Warcraft 3... lame i noe... but i duwan borrow... well... aiya... those who noe will noe my diffculty la.... lols..so X!... dots.... 70 bucks!... omg... can buy alot of tiks lorz... hais...

todae:
hmmm...well....todae i wen to recess... as usual... eat all tt....wadeva...but 1 tik tt reli came into my attention is sth tt i wont disclose it here...waaaa...reli veri heartbreakin... or mayb angry?... wadeva... well... i shd sae n admit tt its tt period of the dae which made mi so jia lat n no mood ba...hais....todae i came back early... jabot chi mock exams... now im here n wan play game le... wan de stress... haissss..

5-10-05

2005-10-05T11:32:00.000+08:00

[tis paragraph does not apply to all readers.. onli some... it may arrouse many kinds of feelings.. n will show my rather bad side of me...]
well...didn noe tt here got alot of pp read 1 de... hmmm... well... basically tis is sm place for my own personal breathin place.. if u like tis place... den go on readin.. dun like den juz click on the 'X' ... i wldn welcome wif open arms to those pp whom i least expected to come here... if u read those posts earlier n dun like dem... not my prob... i wont ans qns tt r insid u... i totally feel it will juz lower my lvl of maturity tokin abt those stuff... coz its all there... juz infront of ur face orady... curse me insid.. call mi anyth... wadeva... or mayb diao me... wadeva... i wont do anyth... coz i noe im mature enuff n i rather care for pp who r more intellectual... not to pp who r not...u mayb cursin me now... saein im the 1 who is the immature n low intellectual person... wadeva... even a teacher can tell tt im much more mature n so intellectual... so how can i deny the fact tt i hav the intellect n mature?!... dun like it den juz click on the 'X' coz i personally feel u can dun go on readin...

wadeva... now its my own life le...

tue:
hmmm...todae huh... aft sch i go wach The Myth wif Sebas, Prem n ST...hmmm... initially we called Gay Cai to folo us de... but duno wtf happ den he duwan go... zZz.... i heard duno wad Hj n bla bla... dotx la...wadeva the case is... the show started at 4:15... but i was 1 hr earlier... dotx... den we waited for sebas... dotx... damn slow... but luckily nv miss the 1st part... hahas... anyways... i reli like the show.... was a reli nice show lei.... esp the last part veri touchin... hahas... hmmm...den aft tt we all zhao hm le... lidad ba... but on tis day i knew so much tiky... hmm....

todae:
well....todae i nv go sch... i was so sick.... down wif a flu... so i duwan go sch... hmmm... n i no MC... aiya...dun care... well... so i guess i hav to study at hm ba... well... i tik its not enuff slp ba... aiya... tis few days i dun hav enuff slp lehs... now wake up le i reli feel much beta le... hmmm... i feel tis few days abit stressed up... hmmm.. but i guess now no more le... hahas... tt shd b a gd sign ba...

duno wad to rite le..
signin off..

3-10.05

2005-10-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

Sun:
wen to my Soccer Sundae as usual...well... i tik im reli hapi wif my performance ba... i reli reli like my my performance lorz...hmmm...how shd i sae ar... hmmm...i scored 1 !!!!... yeah!... tts sth i shd b hapi abt... n i made many.. many... n many shot attempts..... wif ofcoz many came close to goals ofcoz.... its smtik i shd b hapi abt... hahas...no more "balloons"... lols... well... gd comes wif bad... many pp fouled me lorz... dotx... veri dulan.... the worse tik was Wei Xiang came frm behind n slide me lorz!... 1st of all frm behind can get yellow le... smmr late tackle!... waaa... if got ref... cfm red de lorz!... but the worst tik was i fell n hit my head on the ground 1st... dots.... now my whole neck so stiff.... dotx.... veri hard to slp lorz... anyways.... i tik on tt dae... its the 1st time since 1yr++ i played in the rain!... woo...so cool n shiok!... hahaas!!...

aft tt at nite i go tuition....den my tuition cher sae tt if i continue to work hard... i can actually get at least a B3 for my A maths.... its smtik i wld like to happ lorz...but A1 or 2 is beta... lolz...since my tuition cher got so much confident in me... i tik i shd b workin harder... duwan lose face lei... lolz... n it does motivates me alot!...

todae:
hmmm...todae ar..same rountine ba.... but todae got mock exams.... emaths i counted the marks le... ONLY B3!... i tik i muz knock my head again!... mayb on sun knock my head 1 time not enuff!... lols!.... but seriously... if i dun do sth abt my e maths... there goes my A1 lorz!... but reli practice le... tmr SS n Phy... lata muz study le... sians sia... but i tik i reli got sm motivation... hahas... hmmm... oh ya... todae cant b movie... haiss... perhaps sm other daes ba...tue seems alittle bz.... hope i can c my movie asap!...

signin off..

30-09-05

2005-09-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ytd i was writin smtiks to my mum... well... i had alot of bloodly tots in my mind n to tell her... so i was reli stressed wif it... anyways...juz b4 i write a word on a paper.. sm1 called me... hmm... it was the person whom i least expect... sm1 whom i do not wan to even tik abt... sm1 whom i juz wan to take it tt she has orady disappeared in my life, dreams, reality... wadeva... but she juz called mi at tt pt in time... who else?... lols... im sure many will noe by now... anyways... it reli stunted me...n i was in a state of wad-to-react tiky.. but afew secs lata... i told her "...(undisclosed) ..." n i juz hang the fone... there is ofcoz afew attempts on callin...but i didn ans any... well... be it heartless or wad... but at tt pt in time... i suddenly noe wad she wanted to tell me... n ofcoz it muz b Candy... who else?... n i noe her juz too well orady... she wont even attempt to tok to mi or wadeva unless sm 'impt' tiks tt i will owaz felt tt its unimpt... n... ofcoz i juz continued on wad i had to write abt...

tt nite...wen im slpin... duno y i suddenly had those tots of wad happ earlier... n.... it reli made mi tikin n stressed up...but there was juz 1 strong feelin in me... tt is to noe wad she actually wanted to tok to me... but seriously... im damn sure wad she wanted to tell me... yet i had tt feelin of wantin to noe wad she wanted to sae... ironic isn it?... haiss...wadeva the case is... i cldn slp well ytd...

anyways...todae in sch ar... hmmm... quite normal la... nth reli happen lei... so... i shd conclude tt its a borin day... hahas.... seriously...i wld rather haf borin daes ova stessful daes...n i had quite a no of stessful daes tis few daes... well...todae actually wanted to jio pp go wach The Myth... dotx... lik no1 de lei.... nvm... mon got sm1 will folo me le..hahas....

aft sch arr... den go gay Cai hse!..lols!.... well.... okok ba.... but veri tirin at there lorz... too many pp wan use com... den muz share n bla bla... so moz of the time is standin up... lolz...play sm games... den aft tt go hm... n here i am... sittin here facin my com le... hahas...i tik nth le ba...

signin off..

29-05-05

2005-09-29T16:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm... waaa...todae totally no mood....haiss.... hmmm....how shd i start lei?....actually i quarrelled wif my family... dotx... well... its all abt my 2pid bro again....haiss...he veri fan lorz... nb...evdae cfm make mi dulan or wad de!... tmd...i reli cant stand it lorz... anyways... coz of him... i fell out wif my mum.... but ofcoz i noe its partly my fault la...coz i hurt him physically... but... if had not 'mei da mei xiao'... i wldn even flare up de lorz!... n i got all the blame!... fuckin unfair lorz!

anyways....todae ar... i veri sians in sch la... got back my comb humanities results le... reli not up to standard lorz... well...haiss... veri veri burnt out by evtik le... i tis few days nv study lorz...haiss.. i duno la... veri stress lei...haiss...

hmm..duno wad to sae le..haiss..
signin off..

28-09-05

2005-09-28T17:13:00.000+08:00

hmmm... todae shd b sm gd dae for me... but turned out to b so bad...

anyways... durin A maths lesson... well.. i tot tt Candy shouted at me tellin mi off to suddup... well... who wldn b furious ova tis kind of matter... n ofcoz i diao at her la... den she kb at me... oso duno wad she sae but hack care... well.. tiks came to light... it wasn her but Yq... Zzz... tt was the least i had expected... n i didn noe who she was referin to... but who cares... well... wad can i do?... i cant do anyth lorz... anyways.. im still fuckin angry ova it ofcoz... tis enmity btw mi n dem will definately go even worse... but who cares... i tik Mrs Choo's words a rite.. n i go wif it... but ofcoz i tot b4 le... but she smwad reminded me again... hahas..

well...aft sch me, Ak, Kl, Sebas, Ys, Pokky!(Zj) go lot 1... den mi, Ak n Kl walk to lot 1... den hav a special seat at KFC.. lols... fengshui sit lehs!... lols!... den suddenly saw 2 gals... our sch de... lols... Ak seems to haf a hard time copin wif the changes in the surroundin... lols!... lac lei Ak.. hahas!...

den wen goin hm... mi n Kl n Ak take train... den saw 1 of dem again.. LOLS!... pity Ak sia... lols!... hahas... duno y mi n Kl took it as a joke... it meant to b smtik quite solemn.... anyways... come back hm quite early... nd to slp den go tuition... hais...

signin off..

27-09-05

2005-09-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

sians... todae so sian de... hmmm... todae go sch as usual... den go thru paper... den go back.... hmmm... well... todae folo Rafi go buy his tiky... den aft tt meet Ak den we go hm... so sian... lols...

anyways... todae ar... nb... i reli cant stand it le!... tt bloodly chao Candy...tmd... she tik she own everywhere issit?.. knn... muz make so much noise issit!... tmd... im sure tt such pp got sm probs smwhere... juz smwhere... perhaps the brains? or perhaps no common sense? or mayb both? LOL!.. well.. i duwan comment so much... anyways... she sure is a *****!!... lols!... lalala...

hmmm... wad else ar?.. duno le la... so borin... perhaps lata muz force myself go study le...
sign off..

26-09-05

2005-09-26T07:40:00.000+08:00

w00ts... how long nv come online le.. hmm... abt more den 4 days le... hahahas... well... i tik i got alot of tiks to tok abt...hmmm...

on sat...
well... i go for my sch's family day tiky la... oso duno wad crappy tiky oso... den ar... actually meetin Ak n Alex at 7:30 am... coz tot 8 am muz reach sch... anyways... i woke up late!.. i onli woke up wen i heard Ak's msg.. dotx... well.. sori for tt, Ak... anyways... i asked my dad send mi go... den abt 8 i reach there le... wen there i met Alex n Ak le... hmmm... walk until duno like wad le... coz like nth... lolx... well... on tt day... hmm... alot of pp lookin at us... hmmm... perhaps we 'special' ba... actually not alot la... juz afew lamers... lols... anyways... who cares abt dem!..
aft tt... Kl, Alex, Ak, Fiz n me go 'trainin'... DOTX... tt 1 call trainin?... if tt 1 trainin... i tik tts my easiest soccer trainin i haf ever had!... aiya... hack care.. anyways tt time abit dulan... aft tt... Kali n Hadi den reach... dotx... dey duno go where den come... lols... aft tt we all tok craps... den aft tok abt prom nite!!... dotx!... the prom nite tiky reli makes mi excited financially n mentally... lols.... i nd to save money to buy clothes!!... dotx... burnin my pocket a big hole!... den ar... mentally ar.. duno lei... Hadi sae got dance den alot of tiky... den sae can bring ur Bf/Gf go there... dotx... wa tt dae i cfm veri lonely de!... stand there duno do wad... dotx!...

on sun....
wooo... sunday soccer!... Fiz n Kl nv go... hack care... i go wif my dad lorz... hahas....tt dae damn chio!!... i lov it man!... i tik tt dae was the moz fulfillin dae for mi coz for tis few mths i hav been playin shit football... n i tik tt dae was sth i can look up to... made many crosses... tackles... bla bla bla la... lols!... wadeva the case is... it brightens up my DAE!.. lols...

todae...
no sch... no nth leh!!!... but i suddenly rem 1 tik... i got Chi B 'O' lvl bloodly shit oral LATA!!... at 2:15... DOTX...its sth im NOT lookin forward to... n i wan my beauty slp!... coz i juz now slpt at 3am... den 7am woke up... DOTX... n i duno y i woke up so early.. lols!.... wad type of holiday... no holiday for me de!... sobs!...i hope im not the last few!... lols!... i wan go hm early n tts it!... go slp again... weee!... hahaas!..

anyways... well... duno tis few days tik of alot of tik leh... 1 particular tik is my uncle... who recently called back to Sg frm london... well... he told my grandma sae he earnin $25K a mth!.. no joke!... n its Sing dollarS!... den 5 day work.... den weekends he will go tour ard UK... DOTX!!.. tts wad i wan in my LIFE!....ever since tt...i hav been dreamin of both the lifestyle n the money!.. lols!... smmr in the course of road i wana b leadin...accountancy... well... i guess tt will b it... im targettin for tt lifestyle n the sum of money n takin him as my role model orady!.. yeaH!

w00ts.. duno hapi or slpy... n tts it for todae...
signin off..

23-09-05

2005-09-23T14:50:00.000+08:00

ZzZ... waA... aCtually i veri down orady... coz of the practical exams... zZz... den wen goin hm.. along the way sm bloodly bastards call my name... nb... veri dulan lorz... nb... next time i dun gib face liaos... i tot dun care abt dem dey wont come find trouble... knn... since lidad i hack care orady... ccb... feel like whackin dem now... nb... to ease my tension n my sensation frm these bastards...

anyways... lata moz prob goin out wif Ak n Alex... den Yat lata jio mi go slack.. hmm... c lorz... hahas... mayb ok ba... hav to c Ak oso...hmm... juz come back still haven eat... zZzz...

sign off..

23-09-05

2005-09-23T09:57:00.000+08:00

perhaps a short entry for todae... hmm... todae muz go sch 10-30.. hahas... not bad eh?... hmm... todae veri wad leh.. told my mum dun wake me up but still wake mi up... zzzz... well... den i go slp again la...

well...lata's paper will b practical sci.... dots... seems hard to me lorz... hmmm.. but i will try to do well again... well...frm all the prelims papers... i guess... i got alot of work to do... if not how to get my As... zZz...

well.. veri soon nd to go le... anyways i got nth to sae.. hmmm..
sign off...

20-9-05

2005-09-20T14:01:00.000+08:00

w00ts... y so sian de leh todae... hmm... anyways... todae eng paper 2.. hmmm.. i hope i can get B3 for tt... hahas... n oso SS todae... ZzzZ... the paper okok la... but i nv reli go study... den i oso duno how will i fare for tt....hopin for more den a pass at least la... if not, i duno wad to sae le...

tmr Sci paper lei... w00.. my FAVOURITE!... waaa.. i die die n DIE DIE muz die die get A1.. if not i go kill myself la!... if tts the case... i muz study hard lorz... hmmm... but duno all the tiky can go inside my brain anot lei... sians...i guess... go slp den study like hell le ba... if not no A1 i reli bwg le... hmmm... n aft tmr is A maths.. hmmm... i better prove ev1 i can do it lorz.... at least a passs is perhaps a miracle le ba... but prom Mrs Choo nd get B3 lei... zzZ... i guess i'll juz try my bloodly bez for A maths la....

hmmm... still got wad tik happ huh?.... hmm.. duno la... todae no stress but veri sians leh.. hahas... siao siao de... but who cares... cancerians r like tis ma... hahas... hmm.. oh ya... todae break record la... 1:50 reach hm... tis whole yr the earliest... well... tmr more shuang... 12:30 lidad finish sch le... i tik 1 lidad will reach hm le!.. hahaS!...

well i guess tis is perhaps tts all for todae?..
signin off... zhaos*

19-9-05

2005-09-19T14:24:00.000+08:00

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. hot. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

hmmm...doesn it totally describes me?!... gosh..i tik its 99% totally abt me..perhaps the 1% it left out smtiks abt me tt is gd or mab bad but i currently cant tik of la...hahas...

anyways...todae came hm at 2:15... -.- lames!... so early ar?!.. hmmm...todae E maths paper damn chio!... i tik i can onli get a pass ba... dots... i was hopin for a B3 at least or sth lidad... but well... prelims r owaz harder den O lvls... cant help it tho... n last yr E maths prelims i got D7 n O lvls got B3 leh.. lols!... err... Ak... 4gt to tell u sth... abt 10 marks careless n 15 more marks i nv do finish which i 100% can get de... so at tt time i shd get C5 perhaps?.. lols!... aiya... who cares.. tts the past for me le.... but as the sayin on top says... i wont 4gt y i got juz a B3... nv... n NV ever... well.. it serves a lesson for me too tho... hmmm...

wadeva the case is.. i wan conc on studies but duno y so many tikys dun let mi conc on my studies lei!!... veri stress leh!!.. zzz... not tt i duno my work or duwan study leh.. but so many distractions ard tt make mi cant study!.. dots!... gosh.. sm1 save mi frm such unholy tots n get me out of such hell!...

hmm... wad can i sae of now anyways.. i duno oso.. i guess tts all for todae...
signin off..

18-9-05

2005-09-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

dotx... y so sian these days... nb reli too sian until no mood to study leh... smmr so stress... ZzzZ... i wan siao liaos... duno how to n wad to do la... i wan get out of sch n so slack, work... wadeva la... i wan smk, drink, die.. lols!...

hmmm...ytd ar... woke up 4++ le...den muz faster go for my tuition le lorz... waaa... den so stress there... zzZ...aft tt den go back... wach tv... do tuition hwk... den study ABIT e maths... tts all... so slack sia!... if lidad i duno how to cope wif O lvls le!...

den todae ar.. zzzz....woke up abt 1 den wach tv till now... zzz... nv study at all... zzz...dotx dotx... duno la... so stress leh... lata force myself to study le...

signin off...

16-9-2005

2005-09-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

zzZ.. so sian todae... hmm.... the 2nd day of prelims... juz now havin geo n eng paper 1... zzz... all my brain cells were killed by the exam viruses... lolx... so... i tik todae muz slack slack b4 i do my studyin again... hahas...

hmm...well... tis few days owaz wif Ak n Yat...well...ytd we met up n i c dem skate again... hmm... den ar...we slack slack ard oso... hmmm...den Yat's deck break.. hmmm.... i got nth to comment... hmmm....aft tt mi n Yat go Yio Chu Kang... go meet the seller.... Yat buyin E1000, which is my fone lorz... hahas... hmm... along the way orady so tired orady sia... mayb too stress?... hmm... anyways aft tt we wen back to BB n go mac... hmm.... den he blanja me mac lorz... den at there we tok tok... den aft tt go hm le.... wad a day... made mi so fatigue...

todae ar.. hmm... aft exams mi n Ak go lot 1...hmm... ate LJS there... hmm....n we tok tok lorz... hmm... n he told mi sm probs he facin currently... well...i guess there r sm tiks tt we cant help it we haf to go look for the ans...or else there will not b any solutions to it... aft tt we walk ard lot 1 den aft tt got police spot check ard there... dotx... den aft tt go hm le...

well i guess tts all ba...sign off...

w00t..

2005-09-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

hMmM... hoW i online ar...ask mum lors...hmmm...well...basically i wan to online to blog lorz... hmmm... smtiks tt i muz blog to take it as an memory to me...

hmmm....well....todae go out wif Yat n Ak n Rafi....hmmm...we go hm 1st den we aft tt go out again...hmm....well....1st we go TW garden... collect sm tiks den chill at there awhile...hmm... den i ask Ak folo mi go Mac.... smtik which made mi totally SICK is i saw a fucker n a bitch....or perhaps a bastard... anyways.... i tik i shdn even tot of goin to Mac in the 1st place... wad a damn day...totally made mi sick n stressed....wtf.... hmm...n i feel tt i shdn back out...i shd hav got there infront of him n duno fuck ard mayb... hmm...n i prom to myself tt i c him 1 time i whack 1 time... hmmm...sth i feel i shd had done lorz at tt time...tmd...

anyways...aft tt go to keat hong there n chill....abt 7++ den got hm....hmm...at tt time ofcoz i felt much better....aft tt ar...wen i tik of tt bastard...tmd....makes mi hot all ova again....all the rage was there.... hais... wadeva the case is... aft O lvl den sae....

hmmm...btw...tis few days tik alot of tiks...haiss.... duno y cant conc on my studies leis.... hmmm....i tik alot of tik clash wif my life at tis pt of time lei...zZz...wan to conc oso cant...i guess i haf to deal wif each of the matter b4 i can reli study ba...or perhaps neglect all the tiks in my mind ba... dotx dotx... smmr fri geo n eng prelims leh...n geo so many tiks to study..zZz...

tik i gtg le....sign off...

w00ts...

2005-09-08T17:03:00.000+08:00

hMmM... okIeS....tiS wiLL b my LasT EnTrY b4 i mysteriously disappear again....frm my com la ofcoz...lols....hMmM...sians...aft todae i muz reli do 100% quality le...n put evtik aside me n conc on my studies le...i wan my cert to b nice nice leh...lols....exclude tt bloodly F9... -.-

hmM...i guesS...i tik i had reli reli forgotten tt person frm my heart orady...n i noe tt there will b no "hui tou cao" for me....the big feeling is there...hahas...8mths on tt bloodly gal?...lols...tts reli long...hack care wad ppl sae n i'll juz do wad im supposed to do n wad i wan to do orady...

hMmM...let me sum up my 6day alone tiky....met sm new frens, tok to many of my frens n do sm consultin infront of the com...lols....long time nv do tis orady...well...tts wad i like to do leh...lolx!...hmm....n oso get to tok to many of my frens i used to tok to!...n not onli tt..i even n actually get to tok to my pri sch bez fren!...lols!...its been 5yrs since i c him again...hahas.... n oso....my hols r all remediation classes...omG!...lucky fri is a rest dae...but i will study de...haha!... my motto for now is "Study Study Study! A1 A1 A1!" and "I love A Maths!" and lastly, "One's nemesis is distraction!" hmm...i will not get distracted!...hope la lol!...

hmM....todae ar....i tik sj's bdae....but who cares!...i dun gib a fuck or damn care on these lamers or even childish gals!.... basically i dun like moz of the chi gals in my class....who do not noe!.. lolS!...well...todae aft remediation lessons.... Ak come my hse n chill out....lolx....i tik he feelin dw or sth ba...tts y wan to chill out....nv reli ask but at least he come n spend my time away gd enuff le... n he kept complainin abt Bra n Kl tt dey keep forcin him to go Sj's hse... lols!... den aft tt keep tellin me tt he duwan to go.... well...to make tiks worse...i encourage him to go n go tell Sj tt his face is her prez!...lols!... ok la Ak...if u c tis..plz dun mind me...juz kiddin...i noe wad u tikin la... haha!...

lastly i tik....lata goin to fetch my family hm le!...tho i LOVE to b alone...but im a homey guy... n i do reli wan to c my parents n my lil bro!...tho i dun like him coz he makes hell for me at hm.... gosh...im reli excited n lookin forward aft tt.... w00ts!...

guess tts all....basically...i wan to reli wish tt my frens will do well for the O lvls... n stop frettin ova love n relationships....mainly Fika , Fiz n peiru... fika...if u c tis....plz tik of wad u haf done tt time...u noe im owaz ur bez-est fren...n i hope we will owaz b...

w00t

2005-09-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

hMmM.... verI verI l0nG tiMe nV bloG oR c0me online le!... moRe dEn a mtH nV touch my com at ease le...coZ my parents condemn me to use tHe com... haix....coz i reli did badly for my mid-yr lorz.... well...all my fault la actually....keep playing games lorz....lolx....hmm.... currently i reli reli wan to d0 well for my O lvls n go to poly...
seems so hard currently wif an F9 in hand... lolx....F9 sia...its my Chi....dotx...lucky i still got B3 in hand for my E maths... not tt bad....but i will retake my E maths coz tt time nv study...so its not my bez....n i wld rather hope i will get an A1 tis time...n no less....an A1....
well....y tis period of time i can online till so song coz my parents leave Sg for China lorz....waa... go for 6days... ZzZ....ya...its havoc time....but seriously....i do miss dem....so quiet at hm now....lolx... HmmM...
Ytd: Fiz, Kl n gay Cai come my hse gay ard!...no la...come play games....mainly Ps2 n my com...lolx....well....actually not supposed to let frens come my hse....but i bored ma....lolx..... den tt gay Cai keep askin me to call gals come.... dotx...i wont bring gals come unless my gf de... hahaha!... Den in da mornin lidad... i tok to Mic....her nick lik wad lidad...well....duwan comment so much la...haha...
well.... for my tuition.... D O T X... my tuitor pushin me like fuck liaos!.... all got time limit.... will go crazy la....but seriously....he told mi tt i noe moz of my stuff.....but im veri slow in solvin those toot Qns la....lolx....so i guess....i shd push myself seriously...hahaa!...
well...i guess tts my life since my last post..... currently studying like sia0...but still not havin quality studyin la....still veri slack...i tik aft todae...i shd reli reli do quality studyin le....n oso... i had sm quarrels in sch wif sm fuckin bloodly noobs!....sec2 leh....zzZ...
well...the 1st time fight wif him coz his fren come bang me....duno wad shawnard or wad la... the name so toot oso...den the guy who come XL wif me is ping yuan...nb..duno wad type of toot name oso...lolx... 2nd time coz he go disturb Yq....zZz....duno y lei...i cant tahan so go 'help' lorz...i oso dun tik i did much...lolx...anyways....tt guy wont come di siao me liaos....coz got yat help... well....yat's my pri sch fren...tho not tt close....i do treat him as my veri gd fren de...
as for the recent X country at MacRitchie...wadeva the spelling... well.. i ran n ran....den suddenly saw ying2 n shiya... dotx....duwan comment la...keep to myself...den i oso saw yat... den aft tt wen he come back frm the run...i help him wif his legs....dotx....his leg cramp until veri veri badly....aiyoo...

i tik tts it for now ba...i wan to conc on my studies...n aft O lvl....wahaha....i wan dye hair n work le!...

zZzz...

2005-07-28T01:15:00.000+08:00

Zzzz...hmmm....long time nv blog le....hmmm...well...seriously i feel tt i haf to buck up le!.... tts 1 tik for sure.... the next tik...which is 1 of my purpose y i wan blog....hmm....i juz dun utd y a normal guy like me cant find a gf....yet sm1 who is not tt normal can find!...dotZ!...n ofcoz sm other little tiks here n there which makes mi so fed up!...hmmm....i juz dun utd y!... dotx!... no matter wad... the world is changin!...n i dun get the hang of it!!... zzZz....
as for todae...well....dun utd y im so stressed up....hmmm...perhaps coz of my studies.... well... duno la.....n todae i wan go hm cant!...zzz...tt OM prevent mi frm goin out coz i muz go serve detention....tmd....luckily Kl , Ak they all stay back...if not i jia lat... hais...

hais....

2005-07-19T01:16:00.000+08:00

zzz....well...so tired until 4gt to blog....hmmm....well....my last Sunday Soccer...i felt tt i play veri well....scored a goal....n bla bla...seriously...i now reli no mood to tok man....felt tt my frens reli left me out!.....sians....so im so lonely....sians.....
well....totally no mood....ok...tata...im totally moodly...

ZzZ....

2005-07-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

zzzz....hmmm....todae is 14th July....wen i 1st woke up....i tot it was a normal day until Prem gav mi sm hints abt msgin sm1....well.....n i suddenly came to noe tt todae is a special day....perhaps in a sense tt it was special....well....gettin away frm tt subject 1st....well....todae Ms Chow reprimanded me....well....mayb she did, mayb she didnt....but i will take it as it is.....well..... she actually pointed out alot of tiks abt me....perhaps wad she had said to mi r all true.....the Marvin she knew last time is totally diff den the Marvin she knew now.....n it totally tells me 1 tik....im still not myself yet n i haf not found myself yet....not only tt.....i haf totally gone off course....i had found myself btw the clouds where im buildin castles in the air....but i shd not do tt!....i shd b buildin my castle wif my bare hands n all the sweat n my hardwork in it!....perhaps it does makes sense tt todae is a special day....
goin back to the topic....well...im sure tt im not cold blooded....but todae....i did smtik so bloodly cold tt i duno how to describe to myself!...well....Prem n Fiz told mi to msg her hapi bdae....but i still didn.....ironic.....i wld actually n eager to b the 1st person to wish her previously....but now?.... not even a msg....nth at all.... i noe its not myself...coz i noe im not cold blooded.... but perhaps is wad my feelings felt tis way....perhaps wad had passed, had passed....i duno.... i felt so pain now.....the pain still lingers....n the eagerness to juz send a msg is oso there....but perhaps the pain tt she brought to mi killed evtik off....the pain tt she left for mi is juz too pain for mi to accept her still....perhaps Prem is rite... "one can forgive, but will never forget..."
how true how true....perhaps i still duwan to face her.....but i will still carry on my life in wadeva case....i'll juz take it as lesson in my life tt i had gone thru.....

zzz

2005-07-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm...well....veri veri long time nv blog le....hmmm...no time la....mi owaz so bz....but not on sch wk....zzz....hmmm...well....currently still veri sick.....coughin awaz while typin....zzz....veri pathetic.....hmmm....well....todae i forced myself to go sch leh....zzz....even tho im still sick n anytim can drop lidad....zzz....hmm....todae i notice smtik veri unusual and its not i will usually do even....hmm....felt tt Yq is feelin veri dw.....zzz.....made mi even sick....zzz....waaa...den todae got remedial....zzz..den infront mi is Fika n Fiz....zzz....made mi rem of the past wif Yq....omg!....wtf.... tis kind of tik will actually happ to me!....gosh....perhaps i shd sae ofcoz.....im not tt kind of cold hearted person u noe.....well....at least i keep my feelings fine but alittle pain ofcoz....aft tt....i wen hm.....n slp throughout....now im gona slp again....perhaps i dun intend to go sch....im so sick!!...

haiss..

2005-07-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

hmm....ytd i wen to coffee bean wif Ak n Kl....go there study....hmmm...but turn out like go there slack n c gals...lolz....hmmm....anyways...aft tt wen to Ak's hse....hmmmm...reach hm at abt 11:30pm orady....hmm...den my dad told mi i got sth....n saw a bag....well...got to noe tt it was frm Sebas....hmmm....dotz...well....now ar...mi n him i tik shd b okok le ba....but how abt Prem? sians...mi duno....veri fan.....aft sch todae...mi n Ak n Kl go lot1....hmm....zzz....den the bunch of gals in my class oso got go....zzz...knn....totally spoil mi dae.....wan go there slack oso cant....zzz....
haha...den tt Kl owaz make mi...den suddenly saw HuiTing den he totally seh...haha!...he look so funi...lolz....
hmmm....for a00....veri wad wif it..oso duno how to describe my feelings....well...i duwan express out much.... theres owaz room to pp tell sia0...u noe...haha....so i juz keep quiet....

bdae...

2005-07-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

hmmm...todae my bdae!!!....hmmm...mornin woke up den go play soccer......quite reluctant to seriously....anyways...i go lorz....hmm...go Queensway there....zzz....so far....anyways....waited for SO long.....zzz....so toot...n play oso afew mins nia....zzz....play oso lag players...not full 11 pp.... more worse den us....zzz....
anyways....aft soccer...we go back hm lorz...mi n Alex n Ak go bukit Timah there n eat.....aft tt....hmmm....den i reach hm den i slack infront of the com le....oso nth to do......lolz.....hmmm... well....aft tt...my mum n bro come back.....zzz....come back make so much noise....knn....den my bro provoke me again...knn....den my mum side him again....knn.....tmd.....den i veri moody for the rest of the day liaos....sians.....ofcoz veri sad la....zzz...hmm....wad a dae to haf in my bdae..... well....used to it le....ev yr lidad de....looks so normal....
hmm....well....todae onli 5 pp wish mi bdae....hmmm....1st is prem....12am msg mi le...lolz.... 2nd Hj....den Serene....den my 2 ex.....zzz...i rather duwan Yq to msg mi....zzz....i duwan huai nian!!...zzz....hmm....den aft tt my loyal pilots of A00 moz of dem noe le....den all wish mi!!!..... so HAPI!!!....esp Fiz....his wing de guidelines put so big big n wish mi hapi bdaE!!!!....well.... den aft tt came to noe Ken de bdae is 13th and Yong Siang is 14th!!...both July....zzzzz....waaa... make mi tik of 14th!!!...zzz....sians...anyways....both of dem my loyal pilots....haha!!...haIss....wAd a bdaE i HaF....haIss...

a00

2005-06-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

Area00[Web-based Game]

well...started playing since sec1 ba....close to 5yrs of playing tis game liaos....but i stopped in various intervals....well....at least tis game....i learnt it myself....all the tiks like respect for influencial and respected pilots or how to command a wing or wadeva la....well.....i further know how to command and to decide my decisions much better wen a gd player taught me how.... actually not taught...but many advices frm him....which leads to who i am now in a00.....
hmmm....feel tt a00 did show my lfe in a way...hmmm...oso duno how to explain...durin the June holis...hmmm...evdae tong.....haha....well......it showed how lifeless i can b....haha....well....n oso showed how lonely i am...haha?...perhaps....
hmmm....create my wing called Diplomatic Terrors(DT) which made me influencial and being respected by many currently...well....i am currently veri satisfied wif my current status in a00....
nevertheless....i will not boast ard....n will owaz b humble....which i learnt sth....y want to show off n y not juz keep urself low profile?....
currently...im semi-retired...and i reli want to study...n i hope i haf the motivation to do tt....haha....

zzz

2005-06-27T04:37:00.000+08:00

zzzz....well...now early mornin....well...todae got exams....zzz...sians....muz study le....hmmm.... waaa....long time nv slp so long le....ytd i slpt at 6pm....till now....waaa...10hrs of slp....haha.... hmmm....ytd i wen for my sunday soccer....haha....many wks nv go for it le....
hmmm....i tik i played okok coz due to my injury....if not for my injury....i cfm play beta....zzz.... i shdn play tt time wif the big boys....zzz....if nv play wif dem....i saved my money n oso prevent myself frm injurin myself....

sians

2005-06-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

hmmm...ytd n todae wen sentosa....but wif my parents...haha.....hmm....1dae i wen there....saw ex-cckss pp...sians....den nvm....go to the resort...zzz....so old....zzz....heng nv stay there....haha.... well....1day go there slack...nth to to den i wen to the beach....wooo...got gals in bikini dancin.... lolz....well...look awhile den i go le...haha..... reached hm abt 12++....
come back liaos...i play games lorz...waaa...play until nv slp...play till mornin...lolx....den nvm....abt 10 lidad i go slp....den woke up at abt 4....interval got wake up...zzz...duno y....haha.... den reach there abt 5....waaa.....sians....go there i nth to do again...owaz sit near the BBQ pit.... lolx.....aft tt ar....ate finish....cut finish cake...i go beach again....nv go c la...haha...i go there slack.... coz BBQ pit too many pp....zzz....n so stuffy....haha....
hmmm...wen i look upon the skies...i saw the whole sky wif countless stars....n reminded mi of many many tiks....1st tik....its the trip to China wif my parents...coz tt was the 1st time i c the whole sky wif so many stars!!....hmm...aft tt ar....my 2nd tot is wen i was in the beach...well...wif sm1....sm1...tts in the past n my memories orady.....the time wen we were 2gther.....suddenly so vivid n fresh in my mind....zzz....haiss....y ar.... well...cant helped it...so i wen wif the flow....feel the breeze flowin past my skin and wach the stars n tikin of the past...n i suddenly felt sth....its no longer painful as it used to b....onli cld find loneliness in me......haiss

dotzz

2005-06-21T09:31:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...well...cant slp...for no dam reason.....perhaps got....haiss....coz my com ok le...haha!....i can bare to leave my seat!... haha!!.....
anyways....bloggin again got a reason....hmmm...how shd i sae?....juz now in the nite....wen i juz sort of repaired my com....i noticed tt Yq de nick in msn diff le?....hmmm.... "nv eva regret noein u... tc owaz... hope u r owaz hapi.."....hmm....well....wad can i sae?....i juz wana blog to let my feelings b heard....n to b remembered....n i will owaz rem tt i can cfm 100% tts not for mi....haha?.... tt kind of bitch will write for mi?....pui...kill mi i oso wont believe....n it leaves with juz 1 possiblity....she n tt bustard bb le......well....i juz had mixed feelings.....i oso duno y.....n i oso found it hard to explain tt feeling....but my words will nv hold it back....i c tt toot guy i will still beat him up!....knn....perhaps sm may ask y wen dey not 2gther anymr....but...who cares?....tt kind of toot bustard....if i gib face to him...i no face to c myself.....i guess...i hav my own reasons....
another tik....duno y tis few days got many strange dreams....oso duno whether gd or not....haiss...

dotz

2005-06-21T03:38:00.000+08:00

hmm....sians....i tik tis period of my life veri veri unlucky....hmm....let mi turn back the clock to sat...hmmm...let mi c....tt time mornin woke up....wan on com cant...zzz....den i call the techician... den told mi the RAM got prob...zzz....muz sen d the whole com there....zzz....den i tik tik sun den do.....so aft tt i go soccer in the aftnn......zzz...go clementi there....so far....go there for soccer....nvm....play wif big boys!....zzz....nvm even...i noe cfm lose de.....n nvm if we lose n oso burn my pocket.....take it as experience.....so huh....aft match....knn....i so damn F off....i tik the whole tiky abt the soccer so crappy.....n even sprained my ankle!...zzz.....pay money juz to sprain my ankle?!....zzz....
hmmm....so wad does it means?....i cant go do my com!!....sians!!....hmmm....den todae huh....i feel the urge to open up my com to do sth.....hmm....den i open lorz....den now ok le....haha!!...
hmmm....abt my life?....veri sians....haha....hmm....saw alot of tv shows.....waaa...duno y tis few days so many love stories?....hmmm....anyways...learnt quite alot frm it....haha....

dotz

2005-06-18T03:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm...todae huh....woke up nth to do...den aft tt i received acall frm Hafiz....sae go play soccer....den go Kali there play....zzz....knn....there the standard oso quite gd....but 1 tik gd is tt there the pp not tt rough....unlike mi perhaps....i tik i played too rough le....lolx....but u tik i care?...tts my style of playin lorz....haha....so i dun even care la....
hmmm...aft tt go to Wq's hse there slack....along wif Hafiz, Hj, Wc, Kl n Hadi....zzz....keep tokin abt tmr de soccer....i mean todae....lolx....den nvm....i so sian until i go call sm1....zzz....knn....tt Wc, Hj and Fiz keep disturbin mi....like she my gf sia....zzzz....haiss...sayin abt her ar.....duno la.... take my time....perhaps wiff tis time...i can get to noe more abt her ba.....sians.....sians.... beri beri sian.....zhaozz...

yo

2005-06-16T08:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm....ytd wen to class party.....well....intended not to go de....coz i only slpt for 3-4hrs?... well....coz i was playin area00.....now im semi-retired orady....hmmm...coz i duwan tt kind of life orady currently....haha....ofcoz i noe in tt game i orady became influencial...n i tik tts enuff....
well....tokin abt tt class party....hmmm...reached there at abt 1 sth....waaa...all the food there on the table....waahaha!!...hmmmm...go there ate 4 plates of bee hoon u noe...hmmm...duno y can eat so much....haha....hmmm....at least i contributed.... haha.... well....den many others came juz 5mins lata den us....haha....so it means we sort of earlier u noe....hmmm....aft tt...alex came...Ak's couz....hmmm...rite aft tt....tt bloodly toot came....wif her 2 other frens....zzz...totally sian diaos.... aiya...den i go play soccer....haha....scored quite afew goals....
hmmm....aft tt....go call sm other pp....if not veri sian...n was reli veri hot....haha....hmmmm.... chatted for 42mins....dotz...hmmm....hope i wont called another person le....if not my parents will kill mi....
hmmm....came back at abt 7:45....hmmm....so tired....bathe all tt den i slp le...lolx....abt 10 lidad den woke up....aft slackin ard....go slp again.....haha!.....

dotzz

2005-06-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

todae ar...wen for soccer...hmmm....tis time, wif my frens....we wen to Bukit Timah....waaa...far sia....haha....smmr the pitch nd to pay de.....lolz....
well....1st half we actually up by 2goals....wooo....tho i striker....but nv score...sians.....den aft tt... we draw...knn....i veri angry sia...nvm abt Hj own goal....but wen maxim keeper.....knn....tt 2nd goal is a total crap....the ball rollin so dam slow yets can goal...knn...ball rollin on the line....den hit the post...den goal....total crap!...n he leh....wach n c the ball ROLL in......tmd....aft tt....sub Alex keeper....nvm....he still dare wan play striker....knn.....totally bhb....i feel dam disgrace abt tis....nv i c a toot keeper wach the ball ROLL in....if other team nvm....i will juz ROFL.....but tis is total crap!....
me huh....wa lao....1st half 1 good shot....sians....2nd half....the ball wen past the keeper....but hit the dam post....ccb....y owaz i play match hit the dam post de.....knn....
aft tt....called sm1 to chat chat...well..brightened up my dae lor...if not i sure fucked up de....knn...

dotz

2005-06-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm....todae huh...so funi....mi n Ak n sm other pp pon Maths lesson...haisss..i felt like goin de lorz....but still....i nv go....haha....nvm la...3hrs lor...i duwan die so early....haha.....hmmm....aft tt ah...i go hm le.....sian sian....lol....den settle sm prob wif my gamin tiky....
hmmm...aft tt i wen to JP....woooo... met up wif sm1....haha.....juz duwan sae....hmmm...i had enjoyed tt session.... haha....n i reli do.....
next huh....i go play soccer....at abt 8 issit?...duno....4gt orady....den aft tt huh....i knocked my head..dotz....Kl trip mi n i was runnin too fast...total crap.....but not bad leh....i scored at least 4 goals.....haha....sians.....den my whole mind was in a blank..i totally 4gt wad i did todae.....dots dots....
hmmm....head still pain....byez..

zzz

2005-06-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

ytd wen Sentosa wif my frens n broz....haha...hmmm....ytd nv blog coz too tired....haha....hmmm....go there oso doin nth much...lolz....coz no ball no nth...haha....so we play sand n water?...lol.....den aft tt i saw Yat n Rene....lol.....they reli got alot of tiks to do ar...haha..... oso nv expect dem to b there....haha....hmmm....aft tt.....abt 5 go back...den in the coffee shop at harbour front saw Alex again....lolz....saw so many of my frens todae....lolz....
hmmm....duno wad to sae le....lolz....

haisss

2005-06-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

todae got poly visit n im so hapi wif it!!...n im serious!!....the whole program was juz so nice!....
1st....i got to noe more abt the business course n im gettin veri interested in it sia!!...haha..i tik moz prob i will wan to go business course le...haha....
hmmm...aft the whole program...i go find my wingman(game).....hmmm...i reli bwg.....errrs... so nerdy?....hmmm...n i tik Cai more hdsm....lol....den ar....got 1 guide....ehhh...duno wad name la...lol....hmmm....she helped me get to duno where de place to find tt wingman of mine... den oso folo me walk to MRT station!!...so gd worx....haha....reli brightened up my dae....hahas....

dotz

2005-06-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

sians....O lvl MT....haisss...juz hopin for a D7 will do le ba...if C6 beta ofcoz....haha....
hmm...my life ahhh...okok ba...lol....i oso duno wad to sae ba....hmm..i juz found out my face gettin more worse liaoss...jia lat...i nd to slp early le sia...sians sians....
k..nth le...

dotzz

2005-05-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

dotz....todae slpt at abt 5....woke up at abt 10am!!...siao siao!...totally not enuff rest lorz....haiss... coz todae i go bank did smtiks....make card, do donation and oso withdraw money...sad sia...now insid so little money!...haisss...coz i go buy hp for my mum!....eh!..aku guai kia!!....haha.....i tik tt hp veri suitable for my mum la....light, small, user friendly....lolx...my mum quite hapi i tik!....
hmmm...aft tt come hm at abt 3+ ba....den slp le!!...waaa....so shuang...hmmm....aft tt i stare ard the hse la....duno do wad oso...haisss...shd b studyin yets lidad....dotz dotz....
aft tt....my mum came hm at abt 8+ ba...come tell me abt who she saw...AGAIN.... dotz la....i duwan her tell me yet lidad....dotz dotz.....but..smhow my heart not tt sour le....i tik its a good sign ba....i hope tt bitch dun suddenly provoke me for nth la....if not i dun tik i can tahan another blow frm her sia....anyways...my mum complain tell me sae....y tt gal wan pt like so tou ji mo kou lidad....sian sian....den wan me do wad sia....go infront of her scold her meh?...tt kind of bitch....my eye will pain n make myself more thirsty....
haisss...MT O lvl juz tmr nia....siao siao....jia lat....i wan make it a D7 at least.. like so hard lidad.... haiss...juz try my bez la....

hmmm..

2005-05-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

sian....todae nv do enuff for my mock exam again....grrr...i bwg abt myself...keep on slpin....sian sian......seriously todae veri sian...hmmm..anyways...todae go sch rainin again....dotz....saw Sebas....kan dotz....haiss....even tho nv tok le..doesn mean he nth to me.....smmr abt another tik... related to him even.....nb....tt tik ar...i reli beg la....haisss haiss....
so...todae ar....totally no mood la..my mind drifted away....lol?...anyways...aft tt....at bus-stop aft sch....nb....my 1st look...i saw tt Jenna...chao lame....totally sian diao....who wan c her sia....nvm nvm....den i tot....hmmm.....saw her means saw the other 2 who nv come sch....nb...i nv even wan go c sia....den i in the bus-stop liaos...tt Sj go shout....kan lame....more lame.....tryin attact attention nia.....hmmm...Ak's attention la....but i c Ak....i wan luff nia....but i totally no mood to luff....hmmm...den Kl come....told mi how tt Yq wear.....waaaaaaa...kan bo mood la...totally like bitch la....nb...now i reli cant stand it but juz to state the facts la....juz a total bitch.....pp sae she grow prettier?...siao...grow more bitchy nia.....n who cause tt?...not mi....i will nv let my gf go ashtray de.....her frens lor....who else sia.....
nb....in the bus-stop keep on tikin of so many tiks liao....den now got her presense...siao la....wan mi break dw nia.....sian sian....y suddenly my life become sian again!...knn....

sian..

2005-05-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

haiss...todae arr....ups n dw sia....nb....at 1st i tot i cld start a new life....hopes r high....but disappointments is bigger....dotz dotz....life is totally unpredictable...gosh....O lvl is comin even.... i wan to get at least a pass la...knn...if lidad goes on....i reli bwg...hmmm...wad to sae...wad to sae...im juz too moody to do anyth now....haiss haiss.....
juz to look at the brighter side....i tik i juz hab to put in more effort ba....no mood no mood...

zzz...

2005-05-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

todae ah....sian sian....so Sunday soccer..hmm...scored a spectacular goal?i tik quite chio ba... half court or sth lidad ba...oso duno how to describe la...haha...but i veri angry n i kept flaring off... sian sian....tho tt goal nice...but i guess it wasnt my dae....haha..hmm....nvm le....oso duwan tok much abt it la...
hmm...todae ah....i tik no more le....haha....the rest of the dae of wad i did i duwan say la.... haha?...

zzz

2005-05-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

hmm....todae...Yj threw the paper...hmm...tik he great?...nahz....anyway....ytd's game....he brought my parents into the pic....tik he sm sort of pro issit?....hmm...in the 1st place...he shdn even sae our parents....he tik we no parents n he got parents veri great?...u call tt a good guy?... knn PUI...next....throw my paper?...knn fuck off la!....lim pei show him respect yet he c me like a fucker ah?...knn....i 1 bash c wad he do....but i WONT do tt....basically im a person with better education....better english speakin qualities....speakin abt tt..i tik todae's Eng i cfm fail....i sort of slpt thru the paper....zz....i hope tmr's Sci i do beta...n im targettin an A1 lo....
hmmm...Hj ah...waa...his nick veri attractive sia...tt time sae dun like mi....now tokin craps..."Don Ever Let A Game Ruin Ur Frenship,Its Nt Worth It,U Will Onli End Up Lonely =)" hmm...wad he said is indeed correct...i admit it...but...who in the 1st place disown mi as a fren btw mi n him?...its him...tok to him in msn duwan reply....issit act dao?...or wad?...basically wad Sebas said was totally correct...
next person....Fiz...my fuckin BEZ fren...n since wen?....Sec1...n wad now?....another person wan to disown mi ah?....ok lo....i cant do anyth....juz lan lan la....nb....btw....shared my secrets wif u...n i bloodly hope u wont let other pp noe....
hmm...i guess wad my other frens sae was rites lor...a simple game or any game can show sm1's true colors....if pp cant c THEIR's...i dun mind tellin u if u ask mi....n ofcoz i noe mine.....i noe myself more den all of u guys....even sm1 whom i shared so much wif...oso do not noe mi well...n who the hell will other pp noe mi well if tt person didn even noe mi tt well?...
next...i bet tt bloodly bastard has wen ard saein abt mi le...u tik u veri great to sae pp behind other pp's back?....u r more of a backstabber den mi...get a life...

haiss...

2005-05-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

hmm...wad can i sae...haiss...todae go sch ah....hmm...i guess i feel alot of tension btw mi, Hj, Yj n Fiz....haiss...den in Math lesson...tt Sebas irritated mi....hmm....Radi was there....n i guess she was the only 1 knew how i felt....2 occasions of irritation....n i tried to tell him to stop....if tts the case...i lan lan liaos....
seriously...i had a running nose....i was sick....n i hated being irritated wen i hav a runnin nose.... haiss....wad can i sae....evtik is fated?....i guess so....n if tts the case...tts the case.....lan lan lor....
n...todae....i duno how im feeling...while goin to the ava, i actually wen to the toilet...as usual?... slacking...haha....hmm....but wad reli bothers mi is...i came out of the toilet only to find out Yq is infront of mi....dotz?....i duno....the feeling exasperation n mortification is there.....well...i hastened my speed n walked infront...wad else....stay there to let sm pp do those funi stuff?... anyways..i didn even noe who did the coughin tiky...but it bothers mi....even tho tt happens... my heart on longer feels pain....but i seemed more light-hearted...n i dun feel....tt angry...i wonder if i had forgiven her....haiss....
hmm...rite now...im seriously feeling real lonely....seems tt i got no1 to eat wif during recess orady....n if tts the case...i go fast liaos....btw...tmr is exam....haiss...im juz worried for my Sci... haiss..perhaps i may wan to stop the game....its givin mi alot of pressure...far more den wad Yq is givin....haiss...can sm1 juz care for mi now?...

hmm...

2005-05-18T06:59:00.000+08:00

zzz....tmd....rite now im feelin veri wad...hmm....wadeva the case...my life has been veri stagnant nowadays...its veri borin....my life is veri borin.....but im getting used to it.....hmm.....as for frenship....now there r 3 pp....our frenship turned sour.....esp Fiz....hmmm....sth i nv even dreamt of......but if tts the case....i wont bother.....at least he showed his true self.....n i only NEED true frens....not fakers.....n oso hypocrites lik Yj.....hmmm....for Hj?....i tik Sebas they all sae is correct.....n if tts the case.....i juz lan lan la.....
hmmm....im livin in a lifeless world now....yet im struggling to hold on to the reality....n it seems tt area00 fits mi nicely into it....yet i will study hard....being so toot now...i duno how to....but i will....motivation is there.....i wonder who will bring mi out of tt world to live in a fulfilling life....n im awaiting....haiss....

haisss...

2005-05-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

haiss...todae ah....7 den slp....den 9 wake up....kaos....using com den my mum come back frm market....den nag at mi....framed mi...zzz....sae i act go slp den wake up use com again....zzzz.... okok....den my whole mornin frm frm to Bishan park so toot....okok...wadeva the case....abt Soccer now....
well....Soccer ah....Fiz nv go, Ak nv go...tmd kan sian.....hmmm....den ar....we played wif other pp in the 1st half coz those pp so slow....pp as in the regular players......they owaz late de....kaoss.... so ah....okok la....saw sm reli good players n both sides played gd football.....well...the pace was veri fast in fact....haha....
hmmm....as for mi....i didn play tt well in the 1st half, where playin wif the other pp.... well...2nd half....we were playin wif ourselves le....haha....i scored the ONLY goal for my team... consolation go...my team all strikers n midfielders...dun hav defenders...tts lame.....no matter how gd our attacks r....those solo-ers juz dun pass the ball to mi....n expects ME to pass to dem....i reli wanted to scold dem....so wad being grads?...their attitude juz sucks....
okok....come back i slp le....so tired....haha....well....i actually dreamt of sm1....gosh....sm1 i reli duwan to even tik of de lorz....i couldn utd.....seriously...i hadnt been dreamin of tt sm1 for abt 6mths le....suddenly come back...tts veri lame!....haiss....called Sebas n chatted to him....haiss... issit recently she keeps bothering mi indirectly den i lidad?....kaos....lidad i veri stressed up!...

hmm....

2005-05-15T06:46:00.000+08:00

waaa...long time nv blog le....well...playin hardcore game la....kaoss....cost mi my slping hours... n oso my studying hours...i tik....aft my soccer n aft my good rest i wan start studying le....im under-performing lor....
haiss....my desire....is veri broad....oso duno how to carry all of dem....i tik study the moz impt.... but i doesnt seem to do anyth....haiss...to bz wif my game la....dotz....i tik i nd to reflection on my under-achivement le.....if not i sure kio kan by my parents...haha....
btw....recently....abt the game....hmm...actually i was jokin wif Fiz de....by bein the top wing...or wadsoeva if u guys who nv play tt dun utd...well....Yj heard it n commented tt he noe noe my plot n will tell pp....den i jokingly replied tt he shdn sae....
aft tt....my frens told mi tt Yj was pourin all the false tiks on mi....framing me...how great... such frens....well...my gamin frens told mi tt "in real life...u may not c their dark side....u may oni c in games"....n i tik its true....well....as for Hj...i duno....sm1 i trusted oso....turnin against me... crap...
wadeva the case....so many heartening tiks happ to mi....tt includes sm1 tt is not related to mi orady....yet keep bothering mi....i wonder wad the hell she wans....n even scolded me... crap... juz pushin her luck.... btw...i will go crazy bcoz of her....

dangz...

2005-05-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

well..last nite slp at 5 lidad...lolz...cant slp leh....so ard tt time den slp le....den woke up at abt 9++.... Fiz called mi...told mi its rainin...dotz....so nv go soccer....haiss....so....i go back slp again la... dun care le....told mi dad oso.....woke up....no1 at hm again...dotz....omoz evdae wake up lidad....haha?....
hmmm...woke up den do the usual tiky....den whole day face com le....haha...waa...lidad can die oso....so bored....haha....so its another borin day....so nth much to blog too....guess tts all....

dotz....

2005-05-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

hmm....todae ah.....whole day wif a00...wa?....i oso juz realised tt...haha.....gettin more n more active wif it?...haha.....juz another borin day...n oso duno wad to say.....haha....i guess tts all...

dotzzz

2005-05-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

well....1st of all....Hapi Belated Bi**thday to sm1....errs....tts wad my frens told mi to do wan la.... hahas....anyways....tt time i nv do anyth or even say anyth...sm pp scold mi lik im so rong lidad... since ttsthe case...i tik i celerbrate tt belated Bi**thday is appropriate....

ok...now to blog my tiks liaos....well....ytd nv blog lorzz....haha....coz i last nite wen out....juz say abt ytd 1st....ytd i slp at 5....well....i cldn slp....even tho i still drank....gosh....tts crazy....well....i tot of alot of tiks.....haiss....its been so long since i tik so much.....haiss....wadeva the case...i noe tis is inappropriate to tik of tis...well....the past....perhaps she had inserted the depth of wound too deep tt it feels forever there....well...Mrs Choo told mi smtiks....even expects mi alot....but i feel lik im not doin wad she expects mi...im so chaotic now.....goshh...
well....ytd nite...hmmm....wen to Yh's hse....errrs...well...tts my gamin fren....wadeva the case.... juz go there eat....den aft tt...nth orady....sian la....den aft tt go back....waaa...smmr i ride my lil bro's bike lorz....kaos.....ride until my both leg so pain...lolz...
btw.....ytd my mum came back hm den suddenly told mi tis "i saw sm1 u RELI hate..."
dotz....made mi tikin....it cldn b SLY...n the next person is....Yq....coz she only noe Yq veri well?.... haiss...i tell her.... "4gt it..."
haha?....well....deeply in my heart....i rather she NV even tell mi lorz....perhaps tts y i tik so much tis days....while im tryin so hard to fite....theres owaz sm1 who undo it....n actually.... nowadays....tts the biggest prob tt bothers mi ALOT....well....tt day, Fri she nv come sch....yet i bet my mum saw her in lot1....ironic?....perhaps sm of my frens whom saw her says tt she now bian le heng huai....my mind its lik....i feel lik slapping her....wadeva the case.....she is juz another bloodly immature gal.....n a b****....well not the top 1....it doesn relates to the top tiky...
hmm...todae...or rite now....i guess its another borin dae....hahas...

dotz...

2005-05-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

hmm....todae....Chi mid-yr exam!....gosh....wad can i say....nth to say la....exept tt my paper damn chio?...lol!....haizz....oso duno how to read....dotz la.....okok....todae mi n Sebas reli ok le....im hapi... yay!... haha....hmmm...hapi means hapi la!...lolz....nth more to describe la...lolz.... hmmm...well....aft sch i pia hm le....haha....i wen to downtown east....haha....at 1st i dun even noe tt place IS call downtown east...lolz....until i reach there den i noe....oh...tis place is call downtown east...lolz!....haha.....den aft tt i make my way into the place where my frens stay...lolz....hmmm... okok la....chit chatted...haha...i tik i learnt alot of tiks there la...haha....n met alot of "lao jiao".... hmm...not tt kind of funi tiky horz....it means old pilots...haha.....had BBQ......ate alot....den beer!...lol!....gosh....i duno how long nv drink le....kao...for mi...i muz often drink de...if not cfm maboh wan...lolz....hmm....todae ok la.....haha.....waaa....Mel mix Martel not bad leh....chio la....1st time drink such a nice liqour...haha....

well....another tiky to tok abt....smtik i wan to keep in my memory or else i 4gt sia....well....today ah...while takin the train....well....c many tiks....esp the places where mi n Yq go de....i feel tt alot of my 1st times are wen i did wif Yq....haiss....i feel veri pain in my heart la.....n oso....wen i in the train...wen ard the commonwealth places...kaos...make mi so pain....i feel lik....i had done alot for her lorz....i put alot of my heart, soul...juz evtik.....to cherish n love her....but i feel tt she doesnt wan tik but wan mi to gib her freedom?....so i feel its like...i put all my sweat, soul...wa...u name it la....is so futile....n wad i get back is a brokenheart....n oso...i tot of Mel's analogy....i feel tt.... he is rites....u will NV marry sm1 u reli reli n wholeheartedly love....haiss...wen i tik abt it....waaa.. m heart more pain....haiss...wad kind of fuckin world is tis....oops!...i use tt word....
haiss...say n say ova n ova the same topic....im now tikin....am i still waitin for her?...or issit tt i wan to feel the pain she left mi?.....haiss....duno lei....

dotz...

2005-05-05T06:51:00.000+08:00

hmm....blog again as ytd i was so slpy....n i didn even noe wad im blogin abt....haha....well....todae is the MT mid-yr le....i lata muz study!...
well...ytd ah....i tik i 9 lidad i go slp le...haha.....but left my com on....tired ma....haha...wow...i reli n actually slpt veri well...but now abit giddy as i slpt too long?...haha....
n oso....abt my hair....its so freaking crappy!.....i duno how to face my frens...lolz....lets c aft tt...haha....
aft the exam i tik i will hav a fun time!....im goin chalet....but for 1 dae...dotz....goin to meet sm outsid frens!...yay!....haha....

zzzz...

2005-05-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm....todae ah....okok la....except for my hair....today go sch lik normal...until wen i c my hair lik funi lidad...den found out tt my hair got hole!...dang....ytd nite duno how i cut...cut until lidad... so in the end go barber n cut la....waaa....more crappy....go short now....n so weird.... dotz...
hmmm....todae remediation lesson quite early....haha....hmmm....n tmr is MT exam le...dotz.... so tired......aiya...i dun tik i wana study le...haiss....slpy slpy....dun care for now....my slp is more impt now.....

Our Lives Aft Separation..

2005-05-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

Our Lives After Separation...

Hmmm....basically its abt mi n Yq....wad shd i say....during the 1st few months...its truly hell for mi....i reli cant cope....try to look as hapi as possible even tho deep dw im cryin n beggin to find myself back.....but soon....i coped wif tt kind of life n tt mmt....i learnt alot of my past mistakes....
esp during the trip to Taiwan n aft it....
well....even b4 she actually told mi herself tt she had a bf...i actually knew....frm Wq n Sebas.... tt mmt i knew...it was truly maddening...well....aft tt....i gathered many info....took great lengths to do it....n afew wks ago or perhaps more den a mth...i actually realised tt she had at least 2 guys shortly aft we broke....frm then on....i felt she was reli....duwan to say tt word....tis reli motivated mi to move on?...haha...aft tt...i met a gal, Rene....reli good to mi....she came into my life....n reli woke mi up....but im reli veri guilty....i noe i cant c our future....yet i still b wib her....kaos....im such a bustard....n broke hr heart...ironic....i hated pp breakin pp's heart yet i broke her heart.... frm den on....i learnt even more tiks....many....
recently....Yq suddenly contacted mi....hmm...suddenly it turn tiks ard...while im reli n started njoyin....she msged mi....im shocked?...haiss...wadeva the case....i quarrelled wif her....thru sms?... i felt tt was lame!...she commented tt i still had not changed....well...i tik n im absolutely positive tt i had changed....esp the way of handling tiks....aft even more tiking....i finally c the whole picture of our relationship den....BOTH parties where to b blamed...i dun wish to comment it out....but i myself know will do....for tis tiky...i guess no1 or perhaps afew pp noe y....
well...juz afew min ago...i suddenly got the urge to go to Rene's blog....well...i saw the last post... tho its quite long le....but....i tik she said was rite....the only time wen i truly 4gt her is wen pp tell mi abt Yq...i wont feel anyth....but wen will i hav tt kind of feeling?...time will tell....
rite now...i noe i hab mature alot...even Mrs Choo tiks so..n even reflected it on my progress report...i noe i had...n i wont b im used to b....n for tt gal......she juz got a LONG long way to b more mature....continue to play ard in class....n provoked Prem....even now Prem oso...aham... cant sae?...lol...well...she continues to b wif Aud...wad can i say?...gd lorz...hmmm...i actually rather pity Aud....juz now saw her waitin for tt gal ALONE....gosh....such immaturity....haiss... cant b helped perhaps....i let her continue wif her childish world....n i b more realistic...tts all.....
i guess...life goes on w/o her...by the time she actually noes the truth....i may not b even tik of her orady....wad truth?....time tells.... :]

dotz....

2005-05-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

todae....hmm...veri veri tired the whole day...well....ytd nv slp well?....n oso slp quite late....haiss...i guess todae muz slp early ba....anyway....todae i cant concentrate in class as i oso got runnin nose...tmd....well...todae remediation lessons till 5....zzz...so tired still lidad....1 of these days can break dw sia....wads more....Chi Os is comin so soon lik its tmr lidad....haiss....muz buck up le....haha.....
todae PC ah....tok abt career....waaa...duno wad to do lei.....accountant....hmmm...im startin to consider it le....but work load is heavy n its veri boring....but cash is good....kao....duno lei.... todae Sebas ask for Chem engineerin....tmd....im so damn interested lorz....the tiks n the work all suit me lorz....1 tik....color blind....nb....veri vexed....seriously....veri upset....haiss...if can i surely to tiks tt requires Sci.....too bad im color blind....nb.......
den abt tt duno y sudden tots abt Bankin....ovaall the cash is not tt gd lorz....5 figure per yr nia.... dotz....n take yrs to hav tt...sian sia....haha....durin the process....those bunch of toots....keep on tok n tok....nb....make mi so irritated....tmd....i shout in tt rm sia.....den sudden outbreak of sm1's laughter...i tot was Candy's....but Fiz n Prem told mi it was Yq....make mi even hotter..... she got no rites...no rites to do tt.....but i feel veri bad....duno for wad reason....haiss...n i kept on tikin y she did tt....i got no clue....i wan to noe veri badly....but my other side of mi told mi not to noe... im confused....shes bothering mi veri badly....n i hate it.....

zzz....

2005-05-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

well.....a no of days nv blog le....been hardcore facin to da com.....waaa....zhun ma?...haha.....zhun leh....well.....oso duno wad to say sia....hmm....coz i 4gt alot of tiks le....
ytd ah....hmm....soccer....i didn slp well coz i hardcore gamin....lolz....so soccer i veri tired...eyes veri pain...n my play is gettin worse...so i stopped....initial stages i play great football...haha?... well...i didn scored goals but assisted at least 3 goals...1 of dem was to Fiz...haha....haiss....wen i can i stop my goal drought...im frustrated ova tis matter man.....
so....aft tt....i wen hm n slp....at abt 7++....mi n Kl n oso Fiz wen IMM.....nb....Adidas bad no more!...cheebx...so angry n disappointed...so i blanja Kl n Fiz....dotz...tt 2pid Kl say tt he nv c mi treating others...zzz....but its a fact tt i cant deny!...LOL....aft my feelings settled n calmed dw...i look ard n i saw an Adidas shirt....it sort of attracted my attention!...so i bot it....i oso didn reli no y coz it wasn in my shopping list...haha?....aiya...so juz buy la....for fun?...haha....
aft tt....wen hm n started playing....dotz...nv study man!....n slpt at 5?...LOL
so todae....woke up at abt 12 as my Grandma banging my hse door....dotz....aft tt....game la game la......haha?...nv study!...till now still haven....zzzz.....siao liao...n im so slpy now... haha....dun care le...i wan a gd slp...

zzz....

2005-05-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

hmmm...ytd ah....well.....forget alot of tiks of wad happ le....basically...ytd i hardcore gamin!....haha....well...slpt at ard 5am in da mornin.....den todae i woke up at abt 12+.... den realised i got a msg....
hhmmm...aft tt...Calyn asked mi to call her....waaa....i tik todae is the 1stt tim i tok to a person for 6hrs....hmm.....well....tok alot of tiks....hmmm...4gt wad le.....coz now i slpy la...haha...
well....aft tt ah....i go Ak's hse...hmmm...go there play game lorz....hmm....waaaa...tt Ak got 1 game so zhun man!....nb....cartoon porn!...lolz!.....bth lei!......i c le i reli speechless.....bois is owaz bois.....i guess i startin to agree wif his tikin...haha.....
well...slpy slpy....n i tik tts all?....haha...

dotz....

2005-04-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

waaaa...todae ah?....nv reli slp tt much in class!...woots!...hapi?...yea!...haha!.....hmmm...well....mi n Sebas?....duno lei....he duwan tok to mi....den i dun care?....
well....aft sch wen Lot1....hmmm... mi n Kl....well...actually sort of last min..b tt time...Ak go le....tts y Ak nv come wib us...hahas... so ah...on da way mi n Kl tok lorz....while boardin the bus... he told mi tt Sebas lik kan bu shuang me lidad.....den i suddenly tot of alot of tiks....waaa.... tt tim help him celerbrate his bdae tt time is my idea to go find him de lorz...n ke di call his parents to tell dem abt my plan....its lik....where can u find tis kind of fren sia!...n i oso tik....i dun tik its my fault....if there is....is juz veri minor....so y shd i go find him again!....emphasis is again!....
wadeva the case....todae go lot1 go buy stationary tiks...i still feel i still missed out sth...haha...den met Hadi n Kali in Lot1...haha...den we walk 2gther...btw...Hadi nowadays so quiet in class....haiss...pity him...anyway...wanted to buy boxer-brief for Sundae soccer....but...sudden tots....i nd $$$ for Adidas bag n oso Sat!...haha!...Sat i goin Sentosa again!...wooo!...gona b fun!....
buts....i feel abit wad sia...juz now my bro feel lik i sort of gained weight le?...waaa!...jiao la!... n den....my mum suddenly sae tt my face sudden outbreak of pimples?....WAAA!!...shoots!.... waaa....sort of sian 1/2!....craps....i tik i reli did put enuff effort on bao yang my face...esp not enuff slp...but...how can i slp wen so stress?....dotz...n oso exercise!..lolz!....muz evdae exercise le!....toot...if i still dun do anth....im not perfect!....lolz!

hmmm....

2005-04-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm....todae ah....todae ah....well....in class ah...haiss...am i the loss or wad?....duno la....well.... fell out wif Sebas....hmmm....kao bei....i so blur blur....den he suddenly slap my stomach....beri bu suan...den sae him...."dun beat mi again...im serious..."....den he gav mi the "devil" look?.... duno....wadeva the case is...durin recess i go ask him eat....he signalled to mi to shoo....wad can i do?....he rong?...yet ask mi shoo?....crap...duno n dun care...i approach him liaos still lidad....
morale of the story?....pp hav their moody times....n i tik pp shd b more sensitive to 1 another.... so if im juz so frustrated....plz n juz dun come ka jiao mi....i will flare up!... but seriously...i dun tik he will wan to patch tiks up wif mi....being his att n mindset now...even if i wan to?....haha... fate decides.......
aft so many remedials...actually wanted to go back slack wan...den aft tt Ak called mi.... sae go serve detention...waaa!...den rem we got detention!...lolz!....hmmm...waaa...mi n Ak at there tok tok lorz....at 1st do hwk....den he sae abt business....haha....den i was caught into the topic....den tok n tok abt business all tt....haha....
aft tt ah...go hm lorz....waaa...soooo tired!....jit tao slp sia!...lolz!....hmmm...wake up play game.... lolz!.....
*serious*hmmm...last tik....juz now in class n in detention...i tot abt Yq again...waaa....my heart damn tootin pain....haiss....im wonderin wad will happ btw us aft schoolin in tis pathetic sch.... wad can i sae...i feel tt....its her mindset tts still too immature....n im too mature....so much tt i reli wanted to settle dw wib her....haiss...as for smtiks...i guess there will b misunderstandin abt mi frm now on...its up to fate....perhaps she will NV, in her life noe the truth....well....perhaps there r smtiks i had reached my goals orady....im hapi....but the hapiness made mi so pain.... ironic ba?....haiss...
btw...juz now told Ak sm lil tiks abt her....haiss....

haiss....

2005-04-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

haiss...todae ah?...hmm...duno wad happ in sch oso....im not myself....im was wonderin....duno where oso.....my focus suddenly wen off track?....hais....
well....aft sch ah....quickly go back....hmm....Jolene oso same bus?...hahas....well....duno y nv tok to her liaos...haha....hmmm....well...i oso duno y tis few days duwan b tt sociable....haiss....wads gettin into mi!....
next ah....aft tt i go play soccer/badminton/bball at Sebas hse there sia....hmmm....badminton i duno how to play lei...so i 1 corner play soccer la...haha....hmm....trainin back on how to shoot?.... hahas...i tik i sort of get back?....but still got so many errors...haiss....wen can i get back my deadly instincts lik b4?...hais....n....bball ah...nv play lei....coz too many pp at court...dotz.... so only play soccer?...hahas....
hmm....wad can i sae now?....abt my current life in ovaall?....hais...wad can i sae abt my pathetic life now?....its in a tootin mess lik my blogskin....too messy?...hahas...its juz too messy...well ah....i guessim still slackin but tryin to get back on the tootin track....n...im feelin so way bhind others....im struggling...gaspin for air?....n need water for refreshments!...i reli need refreshments rite now...w/o tt....i guess i cant reli go on....im findin for the rite refreshment perhaps?...hais....evtik is fated perhaps....

zzz...

2005-04-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

waaa...todae so tired....hmm...todae ah...nth much lorz in sch...hmm....aft sch got oral....waa... Narain took my bach for oral......hmmm...i totally flunk....haiz...duno y too.......haha....
wad else....todae come back nth lorz...now feelin slpy...i guess i now wana slp liaos...haha?...
no wonder blog until so short?...haha

haha...

2005-04-25T00:36:00.000+08:00

haha!...todae Sundae soccer Ak come sia...but Fiz nv come....zzz....aiya...dey wan celerbrate the 6th anni ma....nvm...haha...i dun mind....anyway....wad can sae abt mi for todae?....1st half i had been in a great game wif many assist....out of 7 goals...at least 4?...haha....
but 2nd half reli haunts mi....i played juz too badly...haiss....perhaps i lost my predator n scorin instincts...haiss...open goals yet i cldn score....n wen got great opportunities....wanted to shoot low....but lik kickin balloon.....crap....ahhh...i tik i reli muz do sth!...i had been scorin spectacular goals!...gosh....at least....the startin part of 2nd half...i made many blocks?...hmmm...got 1 hit my neh neh....kao!....my nipple semi hardened...lolz!...waa...den tt Kl keep luffin at mi....dotz.... well ah...hais....i reli wan to get back my scorin instincts!....
hmm...i reli reli missed alot of chances....haiss...feel lik slappin myself....well...wen will my scorin instincts come back?....haiss....
as for Ak ah!....hmmm...many compliments frm pp wors!...hapi for him la....
hmm....todae ah....so slack...n tired...didn study n do much hwk....haiss...

2005-04-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm....wad can i sae....todae early mornin i go find Sebas...along wif St n Prem....hmm... sort of gib him surprise?....haiz...but he told mi he wasnt enjoyin aft all the tiks todae....
basically...todae we wen K box...y ah....coz not enuff pp to go ice-skate...hais....nvm....but... the main tik is....Sebas didn reli enjoyed....feel bad...well...coz not much pp n oso not much pp singin... only mi n Sebas singin?....n Gay Cai singin in his own world....hahas....so...there wasnt much fun perhaps....well...aft tt....we wached the Pacifer...hahas....tt was reli funi!....
next....All go le...sort of pang seh?....haiss....left mi n Sebas....well.....Sebas didn felt tt hapi at all....hais....seriously speakin....i was reli annoyed abt tis whole tik initially...coz its lik....evtik wasnt all planned properly...n tt Kl didn even come....waaa...reli bth....tt 1 reli worse....hais....wad can i sae....no1 is perfect....theres owaz a flaw in sm1....nvm....
so...mi n Sebas wen Lot 1 de Arcade....hmm....lidad lorz....so tirin.....hmmm...we wached beatle fite!...so funi!...hahas!....
well....duno wad to sae le..anyway....i guess.....many tiks r still botherin mi.....hais...

poem

2005-04-22T02:06:00.000+08:00

By the time you realised the whole truth,
you would had thrown away the bits n pieces of me.
To a place where it could never be found again.

It would be too late by then,
knowing that i had never broke any of my promises.
but what could you do by then?

Nothing will solve the problem.
Nothing could be salvage even.
Only to pick up the pieces of my brokened heart.

Even if i want things done now,
you wouldn't want it.
But what if u want things settled years later?
Will i even think about it?

Life is ironic.
Coz we were ironic too while together...

zzz

2005-04-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

hais....im feelin so dw now...well...many tiks occured to me recently...wad can i sae?...wad can i do?...i cld onl ans...."i can do nth"...the fact is there....its being shown there....ev1 noes...ev1 realised it...but...they had nv realised how im actually feelin rite now....nv....i noe certain tiks r facts...n its juz so obvious....but my heart doesnt go tt way....my tiking n m feelings...its lik a turbulance insid mi...round n round.... forever opposing each others...
i noe rite now how the situation is...n how badly it is...n i guess....unless tiks r all cleared....tiks will nv b the same again...i noe i had establish a new life now....but...my new life is still veri empty....its like a new planet being formed...n hardly any vegetation n activities on the planet.... but this new planet is still growin....tryin to survive....n its still fragile...will peace prevail from the universe?....
haiss...but i noe....tis route i plotted...will onl lead to saddness...perhaps i noe i had forgiven her... but is forget the only challenge now?...perhaps so.....pp lik me will wan to wait even wen they noe its smtik totally impossible....but mi?...only my heart saes it all....is findin the right person in my life tis hard?...haiz

zzz....

2005-04-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

todae ah!...sm hapi n sad mmts...1st of all...todae in sch i nv slp!...except for remediation lessons....hais...big improvement orady....hahas....
well...todae aft all the remediation lessons....i opened my bag n saw a familiar lookin box...n i noe wads tt....wtf...giv mi back?....i nv asked for it!....dun eva giv mi back man!...i didn demand it!.... im not lik her!....demands it....n i dun care anymr!....wadeva the case is....my conscience is clear...i swear....coz i noe tis route i plotted....is the bez way for mi....sm sudden decisions ofcoz... but overall...i noe my tis route im taking...well b in pain n many misunderstandings...perhaps nv i will clear myself....but....evtik will b fated...whether tiks can b cleared anot....only god noes.... haiss.....how i wish i cld clear it...coz i noe if i dun clear it....my life n my heart will truly suffer.... n while walkin to find St n Prem along wif Sebas....who noe wad happ...i actually noe 2 tiks so true...1st...i will NEVER in tis pathetic life of mine...able to forget her....2nd....perhaps Mel told mi was true....u will never marry the person u love most!...not loved...its love....n i guess he is rite...many strong words i had used....but i noe...ev word plays a part....
next...Cassandra....u beta stop buggin mi...or harrass me!....i will do LEGAL actions!...n i mean it!...i nv scolded u or wad....u scolded me 1st...the rights are on mi now!....i will take it nth has happ for now...so DUN go ova my limit!....btw...i did act big or anyth!...n i done u nth!...ur ev words had been recorded!...so dun harrass me ANYMORE!

haizz....

2005-04-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

todae ah....finally culprit kana caught le....hmm....its Kairan....many pp sort of guessed its him le...hmmm...juz tt he duwan admit ba...haizz....he had many bad records le...smmr sch gib him a chance to come back...yet....haizz..perhaps its the temptation ba...hmm...duwan to sae abt it le ba....
den todae ah...my chem test lik shit liaoz....still can slp in the test...knn....i reli nd to slp early!... hmm....i wan to salvage my studies la!!!!....todae mrs choo toked to mi...felt veri sarcastic....but i noe she did sae evtik the truth...n i beta do sth...im still slackin...n reli badly...haiz...
n todae...go out wif Sebas n Kl lorz....at abt 9 lidad...buy...errrs...Aud present....nahz...im juz there!...juz there...lolz...suddenly...1 gal kpkb wif mi....nb....warn her tt i will b angry le lorz...still come n tok crap....knn....i more n more cant stand it le la....den tt person was the 1 who bring Candy into the pic de lorz...not my toot business de...
hmmm....i tik my path of road is correct...perhaps i regretted many tiks in life aft todae...

woots...

2005-04-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

new blog skin nice?...hahas..changed to tis coz it describes my life!
woots...todae ah.....waaa...i improved alot!...lolz....todae ah...nv reli slp in class sia...hahas.... not bad eh?....hmm....well...nth much..but alot of tiks happ in sch aft sch sia...St de hp lost...well...i sort of guessed who issit...hais...no evidence for wad sae it out....hmm....waaa...c Sebas....hais.... guess i noe how he feels liaos..good la....come back le....tokin to Melvin...waa...get to noe abt his current tiky....waaa...now more stress....so many pp found liaos....mi lei....stuck?....
hais....tiks change fast..n im not movin?....coz im still waitin....but y am i waitin if i dun move? haizz...wadeva the case is...im juz too carefree tt im startin to feel lonely....had a tok wif Ms Chow....duno la....i guess im juz too heck care le....perhaps tts the case in evtik...i tik i shd find myself again....be myself is beta.....at least it will help on my studies....
Juz lik my new blog skin said...evtik is in a mess....basically...my life...hahas...

woots...

2005-04-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

woots...todae in sch ah....waa...phy test i duno wad to say...slp in the test...hahas...waa..not reli funi wen so much pressure is on mi....hmm...but i duno how n wad to do lei....slp early?...tts wad i can only tik of...hahas...
hmmm....guess wad....my life is juz to complicated to juz simply describe it out....well....sm bzbd juz wan to noe more abt my life...wad to do?....i noe wad to do....to b more serious...juz duwan tt person to interfere wif my life...well...perhaps Sally told mi was quite true...im runnin away frm reality...at 1st i duno...coz i dun feel it...wen she describe how...lik im makin myself hapi juz to not rem the unhapi tiks...i feel its quite true...hmm...am i?...or im actually lookin for my new life?...i duno y i now feel im still stuck btw the old life n the new life n my future life...hais... complicated eh?...perhaps its too complicated to say it out....hahas....
well...todae come back ah....play game awhile...den go slp...hahas...hmmm...wake up le play game again?...hahas....den aft tt do hwk...waa....do hwk so stress...Dad nag nag nag~~~~~~~ crap...wan to listen song oso cant....
hmm...tts all perhaps....now wan to look for a new blog skin...many complain abt my blog...time to change... :)

...

2005-04-18T01:14:00.000+08:00

waaa...todae Sunday soccer...hmm...Kl n Fiz got go...hahas... Kl 5 wks nv go...hahas!....hmm...todae wear his bro boots sia...hmm...mercurial vapor....dotz...i can wear lors....i so shocked...i tot his bro's feet big....but....its 1 size bigger....waaa...at 1st tot his bro duno how to buy boots...BUT....waaa...i reli bwg...i rather Kl's bro folo mi go buy boots...the money is so wasted...along wif the boots...haiz....
anyway....todae i didn perform to my standard sia....my sun-burn is bugging mi...smmr didn bring water....crap la...hmm...todae tt Thomas n gang brought thier ball....the Nike wan....so crappy sia...wan use tt ball...n its so light...ev1 is complainin lorz....hahas...esp mi...i purposely did tt....coz i dun lik Thomas n gang....wads more...todae play in my bloody team...so...i sort of suan him lik fook...den ah...he todae nv tok much sia...hahas....i tik he sort of suan-ed le?...lolz...
hmmm...in the 1st half i did play to my standard la...but i kept missin....so crappy....i noe im quite tired le ba...wad to do...previous days i did slpt well...cant help it la...hahas...
2nd half ah....waa...didn play fully...coz i reli cant help it...its like...i cant even shoot n cross gd ones....i rather not spoil my day n so rest...
hmm...todae reach hm ah....well....abt 3 go slp...den wake up at 7++...hahas...damn tired... hmm....now still abit tired sia...hahas....hmm....den play SG lorz...hahas....for hwk case ah... lik dun hav lidad....hahas...

sentosa...

2005-04-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

wootS!...todae go sentosa wif Melvin , Eddie , Joey n his frens tt i duno de...well ah....actually i oso JUZ got to noe the 3 of dem....hahas...hmmm....waaa..Eddie n Melvin so frenly....hahas.... well...juz tt they...waa...duwan so sia....hahas....but i scare i learn bad tiks frm dem sia....hahas... hmm...i tik i wont smk le la....i dun even lik the smell...hahas....
hmm....as for the trip ah....waaa...chio man...so nice....so many gals to c.....waa...my eyes wan pop out....woots!...aiya....den ah....1st tik we did is....SUN TAN!...lolz!....sth which i lik it veri much juz recently...hahas!...waa...so chio man!....BUT....onli the back nia....LAME!.....in front more white den my back lorz...so toot!....aiya....i tik can ba....waa....aft sun tan i suddenly saw eddie lookin so familiar!....he looks lik Mr Yuen!...lolz!.....
hmm....aft tt....Joey fren wan jio gals....waaa....even tho duno him i play along....waaa...in the end nv take no.....dotz.....waaa....the gal reli quite pretty leh...hahas....but she not interested in any1 of us...dotz...smmr sae she 18....she dun look lik lorz!....next....
hmmm...wad ah?....play soccer~!....wad else can i do at there man!...hahas!....waaa....sm chio goals....hahas.....enuff.....lolz....but kick ball wif sand+ water....cheebx...so pain!...whole leg red even kick the ball lighty....hahas....aft tt ah....go back mainland n eat....tts abt 8?...hahas.... waaa....den i sit 188...hais....remind mi of so many tiks...cheebx....luckily along the way i slp throughout...duwan tik of it...so crappy...
reach hm ah....waaa...aft bathin, do hwk half way....got 1 toot msg mi....saein lame tiks.... cheebx....i rather she keep to herself...knn...feel tt she wan mi to tell her wen i hav it....yet she nv even did tt...juz wen im so hapi abt todae u now makin mi tik so much tik n i now hav to settle alot of tiks!....wo shi bu shi shang bei zi qian ni de?!!....juz lik a leech suckin my blood, my hapiness, my pain....EVTIK!....crap!

woots...

2005-04-16T05:07:00.000+08:00

woots....now wad time already ah?!...lol!...omoz sun risin....hahas!....haiz...guard my bloodly wing till lidad....hahas...well....ytd nv go sch....well..coz i go c doc....waaa....10:30 appointment i 1 reach...hahas...not only tt....i ovaslpt at the hospital!...coz ytd b4 i slp at 4 n woke up at 10...hahas....can die...hmmm....so pai seh....ev1 go le except for mi n sm new patients!....lolz!.... so...i rush go back for my cca!....soccer!...lolz....hmm....wad ah?...nth much la....got ALOT of misses....craps!....hais....dreamin mayb?....hahas....next tik....
aft tt i go psychiatrist....woots....go NUH again!...dotz....well....learn even more tiks....hahas.... well...aft tt i go play bball wif Sebas, ST, Prem....waa....can die sia...reach am at abt 1am....n now juz played finish game...n Melvin toked to mi...jio mi go sentosa aft tt....waaa...mornin meet....kao...can die...left abt 2hrs or less for slpin?...kao...can die.....
hais...must buck up sia!....n i die die aft i come back i slp like fook!....

woots..

2005-04-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

woots....waa....todae another tiring dae....waa....wen can i not slp again in sch sia....big qn.... muz reli buck up or i'll b dead...hmm..todae nth special lorz....well...juz tt come hm play game liao.... hahas....ironic....wan to buck up yet still playin games....haiz....
hmm...wad can i sae.....well...tis wk is my last wk of cca....so...i hope i can play far beta den the last 2 trainings....n impress my coach...hahas....hmm...nth to sae le...hahas...
waaaa..how long nv give quotes le ah?...hahas....heres 1....
to my frens: It should be a very happy marriage --- they are both so much in love with him..... Irene Thomas

2005-04-10T14:02:00.000+08:00

Abt Soccer...

on da field:
todae ah....hmm...well....made major mistakes in da 1st half....dotz...but i scored a goal!...hahas!...well....had a comeback in the 2nd half...hahas....well...ofcoz i played beta....wen for the ball...had many many MANY chances to score....smhow...i miz all....haiz....but wad statisfied mi is...i had a great volley!...waaa...ball in the air n struck it!....waa...juz a touch man....who could do tt!...bleah...juz kiddin...hahas....sadly to sae...i hit sm1....waa...but the impact was so great... hais...too bad Fiz n Kl not there...if tell dem they sure sae i boasting...dotz....lame sia...
well....i feel tt tis wk i had a "volley week"...hahas....fri trainin n todae both had a great volley tt omoz scored...

off da field:
hmm....4gt to sae abt fri...hahas....tt dae horz...tt Azman(i tik lidad spell)....suddenly treat mi so gd sia...i sit on a grass patch while havin a break as there got quite a no of pp there....den he suddenly bring a cup of water for mi sia....waa...duno lei...i feel hapi...as i noe he has sm respect for mi...i tik its bcoz of tt incident last wk ba....hahas...well...finally...coz last wk he was the one who made mi so irritated....hahas....

todae....ah...well...wa kao....while goin hm...im in da taxi den horz....den radio broadcast Sly's song!...wtf....i go change other chn den my 2pid dad go change back n sae dun change!.... dotz!...i had a hell for 5 min!...my ear wan to spoil liaoz!...so ER XIN!....den aft the song the DJ sae tt he wan a song writer who Jay like de....wan him to rite a song for him!...knn so shameless!.... another tik is...the song is for his gf!...knn!...wad a extreme shameless guy!...hate him like toot!...
dotz....waa...i now listenin to other songs to keep my ears frm spoilin sia!...

poem

2005-04-10T03:38:00.000+08:00

People hope for things to last.
Anything they desire,
just to have it for life.

But there will never be a day like this.
They can grab it with their lives,
only to know that it wasn't meant to be.

In Love,
You can put your life to that person,
care with all your heart,
only to find out that she broke it.

People could say loving a person too much,
is stupid, yet one can disagree.
When you found out by yourself,
the feeling is much worse.

Even through theres nothing between one another,
one could still care for the other,
yet the other heartlessly forgotten the past.

Is this love?
Does ever-lasting love even exist?
but that is the only thing i ever wanted...

woots....

2005-04-10T02:55:00.000+08:00

woots...juz finish playin Sg...n oso readin sm of my fren's blog...sm only..coz tmr got soccer!...n im waitin for it!...hmm...well....todae abit fed up wif the game....keep losin....hahas...no pt saein.... well....aft read Kl's blog esp....i feel so tensed up...coz i haven been reli studying lorz...waaa....wen can i reli get into it?!....i duwan to go poly....im aimin for JC sia....wadeva the case is....i wan to make it....i guess i have to start studyin....tmr ba....make it a pt...
hmm...im wonderin tmr wear mania or pulse sia...hahas....aiya.....can play jiu hao le...haha!.... well....cant believe i played 12hrs++ of Sg sia....i guess i nd to cut dw la....or else im not goin in to JC....gosh....my dream.....nd to work to it now...hahas...hmmm....y am i repeatin ah?....hahas... dun care la.....waa...stress sia now.....gotta slp now.....

dotz...

2005-04-09T13:21:00.000+08:00

woots...ytd no time n oso too tired to blog....now bloggin...hahas.....hmmm...ytd ah....waaa....i got soccer trainin lorz...hmmm....i played quite well sia!...hahaha!....im juz so elated abt it!.....
basically we had a 5v5 match....n we can only score by hittin a ball....waa....veri challengin sia.... hahas....anyway...i didn score....hahas!....but i did hav a superb strike tt leave many stunned.... hahahas!....i 1 touch stop....n the ball still in the air....n gav a volley...on target smmr lorz...juz tt too high...hahahas...im so hapi tt i cld do tt....
anyway...aft tt....i injured myself...lame!....my leg muscle cramp.....cramp until veri badly....i exerted too much force on da match lorz....hahas....bcoz Ah Seng there ma..hahas.....den on da match he nv scolded mi or sth sia!...1st time sia!....hahaha!....
oh ya....i wore my old boot n play lorz....wa kao!....so much diff!...i feel tt i can shoot wif more power!...my current boot is lik....so normal!....well...its lik 2 total diff boot im wearing!....haha!...now i feel Mania is beta den Pulse!....hahas!...
wadeva the case is...im so hapi sia!....n now ah...i wan go play Sg le....byes...

dotz....

2005-04-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

hmm....todae ah....well......in sch i at least improved on sth...i was so awake in the 1st half of the dae....lolz.....well....2nd half im slpin lik mad....lolz...duno y tis few daes keep slpin!....hmmm....duno la....tired oso cant help it rites....
well....todae ah....i wach a tv series....well....2 couple well....the actor said "The prob is tt u dun tak the prob as a prob..." woots...i find it veri appropriate to sth....haiz....evtik is ova le..4gt it....
hmmm...i tik no more le ma.....hahas.....

poem

2005-04-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

Everything about me is in between me.
I know my thinkings and thoughts.
Its just a matter i want everything to be done or not.

But,
Feelings is what that keeps the analytical mind.
Guilt, fear, irritation keeps me from stepping ahead,
which in turn lets out the pessimistic looks on me.

Ruin is the term for my future if nothing is being done.
And the first step must be made,
For the bright mind to regain itself.

Willpower must be my first emphasis.
Only this i can find my future.

dotz....

2005-04-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

todae ah...hmmm...haiz....so moody i guess....perhaps due to the stress im still facing.... basically....many tiks still dwells insid my heart....keep tellin Sebas tt she doesn bothers mi anymr....perhaps wad he says is rite.....im juz bluffin myself....evtim we hav an eye contact....the only feelings her eyes gav mi r so much so tt it iritates mi....nahz...not only tt.....her eyes made mi tik of our past...n tis few daes....i had been suffering frm heartaches....juz bcoz of her....
im still wondering....can she actually NOW juz leave mi alone n juz get out of my life?...perhaps i will feel beta....perhaps i wont b tis miserable....perhaps i wont b tis crazy....all n all....i noe tt i had put my love into a deep pit which has no ending to it...i had dropped foreva.....
rite now...wen she is out of my sight.....im so hapi....lamin ard....luffin ard....but....juz get myself into it again wen i juz c her....y does tis kind of endin happ to mi?....i hate it!...n i hate the person whom did tis to mi...but i cant hold myself to smack her....tis feelin im facin rite now....is so much of hurt....n love perhaps....but...i will b strong......haiz....
wadeva the case is....im not the victim alone....i noe ard mi there is pp who oso suffers the same fate....im sori.....the deep shit im in.....cant refresh my life juz lidad....the time has not come perhaps...
anyway....todae....im so tired in the end....initially in sch im so energetic...lolz....my frens r shocked tt i didn slp...hahas....towards the endin....dotz....cant held myself to fall into the soft cushion of my hands... :P
well...there r hapi times todae ofcoz.... hahas....duwan to mention....

poem....

2005-04-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm gasping for air.
As i know I'm still drowning in the waters,
that is full of desperation and frustrations.

The quicksand is still under my feet.
As I know that I'm still hesitating for the better,
that will lead me to the right way.

My mind still lingers the sense of guiltiness,
which is keeping me from everything.
Even though I noe that if that is being eliminated,
I will eventually find my future.

But...
My future is still in the midst,
It's only problem that it doesn't show me...is my will.

...

2005-04-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

dotz....todae so tired....whole dae slpin in class..wtf....i guess i now hav to slp le....well.... todae not much tiks happ except go Jp n sm little tiks happ tt i dun wish to mention...

woots...

2005-04-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

woots....todae so sao mu....wtf....i ytd play game play until 4gt timing...only had 1hr of slp....dotz....den moz of the time i slpin wen insid taxi.....lolz....hmmm....den ah....by the time finish the whole tik its abt 4 lorz.....hmmm....den wen hm abt 5+....den aft tt go meet Sebas....well... he wanted to buy shorts....but cant find anyth he likes....lolz....too bad ba....haha....
aft tt we planned to go to IMM....well....aft tt Kl sae wan join us....so he joined us n we wen there walk walk....dotz....ate in food court too....den aft tt we saw St wif her family?.....tik so ba....haha.... well....aft tt we return to Cck....at there ah....we go to smwhere memorable to mi n Sebas......hmmm....a playground....hahas.....well.....duwan sae tt muz....hahas.....den mi, Kl n Sebas at there talked alot of tiks....waa....i abit cant stand it lorz....so tired.....so....aft tt quickly come back....gona slp soon....hahas....

zzz....

2005-04-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

zzz....todae so tired...duno wads rong wif mi.....even wen im typin now....im kinda tired.... yawns....haha....waaa...todae i woke up at abt 3++.....lolz....hmm....aft tt i go Fiz's hse to wach movie.....waaa.....wach until episode 40 onli...dotz....no time to wach nowadays....haizz......
hmmm.....go back le...den wach tv....waaa...still haven do hwk....no tim to do tmr....tmr sao mu whole dae.....dotz.....still slackin ah mi...haiz....hmm....well....i tik tts all for todae...coz basically its juz abt slpin.....lolz....